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Oh My Goodness O.o Its been a VERY long time since I've updated this xanga...too many sad memories on this one I guess. *Sigh* So many harships in my life right now, I just havent had time to update my xangas anymore...though I do miss it when I always had this constant need to be on it all the time. lol Lemme think about whats going on in my life (for those of you who actually care) Basketball's been hard. I just seem to lose heart every day. I dont know if its my environment or if its just me. It seems like my teammates have given up trying to encourage me to do better. But hey, I dont blame at all. They have their own lives to concentrate on I guess. Well, I'm going to start singing one Sunday a month at church now. Its Whittier Area Community Church if anyone ever wants to come visit. As for school...my grades aren't too hot (as usual) Its just been so hard to concentrate and for some reason, its even been hard for me to do my work. I don't know whats wrong with me, I never used to be like that. I dont even really enjoy being at school anymore. The only thing I look foward to is OCM on Tuesdays. But hey, I guess its better than home huh? Its better than always being in fights with my mom. Dad Update --> havent talked to him in about 2 1/2 months. =( I guess God's really puting me to the test. No dad to show me the way, so I just have to rely on my father in heaven *phew* Its sucks without a dad...gets really lonely.

Anywho I'll try my best to update from now on. Hope everyones lives are okay. Longer Days and Longer Nights.

"Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggl is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorites, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled aaround your waist, with the breastplate of rightiousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addittion to this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests...Pray also for me that whever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should."

Ephesians 6:10-20

Guess what??? We won first place at our Downey Tournament!!! Woo!!! We beat Warren at the Championship on Thursday, it was so awesome. I didnt really play very much...well, actually I didn't play at all lol But it was so fun to watch, cause our team is so friggen good, I wouldn't mind watching and learning from them all year. Adriana, Domo, and Maltresa are awesome posts and Irela is learning so fast. Melissa is such an experienced point guard that every second I'm learning something new just from watching her. Dora is such an awesome ball handler I have to blink a few times every time she makes a move in order to believe it really happened, it was so good. Stephanie is so fast, I can hardly keep up with her on the court. Plus Connie with her amazing passes and Mo with her beautiful jumpers. KC is so athletic, any sport you watch her play, she just makes it seem like its easy! Especially when shes playing basketball. I still feel like the Varsity team doesnt really need me, but I have so much fun watching them and learning from them. I think it's going to be a great year. WHOSE HOUSE? D HOUSE BABY!! ^_^  Maltresa please get better. I love you so friggen much, dont you ever scare me like that again you hear? Miss ya.

SorryI havent updated in so long. I guess I'll make a long story short. I'm officially singing at WACC I guess, I got moved up to Varsity in basketball (totally hate it), I went to the Switchfoot concert on my birthday (Nov 17) and it totally rocked. Um...grades are average, I've been meeting a lot of new people online whom I have grown to love...still fight with my mom pretty much everyday, even on my birthday...life hasnt been very nice to me lately, so just please pray for me that things will get better in my life and I can grow closer to God...thnx.

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So yeah its like 9:00 and I just got home from the OCM meeting. The meeting ended at like 7:30. Why am I home an hour and a half later you say? lol. Because I'm a dunderhead and I guess I kinda gave Abbey the wrong directions to my house. She was taking me home which was really totally nice of her (Thanks again Abbey) We started going 605 south when ur supposed to take the 605 north to get to Whittier. Bleh...I felt SO bad, because that was probably like a total waste of gas for her and she was like gunna hang out with her friends after she dropped me off. I think I'mma like slip money in her backpack for the gas cuz I feel REALLY guilty about stuff like this. Although I have to say, it was a pretty cool drive, plus I didnt have to go home right away, or in other words, fight with my mom. Yeah, we kinda started like hitting the beach area which was kinda funny but I totally felt like an idiot especially since she was like going through all this trouble just to take me home. I dont even know how to get to my own house! How long have I freaking lived here?? See everyone, THATS how much I hate Whittier. I'm never home enough to know the directions cuz I hate it so much. (Plus I'm usually sleeping on the way home. =P) Abbey kept telling me it was ok, but I still felt bad. However the long drive enabled me to tell her a lot about myself and my past and it felt SO good to get it all out, so thanks for that too Abby. I know I kinda talked ur ear off there and I'm sure most of it was quite a shock considering my freaky past. I know I have all my other friends to tell my feelings to and all, but it was kinda nice to tell someone new and plus her being a Christian REALLY helped too, so yeah. Anyway, the meeting went pretty good. We talked about a lot of stuff we'll be doing at school and we got a lot done so that was awsome. I didnt say very much, I just kinda sat back and listened. It was pretty cool cuz it was more fun to watch. I dont know a lot about being in leadership so there really wasnt much for me to say anyway. School was actually pretty freaking awsome for once. Chem was alright, we played games in basketball, and my my AP Euro teacher didnt collect the homework that I didnt do so that was nice. lol Plus at lunch Abbey and I went through the cafeteria giving people free brownies and giving them papers about OCM. It was really fun and it was even cooler cuz Abbey had such confidence when she talked to all these people. I was actually a little scared cuz I'm kind of a shy person sometimes. But after watching her just talking to everyone, I felt a little differently after a while and little more confident. ^_^ I guess you can say it encouraged me to watch her. I think some of them are actually gunna start going to OCM now, so that was neat (I'm using the word "neat" because I've been saying "pretty cool" alot in this entry lol). Anyway, I meant for this entry to be short, so I'd better stop now. Thanks for reading guys. Peace.

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Hey everyone  ^_^  I've been feeling A LOT better. I want to thank everyone for their support. Sorry Ive been such a pill lately. Just a lot of things on my mind right now, but I guess I forget sometimes that God is there to take those worries from me. All I gotta do is give them to him. ^_^  Man I miss the old days. I miss the times when everyone had such an innocent mind and you didnt have to worry about not doing the wrong things because you didnt even know about them. People always say "Christians are too sheltered." Shoot, whats wrong with that?? Its nice to be comforted and safe. Why go out and do all the bad things when you are happy right where you are with God. Anyway, home still isnt the happiest place on earth, though its kinda improving. I still fight with my mom a lot and my dad stilll hasn't called me in a while. I guess he's still livin it up in Immoral City. My dad used to be an awsome Christian. He was so wise and someone I could always talked to. I could also talk to him after I got in a fight with my mom, but now I cant cuz he would just use my mom's words against her in court, and then some how take me away from her so he doesn't have to pay child support. ~.~  Most of my family is Christian and everything, but sometimes I wish my family didnt have so many problems and such a horrible background. Like I really wish my dad was still a strong Christian so I could go to him for stuff and I really wish I could talk to my mom, cuz we really dont get along. I also wish I was closer to the age of my brothers and sisters. I talk to them a lot, but theres such a huge age difference, so its kinda hard sometimes. But I guess God gave me this family for a reason huh? Oh well, I still love them just as much.

Well, school is pretty rough too but I'm not too worried about it. Well, I am lol but I know that I'm going to get my grades up, so I know I'll be okay in the end. I was all upset in Algebra 2 when my teacher failed my first test, but I think I should stop complaining and know that I gotta show all my work next time. Which is okay I guess, cuz it will get me into the good habbit. Gerson would be pissed if I didnt show all my work lol. I was also so mad about my spanish class cuz la maestra es loca. However, if I hadnt been in that Spanish class, I wouldnt have met Abby and April. Well I kinda already knew who they were, but now they know who I am. Abbey is such a HUGE encouragement to me. ^_^  Everytime I look at her and and see her smile I just really want to do good in life. Shes just such a cool person and an awsome Christian and thats something I really want to be right now. April really makes me laugh during Spanish class, which is at the end of the day, which is when I really need it. So yeah, I think God saw how much I needed to be around them and the rest of the gang in OCM. I'm very thankful he put them in my life, I think it was exactly what I needed right now. I'm sure God put me in these classes for a reason, so I know the rest of the year is gunna be just fine.

Been going to this new church. WACC (Whittier Area Community Church) We pronounce it as "wack" lol. I guess SOME good came from me moving to this icky city. lol. Its pretty cool. Theres a lot more high schooler then there are at DFM, but its kinda neat. We have small groups on Wed from 7-9. The freshmen boys go together, freshmen girls go together, sophmore girls, etc. You get the picture. My goup is okay. They just talk and talk and talk and I just kinda sit there listening. lol. The only thing that sucks is I dont go to the same school as everyone so I dont have very much to talk about with them Anywho, I also recently joined their worship team. I forgot how much I LOVE worship, especially when its a large group, ya know? I still cant decided whether I should play drumset or sing. I dunno, some people say I have a good voice, but some people get mad when I sing and tell me to shut up. lol Which do you guys think I should do?  

Anyways, I ask that  everyone keep me in your prayers. Pray that I continue to find a good relationship with God again. Again, I ask everyones forgivness for my "depressing" attitude lately. I also wanna apologize for being such a hypocrite. I know that a lot of times its kinda hard to believe I'm a Christian. In fact I feel kinda guilty about that picure that was on my xanga not too long ago. If you didnt see it, it was just me flipping the camera off. lol I really shouldnt have posed like that, so sorry everyone. I wasnt flipping you off nichole!! I love you! Anyways, anyone who isnt a Christian, please dont blame Christianity for my wrong actions. I should be making better choices than I am right now, but I'm workin on it. God's love and mercy really is like the coolest thing in the world. Everyone has my permission to keep me on check and yell at me if I do anything stupid. Love everyone and have an awesome day. ^_^

Love Always,

Annelise

P.S. JOIN OCM!!!!!! (On Campus Ministries) The coolest Christian club around!!!  ^_^ (Its even cooler cuz Abbey is President. HeHe). ^_^