lots has been going on...  I'm planning on applying for fall 2008 for masters of fine arts programs.  yes, I will apply to some schools in Boston.  and yes I will also apply to schools not in Boston.  that's how it rolls.  I'm sort of in the middle of trying to fig out what God has planned for me in terms of following the art path... and also trying to fig out how to explain it all to the 'rents.  hrm.  But I need to narrow it all down; I'm no spring chicken anymore.   nuh-UH.

Also my church community @ Highrock bought me the most beautiful guitar in the entire world!!  cos mine broke.  I still can't believe it.  people ask me how it sounds and I always say it sounds like a summer meadow.  also, I need a name for zee guitar.  mebbe Friedrich?  Franz?  for some reason I keep going back to German names that start with F.  I should put a picture of it up but 'm too tired.  I was convinced/coerced by some that to show my appreciation I should play and sing some songs in public or something.  so maybe that will happen later on someday.

Co-leading a small group w/ Julia the violinist titled Perseverance & Joyful Struggles.  I feel like it's the theme of my life right now...  how to continue going when the task seems impossible.  But that's when you know it's God if things turn out ok.  maybe everyone feels like they're always up against some insurmountable force?  I think it's pretty applicable to most peeps, especially YAMs cos we're often at some sort of a crossroads in our lives, whether it be career, life stage, or personal development.

this is all jumbled.  But I was reminded recently in reading something of how God dislikes apathy, sloth, lukewarmness.  things that I tend to sort of fall into.  I need to pick a direction and stick with it all the way instead of letting myself get stuck in the picking.

Anyway.  God is good.  People around me keep telling me how much God loves me, but it's hard for me to catch and hold on to that truth.  I am thankful for the people in my life.

take this sinking boat
and point it home
we still got time

raise your hopeful voice
you have a choice
you've made it now

-- Glen Hansard (Once)