I feel f r e e . Simply Free. I am in . l. . o. v. .e. 

I know it now and I love it. I love him and he loves me. And  I'm not afraid  nor distracted anymore. I k n o w  n o w  w h o  n e e d s  t o  b e  i n  m y  l i f e and who I need [no contact with] And I am rid of that "person".

I promise myself.

I want to scream.

Don't ask why.

I  don't know why.

I like taking pictures.

I really like writing.

I love learning new things.

It disappoints me how lazy some people are. How ungrateful some people can be. Well, really, it DISGUSTS me.

Do you ever get that feeling where you hear someone speak, voice their opinin, and it just  showcases how ignorant they will always be. Damn it. You just want to grab them by the neck and shove some sort of poison down their throat so they won't multiply and spread more stupid people around the world.

But you can't let it get you down, right? Right? RIGHT?

Okay, glad you agree.

I hope I'm not the only pen-minded one here.

Bet you're thinking, "Open-minded my ass, you probably judge people by their responses and opinions and think you're the only one with good sense in anything." Damn straight.<<<< I know that's what you want to hear, a little sarcasm from the know-it-all. Well.. too bad. I don't attempt to judge anybody. I always want to try and talk to everyone. But, as I've come to find, at my ripe ol' age of 15, not everyone wants to talk to you. And that's too damn bad. ....

 No.Shit... I KNOW

We got a Cosmetology teacher. This past Monday, finally!!! It's awesome.

I wanna dye my hair again. My moms all lazy, I would do it myself, but I've never done it before.. hmmm...  Should I attempt on my own???

School's been okay.

Oh gosh, Victor and me went to the Homecoming Dance because we had to go because we were nominated for this Cutest Couple thing, we don't know if we won though. Who cares anyway, the dance fucking blowed. People suck. Oh well. I knew he wasn't enjoying himself and I was making myself have fun, fuck that, we left after an hour. We went back and chilled at my house the rest of the evening. That was much better.

There's this girl, Jackie, in my Cosmetology class, I love her hair, she's always changing it. I wish I had the money and someone to do it for me. I would be dying it and cutting it all the time. I hate having it the same. But oh well.

Me and my pops. Back in the day. I remember that day, we were at Gulfgate Mall before it closed and we took some pictures in the booth. I use to have a lot of fun with my dad when I was little.

Sucks that he's moving away again, even farther. It didn't really hit me till this morning.. I wish I would've gone up to see him more this past summer, but I'm fuckin stupid and I didn't. He really wanted me to. But I'm fuckin selfish, and I didn't, I only went up once. Damn it. I'm so fucking stupid. Now I don't know what to do. His wife got a transfer for her job and they're gonna pay her more if she goes up to Dallas, so they are. He doesn't wanna go but he's gotta go with her. He's gonna come see me before he leaves next week, she's already up there. I really wish he didn't have to go, I wish I could've seen him more. I know Dallas isn't that far but he works nights at Wal-Mart and he only has Tuesdays and Wednesdays off. I love my dad a lot.

This really hurts, I'm gonna miss him a lot more. Fuck. He's really fun. I just don't take advantage of that. I always forget about him. I don't ever call him like I should. I know it hurts his feelings. It hurt mine though back when he left and forgot about me. But still I think about him a lot. I regret it so much not visitng my dad or trying to have a good time with him or enjoying the times it was just me and him. I know last night he wanted me to say that I didn't want him to leave but I didn't.

I got this from Najelly, and I wanna fill it out too.

...Have You Ever...
1. Given anyone a bath? Nope 
2. Smoked: Nope
3. Bungee jumped?: Nah
4. Made yourself throw up: Yes
5. Skinny-dipped: hm...
6. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: Of course
7. Pictured your crush naked: Yes
8. Actually seen your crush naked: Hell Yes
9. Cried when someone died: Nope
10. Lied: Duh
11. Fallen for your best friend: Yes, guy and Girl, Who hasn't?
12. Been rejected: Yeah, but.. there was a reason and I'm glad it happened..
13. Rejected someone: Oh yes..
14. Used someone: Yeah.. but it was certainly justified.
15. Done something you regret: I want to say I regret them, but not really, I had fun..

...Current...
1.Clothes: black Shirt and Gray Pants.
2.Music: "I ain't sayin she a gold digga, but she ain't messin wit no broke nigga." That happened to be the last song I heard..
3.Make-up: none.
4.Smell: Biosilk
5.Favorite artist: Vincent VanGogh and Mark Ryden
6.Favorite group: My Friends..
7.Desktop picture: This anime pic of a guy and a girl.. my sister made it.. says Paloma and Victor..
8.Book you're reading: Echo By: Francesca Lia Block

9.Dvd in player: Some Hentai from Mr.Choco

...Last Person You...
1.You touched: My mom
2.You imed: I don't usually IM anyone.. they IM me.. 
3.Yelled at: Molly, the Dog.. she was biting my face.. what else was I to do?!
4. Shared a drink with: My Chino
5. Kissed: My Chino
6. Talked on the phone with: My Chino

...Are You...
1.Understanding: When I'm not beyond pissed
2.Open-minded: Yes
3.Arrogant: I don't think so
4.Interesting: I guess you could call it that..
5.Random:  ask someone else.. I don't know if I'm random.. I thought other people were suppose to tell you that..
6.Hungry: Thirsty
7.Smart: I m n awsum spel-er
8.Moody: Yes, Very
9.Hardworking: If it's something I really want..
10. Organized: If I have to be.
11.Healthy: i'm not purple.
12.Shy: I will admit it.
13.Difficult: Yes
14. Attractive: Supposedly
15.Bored easily: Yes, it's happening right now.
16.Messy: fuck Yea, especially when I eat.
17.Responsible: For what exactly? There's a wide variety of Responsibilities
18.Obsessed: A lot of things. Muahahaha!!!
19.Angry: At different times..
20.Sad: At different Times..
21.Happy: Unless I'm one of the other two, I usually am.
22.Hyper: After 8th and 4th period I'm VERY hyper.
23.Trusting: Of myself? Nah - Other People? Sometimes, only Chino, Victorrr and Nayjelly
24.Talkative: Yes.
25.Legal: If we're talking about the age, no, but that doesn't really matter anymore.

..Who Do You Wanna..
1.Get really wasted with: all my friends, That'd be pretty rad
2.Get high with: I want to with Victor, but he said NO, otherwise I'd be smokin it up.
3.Look like: Me, but pretty.
4.Talk to offline: ChINO
5.Talk to online: No one ever talks to me online