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XANGA BLOWS.

as soon as i make another awesome xanga name i am dumping this piece of crap and movin' on.

on second thought. my new xanga is made. i don't know why. but it is so cool and i have the coolest slogan already thunk up.

but you're not getting it :)

unless i like you enough to suscribe to you. then, we'll see.

i have major jealousy problems.

i'm jealous of addie cause she's always spending time with her friends and i can't. they're so far away and there is nothing to do in hicksville.

addie and amanda and ashley and this new girl (i guess) are always together now, and my brother, who used to hate addie are now always going to the movies or the pool and i'm over here at my mom's house and i'm not with them and i want to be with them.

but it doesn't work because my dad hasn't picked me up for dinner since brandon moved in with him. he hasn't picked me up once. he doesn't even bother to call and give a reason anymore. on wednesday he was gonna come but then i start puking and i had to cancel which made me feel so bad.

and i'm jealous of ally cause she's always with her friends too and doing things and, suprize, i'm not.

and so it's like i basically have no friends during summer because i only see chelsea when we both have time and that's not often because chelsea has band and work and i.... have all the time in the world actually but no way of getting to chelsea. and ally and i.. i donno. we're planning to go to the mall (*ally see below) and that's good and i saw her before.

and i see addie at my dad's, but sometimes i have plans or addie has plans.  and then she's always with amanda and ashley, and i don't want to be with them all the time, even though ashley isn't annoying anymore and i only don't like amanda because of her and brandon.

so i like school alot. i need to go shopping.

!!!

(*ally - my mom said i can go to the mall but it needs to be during the week or else i will be at my dad's house and when i'm at my dad's house i'm not at my mom's house and therefore i can't see anyone i love at my mom's house at my dad's house. ok.)

last night was... different. my mom told me stories about brandon when he was little that never made any sense. then she went on about my dad and his problems in eigth grade.

and i don't know if i'm going to live at my mom's anymore. she said if i was staying here because i feel sorry for her, then she'll feel even worse.

which i translate into: if you're staying here, you'll make me feel worse.

maybe she's just given up on having children.

dude i don't freaking know.

i think life would just be a hundred times better if it was like a tv show.

i'm really nervous about school. i have to go school shopping, do all my stuff that gets me ready, go to orientation, find out who is in my classes, etc.

plus if this year goes like last year did the first month of school did, i will die. like, dying a lot. cause i can only hope that i'm in most of my classes with ally or someone else i know, which isn't a lot of people. katelyn would be nice. yeah. that would be totally tubular.

that's a stupid word.

i found out who left the mean message.

daniel's friend, randy.

daniel left a message that said "ashley i want to apologize for my friend randy who left that message. i told him what you did and he got your number from... a trash can or something. anyway i'm sorry. you don't need to call me back. bye."

i wasn't gonna call him back anyway.

over him. :)