so i still like him but and i no he likes me, if you ask me why he wot ask me out i might smack you in the face because i do not know. its so like frustraiting and i know i have said this about a billio times but it isss. im gonna try something new. im not gonna talk 2 him or even look at him....ok that might be kinda of hard considering that its veryyyyy hard not to look at him.but atleast i wont talk to him rightt??

ok so i dont hate him

i think im actually falling in love with him. i no at 14 right? ok so amybe im not falling in love with him but i like him alot. but during the classes that we have all he does is scream i hate you melanie!! is that supposed to be flirting cuz i would hate to see what he calls otger things lol. ANd he kicks my seat. He just does all the things that bother me in the worst ways but guess thats his way of liking me i hope or maybe he just really hates me?

idk this is getting so confusing. did you ever see an ex boyfriend and just the sight of their face you wish you could fall back into their arms and be swept away just like the other time. i saw an ex 2day and that didnt happen. i had like no attraction to him. i thought that he was just there nothing special just another pot head getting a soda and pizza. but i remember that in september i would dread seeing what im missing out on but now i feel bad for the next girl he likes because he isnt anything special. i guess all girls want to think that. like afte you and him are over hes just like not worth it forr any1. but once you hear that hes hooking up with some1 your heart races and your mind flashes to the times that you were kissing him and how much you miss. ahah im listening to the jonas brother "hold on" and its putting me in the zone for this kinda writing lol.

i hate himm sooo muchh. hes such a little fagg. when i have more energy ill tell u what happend but it get me sooo madd