omg i'm gonna be a new person

wow what a crazy nutty year this has been for me. i'm on my own and i'm doing ADULT things...lol...how crazy is that. i never thought i would grow up. i thought i would live with my mom forever and ever...but now i'm living on my own ..working...and going to school. what a combo huh! but yeaaa...and me and my baby have been going on for almost 2 years now...wow! so much work in a relationship. but i guess it's what u have to do when you're in love. wow i sound so corny!!!!!! school starts soon and it's gonna be the same ol routine..i'm trying to make it as a cocktail waitress but school kinda gets in the way. one of these days i'll get to be serving all u gambleholics drinks!

omg i haven't been on this daym thing in decades. but yeah let's see here...i've been up to nothing really. all i do is go to school and kick it wit my friends...and drink...hahahaha ..yesh i'm an alcoholic still. what can i say? i guess it runs in the blood. i met someone special who entered my life and made me the most happiest i've ever been in a long ass time. but now i'm back to the same ol routine...but i guess i can't complain about what's happened in my life. no regrets. school's started and i didn't get the class that i wanted..which was bio...so i guess i'll just have to be PATIENT...even though i'm hella impatient. so it's hard to deal with but oh well. shit happens. i had to go to hawaii for family affairs..and like they say..family first.

well besides that.... i've found out so many things about myself. positive and negative which caused me to become a better person. i learned that being myself and speaking my mind gets you places. i mean i know i can be a bitch sometimes..but hey...i'm not perfect. no one is. i fell apart a few times and needless to say i got back up and now everything is back to normal. my mom still gets on my ass about shit. nothing new. i guess that's how she will always be. my sister is growing friggin right before my very big round eyes. she's gonna be 5 this weekend. i'm so happy for her. i love her with all my heart and she's all that i've got. my dad back home is sick and i hope that he gets better because i care for him deeply. i'm daddy's girl of course. and even though he gets on my ass all the time about money and partying..i understand him. life is crazy. and i'm glad that i experienced many things this year. i learned who stuck to my side. i learned that my mom will never leave me alone haha. but anywaiz...why is it all the time i'm happy? it leaves? that's what i wonder about all the time....just a thought that entered my mind.