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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 01:44:45 GMT

Gregory Robert Glenn.
I miss you SO much
it isn't the same to be back at trinity
and to see all of your group
but you aren't there.
I love you.
7 Months Today =(

You Will Never Be Forgotten <3

♥♥♥♥ Elliott ♥♥♥♥

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 18:53:32 GMT

so friday night was really fun...

i like elliott alot...

pictures? i think so

&hearts;Suzi

I wanna sing, I wanna fly, I wanna see from Your side of the sky..<3

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 17:43:55 GMT

okay so when i went to harwood for seventh and eighth grade everyone thought it would be funny to make fun of the new girl (ie me) and the "popular" kids were at the core of it. well a group of the guys who were in the "popular" group go to the same church as me and we always go to camp together, and while i have hung out with them since then i couldn't help but look at them and think wow these guys ruined my life in junior high how is it that i am hanging out with them now, and how do they have no idea. so needless to say it still bothered me and i still cried about it and how they made me feel til camp. well monday before we left i was watching them playing football waiting to get on the bus and i couldn't help but wanna cry, i looked and them and was like well see it doesn't bother them they're having fun why does it bother me? i should be having fun too. well monday night at worship God told me in the most simplest terms, that i had to confront them and tell them i was forgiving them even though they probably didn't even remember. and i talked to my best friend tiffany about it cause she went to camp too. and so she was like well you need to do it you need to do it, and she was talking about how the guys have changed and even though i know they have i didn't want to believe it. so all week i was like okay God i can't do it, these guys are going to make fun of me when i get up in front of them and i can't do it, and wednesday night at worship he like slapped me in the face and was like you HAVE to do this in order to grow with me. so i went and talked to Lee who is the guy's caregroup leader and i told him everything, he was on my side and was telling me the same thing that tiffany had been telling me all week, that if i didn't do it i wouldn't be able to grow past a certain point, and that he would be there with me through everything. so i asked him to tell the guys that there may or may not be a confrontation between a girl from a long time ago and them. and he said he would. well come to find out he took the guys, made them walk down the stairs from the 6th floor of their dorm to the basement, sat them in the grossest part of the basement and scared the crap out of them basically, and then made them sit down there and do nothing. so naturally the guys try to figure out who it is and lee is like i'm not going to tell you who because she may not do it, so they're all naming off girls and then they've named everyone they can think of and they're just kinna talking quietly and one of the guys named ryan aka bean, stands up and hes like guys i figured it out, i know who it is shut up and listen to me. and so they're all like who is it bean? and he goes guys guys it's susan, and the first one to speak up is casey and hes like no it isn't her you know she came to our games all week, and aaron who i used to work with was like it can't be her i worked with her there wasn't anything awkward but they knew it was me. so while this was happening tiffany and i were sitting in our dorm and we were looking up verses, and she told me to write down everything i felt about it and so i had about 3 pages of verses and feelings i was going to share with them. well we thought that wasn't specific enough so we actually wrote like a 3 page speech for when i got up in front of them, and i memorized it and it was on, i was going to do it thursday morning at breakfast. well thursday morning came, and i woke up about....20 minutes late. so i couldn't do it at breakfast, so then i decided okay i'll do it at lunch, but i wanted to wait til they were done and pull them all out side cause i didn't want to cause a big scene, so i'm sitting eating my lunch, tiffany on one side of me then christina and christina and then danielle on the otherside of me, and tiffany was the only one with the exception of kimi our caregroup leader who knew what was going on, so christina (the first one) is the nosiest person i have ever met, and apparently the guys were trying to figure out what i was going to say, they were all scared and so christina is like "so what are you doing with the guys" and i was like what do you mean, we've been with them all week, and she was like "well mike said that you are going to do somehing to them blah blah" and tiffany does not take it lightly when people discuss something they don't need to be discussing with someone they do not need to be discussing it with, so she heard mike's name, jumped out of her chair, ran across the cafeteria threw someone out of her way and out of a chair slammed the chair around and sat down next to mike and was like mike we need to chat, and the other guys were sitting there like oh dang what'd you do mike...and i don't really know why but i lose it, so i'm sitting at my table balling, danielle doesn't even know whats goign on but is there helping me, and christina is still sitting there asking what is gunna happen, i was seriously about to hit her in the face. so then tiffany comes back and i'm just like i quit, mike was the worst of them out of the group that's here and he is going to make fun of me if i get up in front of them i'm not gunna do it. and tiffany was like well know for sure by the time i get back from rec, and i was like okay whatev i already know for sure, so i just finished taking a shower, had changed into my PJs and was lying on my bed about to go to sleep when tiffany comes pounding on my door, she got back from rec early i was like tiffany i'm not going to do it the end now let me take a nap, and she was like Susan Elizabeth Sullivan open this door right now i have to tell you something. and so i went and opened the door, and she comes barging in and sits on my bed and pulls me down sitting with her and is like i ran into mike on the way to rec, and i was like yipy doo whatever he was prolly making fun of me, and she was like susan shut up and let me tell you what happened, so i was like okay fine, and she goes "i saw mike on the way to rec and i was like she isn't going to do it, she's done, you guys scared her again and she isn't going to do it, and mike was like well why, and i was like well because she thinks you guys are going to laugh at her and she doesn't want that to happen so she isn't going to do it, so mike was all well how am i going to be able to talk to her now i need to talk to her and i was all like i don't know she isn't going to do it, so he was all like am i goingto have to find her to talk to her about it and i was like i guess so, and he was like okay well i'm gunna find her and do it after dinner" well when she told me that i was like okay i have to do it, if mike who was the worst out of the entire group is going to come find me cause he is worried about it i have to do it for them. so i get ready for dinner and worship and i don't want to do it at dinner, again i don't want to make a big scene so tiffany and i decided i should do it during church group time cause we never do anything during that time anyway. so after worship i give lee a list of the guys and he gets them together and takes them into the left wing of stairs in the worship building, and i am following slowly behind with tiffany and danielle (who still didn't know what was going on, just a few details) and kimi and i fall. i physically could not walk anymore, and so im sitting there on the floor like oh man i hope this isn't a preview of what's about to happen, so we pray and i get myself back up and walk in there where they are, they're standing on like the 6 stairs that go down to the bathrooms and they are all worried out of their heads about what i am about to say, and all i can get out before i start crying is that you guys intimidate the crap out of me, so i turn around cause i don't want them to see me cry and im standing there tiffany right in front of my face and danielle on one side kimi on the other and lee comes around, and they're like what are you doing, blah blah, tiffany pulls me over and is like these guys look like they are going to cry they are so scared theyre sitting down now and i was like tiffany don't lie to me, and she was like i'm not okay this is what this whole week has been the build up for, you have them here theyre ready to listen now turn around and tell them what you planned, tell them how bad they hurt you and everything we have written down for you. so we pray again and i turn around, and i don't know what i said, it wasn't the speech i had planned but apparently it was totally impacting because by the time i stopped talking they all looked like they were about to cry, and casey starts talking and i don't remember what he said but then mike raised his hand, i have never heard anything intelligent come from mikes mouth so i was scared and then he spoke, he was like "thank you for telling us about how bad we hurt you, i'm sorry and i know we all are because we never knew how much one thing can impact a persons life, and i know that we don't deserve to be forgiven but thank you so much for forgiving me" and all this other stuff, then they all got up and like football huddled around me and gave me a huge hug, and then casey was like can i talk to you, we sat out there for an hour talking and he hugged me about 10 times and i have never been hugged that tight, he was like trying to take all the pain that they caused me and put it on himself it was the most amazing thing ever, and i felt 2 tons of weight lifted off of me, i mean i don't know how much that is but it was alot..and so now i know i have 6 amazing guys on my side that are going to help keep me accountable this year, and _ _ _ _ _ may even be my bf soon if _ _ _ _ _ _'s plan works out...

i took a huge step at camp and came out amazingly...

lemme know what you think, if you read all that i applaud you.

†Suzi

Who's Up? Who's Up? Who's Up? T's Up, T's Up, T's Up!

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 20:57:14 GMT

okay so i am officially a trinity trojan senior...Heck Freaking Yeah! my schedule all year is going to be

Release
Class
Class
Class
Trainer

i am so psyched, i want school to start already...well actually i REALLY want football season to start...it feels so much better to be a part of a WINNING team...unlike colleyville who is definitely a LOSING team, or was all 3 years i was there...this year is going to be SO much better than all of the few good things that have happened during my 3 years at colleyville combined, i KNOW it and i cannot wait

Come On Fellas, How 'Bout Another One of Them Championships For Our SeNiOr Year? I'll Be Right There With Ya Through It All, Come On Guys You Can Do It!

i am going to miss everyone at colleyville but i need to be at trinity..i made up with a bunch of people from junior high, and made a bunch of new friends, and i know that before i was scared so bad about this year but now i know this year is going to ROCK and i am so excited about that...

camp was so amazing, as always but this year was the best year so far. (if i havent told you the details lemme know and i'll inform you of the amazingness of camp) God is doing amazing things in my life, and in the life of everyone around me and i cannot wait to see what happens this year

well i love you all...comments would be lovely...

†Suzi

SENi0RS7

and you know what.... it sucks, it hurts, and you just want to cry that you can't have him

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 21:44:26 GMT

okay so miss angie rosenblatt is wise beyond her years

Mrs Nowitzki xx: you know whats sad?
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i really am in love with dirk
xX lovee2sing Xx: i can tell
Mrs Nowitzki xx: like passionate real relationship building love
xX lovee2sing Xx: and you know what.... it sucks, it hurts, and you just want to cry that you can't have him now
xX lovee2sing Xx: if you're anything like me.... that's me!
Mrs Nowitzki xx: it is totally and exactly and wholely that
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i want him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: but not cause hes famous
Mrs Nowitzki xx: not cause he plays basketball
Mrs Nowitzki xx: none of the shallow reasons
Mrs Nowitzki xx: but something about him intrigues me...it pulls me in...and i totally want him
xX lovee2sing Xx: love sucks..
Mrs Nowitzki xx: yepp
Mrs Nowitzki xx: so does **** know?
xX lovee2sing Xx: he knows i have feelings for him i'm pretty sure
xX lovee2sing Xx: he'd be totally insane not to
xX lovee2sing Xx: but, don't say anything about me to him if you do talk to him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i won't
xX lovee2sing Xx: thank you
Mrs Nowitzki xx: but you see i'm the dumb one out of the 2 of us...the guy im in love with is famous..and the dreams i have had of us getting together will never happen because i'm not rich enough, pretty enough, smart enough, skinny enough...i'm not good enough..but you you KNOW **** you hang out with him and he would be totally insane to let you fly by out of his reach...
xX lovee2sing Xx: oh, you are all of those things, and i will agree with you - meeting him is very far fetched.. but, if things are meant to happen, they will -and **** will let me fly out of his reach...he doesn't feel the same way about me
xX lovee2sing Xx: and you're not dumb
Mrs Nowitzki xx: how am i not?
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i'm in love with a famous person
xX lovee2sing Xx: so... at least he can't break your heart - he'll always be there
Mrs Nowitzki xx: yeah in the spotlight always continually out of reach
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i would still want dirk if he was a bum on the side of the road
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and do you actually know that **** doesnt like oyu?
xX lovee2sing Xx: one day his fame will run out, maybe you will meet
xX lovee2sing Xx: **** and i have talked about dating, but i'm too young for him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: right now you are
Mrs Nowitzki xx: what about when you graduate?
Mrs Nowitzki xx: it may very well be the whole high school college thing that he doesnt like
xX lovee2sing Xx: he said if the time was right he would ask me on a date when i'm out of HS
Mrs Nowitzki xx: seee
xX lovee2sing Xx: but, it still hurts just as bad
Mrs Nowitzki xx: but you see...you graduate in 2 years...
Mrs Nowitzki xx: sweetie 2 years can fly by SOO fast
xX lovee2sing Xx: yes
Mrs Nowitzki xx: trust me
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i cant believe im a senior
xX lovee2sing Xx: yea, that's pretty crazy
Mrs Nowitzki xx: youll be in college before you even realize it
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and then he's gunna be like wow i do love angie too...and i was stupid for making her wait for me
Mrs Nowitzki xx: me on the other hand...dirks fame will not run out in 2 years
Mrs Nowitzki xx: he's one of the younger guys on the mavs
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and the best player on the team
Mrs Nowitzki xx:<this
<and this will never happen for me
xX lovee2sing Xx: you said yourself you weree really going to marry him!
Mrs Nowitzki xx: yeah in my dreams
xX lovee2sing Xx: don't get that attitude, i live in that attitude, it helps nothing..! you said you wre going to get close seats like floor next to the bench... you oculd tlak to him and get to know him! things can happen
Mrs Nowitzki xx: thats so far away
xX lovee2sing Xx: good things take time
Mrs Nowitzki xx: yeah like a 28 year old famous basketball player will go for a 16 year old nothing girl
xX lovee2sing Xx: you are not nothing
xX lovee2sing Xx: don't say that
Mrs Nowitzki xx: compared to him i am
xX lovee2sing Xx: you said yourself you don't love him for his fame
xX lovee2sing Xx: so he could love you for YOU
Mrs Nowitzki xx: when he could have some model...i doubt it
xX lovee2sing Xx: or when he could have a great girl!
Mrs Nowitzki xx: riiiiight

Mrs Nowitzki xx: mmm i love to listen to him talk
xX lovee2sing Xx: i know what you mean
Mrs Nowitzki xx: its like.....ahhh
Mrs Nowitzki xx: music to my ears
xX lovee2sing Xx: hehe

Mrs Nowitzki xx: gah he just....he mezmerizes me
xX lovee2sing Xx: like no one else is around and everything else doesn't matter
Mrs Nowitzki xx: exactly
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i was screaming for him last night like i was the only one watching the game
xX lovee2sing Xx: and all you could see was him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: yeah
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and him shooting
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and leading
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and running
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and scoring
xX lovee2sing Xx: i'm the same way with ****.. except when he sings or acts
Mrs Nowitzki xx: you know it wasn't so much that they lost last night that iwas upset
Mrs Nowitzki xx: it was that the loss meant no game 7
Mrs Nowitzki xx: which meant no meeting dirk
xX lovee2sing Xx: that you did't get to meet him at 7

Mrs Nowitzki xx: a really big thing i like about him is that he isnt cocky
Mrs Nowitzki xx: he isn't like wade
xX lovee2sing Xx: wade just looks cocky.. like he has that walk about him and such
Mrs Nowitzki xx: or anyone for that matter he doesn't like signing a bunch of autographs he isn't like OH DAMN IM FAMOUS WORSHIP ME
Mrs Nowitzki xx: i saw wade interviewed in the pregame last night n he is SOOOO cocky

Mrs Nowitzki xx: i'm like drooling over here
xX lovee2sing Xx: you don't see me around ****... HA
Mrs Nowitzki xx: like at the mavs party i went to the last 3 games there was a guy there who was trying really hard to get my attention n try to get with me n i had no idea
xX lovee2sing Xx: ohhh what guy!?
Mrs Nowitzki xx: you dont know him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: his name is ****
Mrs Nowitzki xx: he's totally cute
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and kat the lady whos house i was at was like susan what the hell are you thinking
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and i was like umm what are you talking about
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and she was like ummm ****
Mrs Nowitzki xx: and i was like what about him
Mrs Nowitzki xx: she was like youre kidding right
xX lovee2sing Xx: hahahaha crazy

i applaud you if you read all that....comments would be dandy...unless you're going to be rude...if so don't even bother

Susan Andretti-Radcliffe-Nowitzki

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 17:20:54 GMT

okay so i thought it quite crucial to inform the Xanga community of my husbands

1.

Marco Michael Andretti- Indy Car Driver ((19 years old))

Daniel Jacob Radcliffe -Harry Potter ((16 years old))

Dirk Werner Nowitzki -Dallas Mavericks Forward ((27 years old))

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 01:13:03 GMT

okay so 2 points i want to cover in this entry....

1. yesterday was 4 months...4 months ago exactly since i found out i was in farrah's pool...i was thinking about how i didn't believe arthur when he told me...i didn't even remotely believe him...i couldn't fathom one amazing guy like greg that i went to jr high with killing himself..i was sitting at a table with holli and will and josh and richie and robert at the time...and robert had been screwing around with people on my phone over my screenname on my sidekick...and then arthur came out with it...only robert thought he was kidding...and so robert didn't say anything to me about it...i was sitting at the chili luncheon and was having five million different kinds of chili with chips...and it was approximately 1:10pm...in the FLC on January 29, 2006...one of the most life changing days of my life..so Greg if you're reading this like i kinna figure you are, you have changed my life forever and just because it was 4 months ago, and in 3 years and 8 months it will be 4 years...and year after that it will be 40 years....i will never ever forget about you and the impact you had on my life will live forever...i love you so much..and i miss you even more...my love and adoration forever...-Susan "Big Bird" "Bethany" Sullivan

2. i have always said that something that happens between 2 people should not sway your view of them if you weren't involved..i have always said that girls do some pretty horrible things...although i had NO idea that a girl, could do something like this to her "BEST FRIEND" and not even feel remorse...but then again Colleyville Heritage girls all past, present, and future have been, are and always will be known for writing both "Betrayal for Dummies" and "Backstabbing for Dummies" but i thought that you...you of all people...you miss anti popular girls anti most girls would never lower yourself to this level...i was sadly mistaken....you know you probably feel that this is none of my buisness, or that this shouldn't affect OUR friendship...but sweetie this is girl world...of course it does...i just don't understand how YOU melissa, could do this to your "best friend" val when you promised her you wouldn't....when you promised her you felt nothing for him....you valorie's best friend straight faced lied to her OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN and expected her to never find out...again this is girl world of course she found out...so to you melissa, you and I can get our relationship straightened out, once you get yours straightened out with val....

if you read both of those i applaud you...and if you're melissa...then i guess you can comment if you so desire...but read that last part again...and then rethink attempting to talk to me...

to the rest of you ESPECIALLY valorie i love you....tons and tons

From the halls of Montezuma, to the Shores of Tripoli

Tue, 16 May 2006 22:20:56 GMT

okay...so all of you know i want to be involved in medicine for the rest of my life...and i recently realized what God has really been calling me for all the while...

ill give you some hints

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me
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any ideas??

i want to be an on the field medic in Iraq

okay i have decided that i want to 100% without a doubt enlist when i turn 17 and leave for recruit training right after graduation..now sure its going to be hard..but i never wanted to be a doctor for the money...i have always wanted to save people..and what better way to be over in Iraq saving the soldiers...

doing that

now don't get me wrong i know that it will be hard..the hardest thing ive ever done to get through recruit training...but come on guys..if you know ANYTHING about me you know that medicine is the single thing i love more than most everything else..so to be able to go over to Iraq and save people fighting for my rights for your rights for all of our rights would be a dream come true to me...

i have been considering going into the marines...since i was about...9 or 10..and ive wanted to be an emergency room doctor since before that..so the 2 things ive always wanted to do..together as 1....

why didnt i see this to being with?!?!?

comments of support please..

Monday, May 01, 2006

Mon, 01 May 2006 21:16:04 GMT

i feel like the worst person ever...

i have been so wrapped up in school and the stuff going on with my mom...

that i forgot that it was 3 months...i am so horrible

i havent gone to see him or anything...

i hate myself for it too

we love you so much greg and miss you too

my family & I need a lot of prayer right nown

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 17:46:13 GMT

We just found out yesterday that my mom has uteran cancer

This is really hard on my whole family

So pray for us all and help me past this like I know you all will

-Confused & Upset
---Suzi---

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