within your heart, keep one still, secret spot where dreams may go.

i've found that luck is quite predictable.
if you want more luck, take more chances.

i never thought i'd find myself
the day i found you.
plans for only
one of me
are future plans for
two.
soul mates in this universe
that make the world surreal.
for when i'd given up on dreams
you showed me love is real.
and now that all my love for you
will never cease to grow,
please take me in your loving arms
and never let me go.

you came into my life
quietly, simply, placidly
and my words stood still...
i couldn't express in words
or even simple gestures
the secret i keep in my heart.
so i loved in silence,
admired you from a distance,
dreamt of you from afar.
i wanted to say i love you
i wanted to say i care
but cowardly, maybe, you'll only laugh at me.
in silence then i will love you
in silence then i will care.

love doesn't make the world go around.
love is what makes the ride worthwhile.

tears begin to flood my face like a cup left under a
running faucet well after the water has reached the rim,
my heart leaping to my throat,
getting caught,
squeezing,
twisting,
tearing.
my throat contracting around the emotions that threaten
to lea up & out of my lips,
my stomach
rumbling,
wresting,
knotting.
my hands quiver as i reach up to blot the tiny teardrops,
leaving footprints down my cheeks.
the path that awaits me
suddenly seems like a pilgrimage,
one foot,
nest foot,
step,
step.
i see you
( i see her)
you smile.
i smile.
(she leaves.)
you know how i am.
(i lie.)
i reply that i'm fine
(even though my heart has just crept up unto my mouth and is jumping up and down on my tongue like an olympic diver waiting to hit the water)
i want to say that i miss you,
let you know that i miss your arms,
your smile,
your lips.
i want you to know that
(i'm incomplete)
my body hurts,
my soul bleeds.
i ask how you are
(hoping against all hope that you'll tell me what i want to hear)
you reply,
(your answer not including that you miss me,
that you miss my arms, my lips, my touvh)
my eyes attempt to strip down to your soul
(searching for once i knew so well)
they get loset.
my heart leaps off the end of my tongue,
wanted you to see the way you've hurt me
wanting you to hurt the same way.
it falls to the ground.
(she calls you)
you hastily say goodbye
(as you trot over to her)
stimping,
squishing,
mutilating
my vulnerable, fallen heart.
(not even pausing long enough to scrape it off the
bottom of your shoe, like a discarded piece of gum)
she wraps her arms around your neck,
brings her lips to yours.
(i want to cry, scream, shout)
i want someone to find my heart,
bring it back,
piece it together.
i turn away,
hoping that one day it won't hurt
(as much)
abd hoping that i will again be able to call you
and have you come over to me,
be able to buy you shirts that match your eyes,
i walk away,
knowing my heart will not follow.

i keep looking in all the places,
where you are supposed to be.
but i never seem to find you,
and you're all i long to see.
i just can't seem to understand,
what it was that changed your mind.
all this time i thought i knew you,
when really, i was blind.
but know that i do not hate you,
and i know i never will.
because i cared about you then.
and i care about you still.
even though you hurt me,
i can't seem to let you go.
but i will go on without you,
and i want to make sure you know.
it will take some time to mend,
the damage that you've done.
but broken hearts to heal,
that's where strength comes from.
for now, the tears may be falling,
and my thoughts keep circling to you.
but soon, things will get better,
if you have hope, then they always do.

for of all of sad words of tongue or pen,
the saddest are these: "it might have been."

we can't blame others when love dwindles away--
for we knew from the start it never promised to stay.
it's just one of those things where the stakes are high--
and someteims it's forever, sometimes it's goodbye.
when you love th right way, you will never loose--
no matter what path life may force you to choose.
you may end up with tears or a broken heart--
but you knew what you signed up for from the start.
you can only give what you've got to give--
and if that's not enough, then you must continue to love,
life will go on and broken hearts will heal--
you must continue on your quest, for that's the deal.
throw your heart into life and never stall--
for the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all.
you see, love is the only that that we know--
that can be divided and divided but continue to grow.
and life isn't long enough to lock away our heart--
just because life may have forced two epople apart.
we will continue to love and continue to lose-
we will continue to pick and continue to choose.
and then one way we will just risk it all--
take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall.
the last time we love will be the forever--
and never again will our hearts be forced to sever.
we'll never had doubts that it'll go away--
because this time, it'll be here to stay.
but until then we must endure all the plain--
for we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.

the supreme happiness of life is the conviction that we are loved.

why are they friends?
because they smile.
because they understand just by looking into your eyes.
because they finish your sentence and know waht you like.
because they know you better than you know yourself.
because you can say  something stupid or expose your deepest secrets to them.
because everything you do together becomes a memory.
because you don't need to do something special to have fun.. fun just happens.
becayse you don't need to explain anything... they just know.
because they would make you laugh harder than anyone.
because they are not afraid to put themselves on the line for you.
because you can trust them.
because they believe in your dreams, no matter how silly they seem.
because they dry your tears.
because you are good enough when you are with them.
because they love you for who you really are.

just because her eyes dont tear
doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry
and just because she comes off strong
doesn't mean there's nothing wrong

here's to the kids. this is for you. the kids who would rather spend their night with a bottle of whiskey & conor playing on their headphones than go to some vomit-stained highschool party. here's to the kids whose 11:11 wish was wasted on one person who will never be there for them. here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of a car, watching the stars. here's to the kids who never were too good at life, but still were wicked cool. here's to the kids who listened to fallout boy and hawthorne heights before they were on MTV...and blame MTV for ruining their life. here's to the kids who care more about the music then the haircuts. here's to the kids who have crushes on a stupid lush. here's to the kids who hum "last chance to lose your keys" when they're stuck home, dateless, on a saturday night. here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart.. from someone who didnt even know they existed. here's to the kids who have read the perks of being wall flower & didn't feel so alone after doing so. here's to the kids who spend their days in photobooths with their best friend(s). here's to the kids who are straight up smartasses & just don't care. here's to the kids who speak their mind. here's to the kids who consider screamo their lullaby for going to sleep. here's to the kids who second-guess themselves on everything they do. here's to the kids who will never have 100 percent confidence in anything they do, and to the kids who are okay with that. here's to the kids.. this is for you.

don't worry about me.
in the end i'll be just fine.
i'm the girl forgotten,
the girl always left behind.

it's funny how you can feel so much yet you can't say a wordand though you're screaming on the inside on the outside you can't be heard

& I guess I'm scared that no one will ever
want to waste their love on me.
I guess I'm scared that I'll never be worth it.

pull me up from below, i'm sick of being sad. i want to know the true meaning of happiness
no you don't know what i'm going through. no you don't know what it's like to be me.

don't blame the gun for shooting the bullet through her head...Blame those who shot the words instead

i woke up at 7
i waited till 11
just to figure out no one would call
i think ive got alot of friends
but i wont hear from them
what is another night all alone
and here it goes

I`ll never understand `' why
fate allowed us to meet but
never to be together ;; <|3

my heart can't possibly break if it wasn't even whole to start with

i know i'm not easy to understand. i know i keep a lot
inside. and i know i'm not the easiest person to read.
but that's okay, you know. because even though there
is a lot about that you may never know, there's a heck of
a lot more of me that you can learn to love.

i cant promise you perfection,
because thats not who I am.
i cant promise you forever,
because I dont hold fate in my hands.
i cant promise you the sunshine,
because there will always be rain.
i cant promise you complete happiness,
because with true love there comes pain.
i cant promise you I'll always smile,
because life always finds a way to make me cry.
i cant promise you I'll stay strong,
because its not easy to want to give life another try.
you grab my waist, i take your hand.
in the sun, just you and me
this is how its meant to be<3

i don't wanna close my eyes
i don't wanna fall asleep
because i'd miss you baby
and i don't wanna miss a thing
even when i dream of you
the sweetest dream will never do

the game, the lie is getting old

you're the only one breaking me down like this

she said she's finally had enough

this could be my last goodbye

i'll give you my heart on a string

you don't know what love is

i wish you were a stranger i could disengage

you don't know me
you don't even care

oh hello stranger,
rememeber how we used to
love each other?

i'm so sick of love songs

i'm sorry for loving you

Where are you now?
As I'm swimming through the stereo
I'm writing you a symphony of sound
Where are you now?
As I rearrange the songs again
This mix could burn a hole in anyone
But it was you I was thinking of

here's to the girls..
who's 11:11 wish was wasted
on the one person who will
never be there for them

I'm mad at myself, not you.
I'm mad for always being nice.
I'm mad for always apologizing for
things I didn't do. I'm mad for
getting attached. I'm mad for
depending on you and wasting my
time on you. I'm mad for thinking
about you, and most of all for not
hating you when I should

And no one will ever know
how many times she told herself
that she just wasn't good enough.

30 Real Feelings About Girls
1. When a girl says she's sad,
but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.
2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.
3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over.)
4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.
5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.
6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually not sure how to react to them.
7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?
8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.
9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.
10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).
11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in any way.
12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.
13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.
14. A smile means a lot to a girl.
15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.
16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave.
17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.
18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.
19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.
20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.
21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.
22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.
23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.
24. Girls love having fun!
25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.
26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.
27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.
28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.
29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.
30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

e v e r y t h i n g happens for a reason --
the hard part is ... finding out what
the [ r e a s o n ] is

this is for the girls
who have sad song lyrics in their away messages,
who have tried to make someone understand
through a subliminally appealing profile,
who have time and time again dropped their
crush hint after hint after hint only to
watch him chase after the prettier girl<|3

I want someone who won't care that
I never wear shoes,
that I'm incapable of staying still,
that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning
& I refuse to be lady-like.
Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make, I'll regret and
I have the right to over-react at any given moment.
I want someone who knows I'm completely insane and they wouldn't want me any other way.

Charlie Brown: I think I'm afraid to be happy.
Lucy: How can you be afraid to be happy?
Charlie Brown: Because whenever you get too happy, something bad always happens.

I'm gonna smile cause I wanna make you happy,
laugh so you can't see me cry,
I'm gonna let you go in style & even if it kills me, i'm gonna smile.

Best friends,
You fight. I fight.
You hurt. I hurt.
You cry. I cry.
You jump off a bridge;
I'll get a paddle boat &&
save your retarded ass.

and i'm afraid.
i'm afraid that i might never talk to you again.
and i wont feel the same about anyone the way
i feel when i'm with you. i'm afraid that you'll
find someone else and feel different for some
other girl. and i'll just be an old school memory.

Never think you're nothing.
Never cry at night over not being pretty enough.
Never tell yourself you'll never be good enough.
Because to someone, you're everything.
To someone, you're gorgeous.
To someone you are the world

today was just one of those days where
everything i did reminded me of you.
every song i heard some how related to you.
i hate days like today because they
remind me of the one thing i don't have.

life is like an hourglass ;
sooner or later everything hits the bottom
you just gotta be patient and wait
for someone to turn it around

she finally lets go of her fake smile & the tears
- s l o w l y roll down her face as she whispers in the mirror-
"i don't want to be me"

I hate it when my cell phone rings
& your name doesnt show
I hate it when I hear our song
it kills me long & slow
I hate the way you still smile at me
Even though she's at your side
I hate the nights when I'm all alone
& all the times I cried
I hate the way you say my name
Or just the way you look
I hate the way I know you
How I can read you like a book
I hate the way I don't hate you
Because I still love you

Best friends hang tough.
They don't come with fragile stickers and
aren't easily scared off, or ticked off.
Best friends help you out whenever they can,
make time for you even when they don't have any,
and trust your friendship enough to say, "no".
Best friends are
cross-your-heart and hope-to-die,
good-times-and-bad-times,
borrow-anything,
tell-you-everything,
trust-you-with-their deepest-darkest-secrets,
always-and-forever friends.

best friends are totally aware of how
retarted you are, but still
manage to be seen with you in public

boy sits in his room, unseen tears running down his face (not ending any time soon) He sits on his bed, and reaches under his pillow. He pulls out that hidden notebook with the pages filled. Page by page he rips them out, the memories of her. The only person he ever loved was this girl. He kept tearing the pages, trying to let the feelings go, and forget the girl who just shattered his heart into pieces. Not too far away from that boy's home. Sits a girl, all alone. Music blaring and tears unheard. Her head is down, actions speak louder than words. Her hair falls all over her face, so messed up so misplaced. Unheard tears streaming down her face, they will never end. Things will never be the same. She takes out her notebook and a pen. Starting to write anything that comes to mind. She tries not to think about the boy, because the only pain worse then having your heart broken, is breaking your own.

where's the kid with the chemicals?
i thought he said to meet me here but i'm not sure
i've got the money if you've got the time
i said i'm not sure but i'll give it a try

why does hello feel like goodbye?

i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know, you're not making this easy

there's a few things that i just need you to know
like the way i felt when we were close
and how the stars explode everytime you are near

hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
this broken heart is to weak to hold your weight
help me forget the day we met
& help me forget your name

my desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long

i swear i'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed

i've never missed you this much
never thought i would
didn't think you'd feel so far away

i'm drowning myself in thoughts of you

will someone please show me the love and affection
that you only see in movies?

hello, i miss you quite terribly

will someone please call a surgeon
who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
that you're deserting for better company

i'm sorry for the phone call
& i'm sorry for needing you

it's not like i think about you constantly
..so maybe i do

and i can honestly say,
that i've never ever felt this way

falling in love was my biggest mistake

i quit pretending you were in love with me

it's not like you love me or anything

i wanted to cry, but the tears wouldn't come out

i fell in love,
in love with you suddenly

oh, how could i survive without your love?