"Chere belle squelette, vous êtes mon seulement espoir."

"Dear beautiful skeleton, you are my only hope."

Hey girls! today was alright, didnt get much sleep last night, due to talking to a friend (ahhhhem Reily) haha untill 1:30am. So waking up this morning wasnt to great. UGH. And i didnt get to get coffee this morning because i was running late. but HOPEFULLY toamrrow i will be able to get some EFFING caffen in my fat body.Well todays intake was HORRIBLE. Due to cooking class. ahh fuckkkk that class.

TODAYS INTAKE:

breakfast: nothing

Lunch: low fat pretzles

120 calories

Piece of fucking pumpkin pie

proably 546846 million calories.

Dinner- cambles chicken soup

70 Calories

Liquids:

Diet coke

lotsss of water

excerize:

2 hours of cheerleading

300 crunches

15 push ups

20 reps on each arm with 15lb weights.

ANYWAY

I am doing a "ana's Comeback Challenge"! It seems like a good idea, and im actually excited, but im nervous becasue i DONT want to mess it up and binge. So please keep me strong girls, i could REALLLY use it right about now.

ANA"S COMEBACK CHALLENGE

phase one
rules:
under 400 calories per day
at least an hour of excersise
200 crunches
drink tea & water only
okay, diet coke is fine, too.
fruit & veggies = a must!

we'll do this phase for two weeks. it's the cleansing part of the challenge.

phase two
rules:
under 200 calories per day
at least an hour of excersise
400 crunches
lots of sleep
this is when the ketosis will start to set it. and you'll get on a roll & its the best high everrrr.

this will be one week long

phase three
rules:
under 500 calories per day
an hour of excersise [ps. i totally count yoga as fitness]
400 crunches
lots of water
& coffee for energy

this will be for a week until christmas, when you're allowed a minor binge for good measure :]

<3 you all.

Al of our friends give us a hard time when we dont eat but deep down inside the WISH the could have this much self control.

Well girls i have the first practice today for winter varsity cheerleading today at 4:30pm. I havnt eaten anything so far today and its 2pm. Gatoraid has 10 calories in it but it helps ALOT, well for me atleast. It gives me energy, and makes me feel better. So just a little advice for all you girls who are in sports

Intake:

breakfast: nothing

Lunch: 1 cup of refried beans.

( fat free and 100 calories)

watermelon

* dont know how many calories, or is it - calories?

Dinner- not sure yet.

probably nothing becasuse im going to a show tonight and i wolnt have to eat.

YESSSSSS

Workout:

2 hours of cheering practice

30 crunches

20 reps on each arm with 20lb weights.

I'll updat as soon as i can and tell you how cheerleading went!!

THINSPERATION

good luck today girls!!!

<3 you all.

It takes one to know one kid.

Hello Ladies Hope you all are doing great today! I must say my body is getting use to not eating also. Did any of you see lindsy Lohan on TRL yesterday? I mean she gained weight from what i saw, it kinda seemed like she was trying to cover up her body. In all honestly i dont like her as a singer but she is absolutly georgous. So tonight im going to this club called Bahama Momma's Beach Club. So dancing from 10pm untill 1am is gonig to be AMAZINGGG. You know how many calories that burns?! ALOT. But i will look massively fat in anything i own, and guys probably wolnt want to come near me. whatever. blahh.

Todays Intake:

breakfast: slept untill 1pm

lunch:Re-friend beans ( fat free, and 1 cup)

100 Calories

Fat free cheese on top, 1/4 of a cup

110 calories

Dinner- NOHTING, im partying it up!!

EDIT: comming home from the club everyone stopped at McDonalds, UGHHHHH. But i got a medium diet coke. Then i had some of my friends french fries, not alot but GOD im such a fucking fat ass.

So the club was good, except i felt HUGE with all my skinny as friends with look absolutly georgous, and the WHOLE night i felt so fat. But i did dance my ass off with my girls so thats good i guess. But then those french fries. DAMN IT.

210 calories! pretty good for today!!

Good luck girls! hope your all doing great!!

<3 you all.

your beautiful just not on the outside.

Hello lovely ladies <3 I hope all of you are doing well today well Last night i had a huge bonfire party at my house randomly. it was pretty much planned on wednsday night by my friend calling and saying "well we all took a vote and were hanging out at your house toamrrow night" haha gotta love my friends. So after school my friend amy picked me up and we went to get fire wood at her dads work then to her house to get some warm clothing. We got to my house around 5:45 and it was already dark by then. Setting up the fire and having my cell phone ring non stop from people calling and asking directions becasue i pretty much live in the middle of no where. So i went and got ready and almost cried becasue my hair was a mess makeup looked bad and well becasue i looked like a FUCKING FAT PIG.  anyways, it was nice being surounded by my friends and a warm fire even though it was freezing out. By my surprise my exboyfriend called me ( who is absolutly georgous) and wanted to see what i was doing tonight. So i invited him to come over. I was sooo excited but then again i didnt want him to see me, due to me being a massive cow. But the thing is, he does have a girlfriend. I guess me and him are just "friends" but we know its so much more. When i saw him it was just nice that he came. We dated about 6 months ago for like 3 months. I broke his heart becasue i was bored in a relationship. Then thing is, i weighed like 174 then. And he still cared for me. He came in to see my mom and they talked for a little then she looks at me and goes "Dosnt she look good?" and Andy goes "yea she does". But i could tell he was lying. Andy likes his girls thin, really thin. He didnt like what i looked like 6 months ago and i think he he still disapointed 6 moths later. But i did kiss him and i do intend on taking him from his girlfriend. She isnt that cute anyway. He likes burnetts and she is oh so blonde. I could tell he felt bad kissing me but we both know we still have that thing. And i told him "How can you date someone when your still in love with someone your NOT dating." He did leave feeling guilty but i guess its this game i'm playing and the sad thing is i enjoy it. I want what i cant have, and when i have it i get bored. Its mean but compleatly true. So i'll have to loose even more weight so i can look better than his girlfriend. ugh.

Sorry so long and boring.

Todays Intake:

Breakfast: nothing sleept untill 2pm

Lunch: ugh 3 samores.3 i mean WTF. we had some left over from last night. god im so fucking fat.

chocolate: 230 calories

marshmellows: 90cals

gram crackers: im guessing 190cals? not sure.

i purged it though.

Dinner: nothing yet, probably soup and 4 crackers

Soup: 90 calories (plus it fills you up fast and it makes you feel full.

I need to just never eat again im so fucking fat god. I went into the bathroom when i woke up. Standing in front of the mirror i took off all my clothes and just stared at my self., holding back the tears. i cant stand my self. i just cant anymore.

Excerise: Ran 1 mile. Felt pretty good. I'm going to do 20 push ups, 300 crunches, and  20 reps on each arm with 15lb. weights.

update with pictures later.

<3 you all.

she was beautiful once and will do anything to have it all again

 Hello my beautiful girls! I hope you all are doing great!  So my day was alright; just long! and it feels great to be home from a long day at school! the bright sie though is that we dont have school FRIDAY, MONDAY or TUESDAY! friday is a in-service day, Monday we have off becasue our football team is section champions and our pronceaple decided to have us take the day off? haha and Tuesday alot of students have a retreat or bacially an orentation at some church. you have to sign up for diffrent things. So i signed up for the 24 hour fast in febuary! haha how cool is that! so im pretty excited for my 5 days off! So today in gym i walked in and my friend like hit my but just fooling around and goes "you have a fat ass, but in a good way!" i was like "um obviously i know, but your one to talk!" She isnt skinny but she isnt fat and her body is not toned what so ever! But it gives me more motovation to loose my fat ass. Also we did aerobics in class and pretty much made up a routine. So it was a good work out for about 15- 20 minunets! And this morning i did 100 crunches and 20 reps on each arm with 15 lb. weights; and 20 push ups.It was a nice way to wake me us becasue i get up soo freaking early! 5:45 AM!!! So thats my long boring story about today!! haha sorry girls!

Todays Intake:

Breakfast: 2 crackers ( cut up strawberries but Kevin came early to pick me up so i couldnt eat them.

Lunch : a few bites of yogurt. so im guessing 30 calories.

Snack: it was 4th period so i had like 6 crackers just to stop my dizzyness.

Dinner: Chicken and Rice soup - 70 Calories

Calories for the day - about 110!

CW: i have NOO idea, my mom thew away my scale But i'll try to find out ASAP!!

HW: 176

LW: 115

GW1: 150

GW2:140

GW3:130

UGW: 115

Good luck today girls!!

PS. i have my screen name up and i would love it if you girls would IM me, for someone to talk to through out the day and keep me strong!

<333