To Nature’s amusement I feel all the Elements battering me. I have always been grateful to Nature for giving me life and for making life beautiful… but only now am I accepting the price to be paid for natural beauty. Flaws and consequences exist to challenge us even in Nature. Nature comprises of the four classical elements. These four elements; earth, air, water, and fire, represent Life in all it’s greatness and even it’s shortcomings.

Earth- once stable now crumbling. The ground refuses to remain still for a moment. I walk cautiously because at every step I feel the ground shaking and weakening beneath me. I fear moving on because I can’t trust that I’ll make it far enough away from this place. All I do is helplessly watch the ground erode below my feet.

Air- once flowing now stagnant. The wind remains in halt. I feel no wind of change to lead me to my next destination. Here I stand with the stillness not knowing what will become of me; still holding my breath with the air from when I was with him, but eventually this air is going to suffocate me.

Water- once soothing now spoiled. The liquids that comforted and washed away the pains and stains of my life are now tainted. I can’t get clean from the outside. I feel dirtier each time I try to wash it all away, and even more now I feel any good that’s left has been rinsed out of me.

Fire- once invigorating now scorching. The flames that burned inside of me are now too strong to resist. I can’t stop my passions from flaring and I can’t prevent myself from causing harm to myself and others. This growing flame consumes me from the inside because it wants to be with him.

I guess we all know where this is going. I’m seeing the dark side of life since he’s been gone. I’m sure most of us can relate to feeling like everything is against you… especially after a break up. Ugh, the whole world feels like it’s crashing down on me. I know it isn‘t really, but man does it feel like shit for me right now. -Lan

Ps. I feel like a high school kid ranting and bitching… this has to stop.

I was alone crying. My eyes remained drowned in their own tears. My heart continued to sink into the emptiness I felt. The world was not gradually disintegrating before me, it was crumbling at so fast a pace I had nowhere left to stand. I was left floating in uncertainty, too wounded and downtrodden by the reality that there was nothing left for us. As my uninterrupted tears eroded the last bits of my smile, I could feel that the etchings of a frown were my only consolation for the pain.

There was nothing to distract me from the pain. In an attempt to escape the depression I filled my time and exhausted my body. To no avail I put myself in a worse off position. I was spread so thin while the pain protracted and I became so weak while the pain grew stronger... (to be continued) -Lan

ps. "Can’t go on
Everything I had is gone
Stormy weather
Since my man and I ain’t together
Keeps raining all the time
All the time "