oh_crrash's Xanga

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 21:51:14 GMT

www.xanga.com/IRLANDD

sorry, guys, it just lasted too long.

haha.

Monday, December 04, 2006

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:29:12 GMT

it's too early in the morning.

my eyes are blood-shot for some reason.

and i feel tired and spent, and the day's not even done.

life is funny.

but i like the new cold that's outside.

december makes everything feel warm.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 12:19:45 GMT

i hate how people lead me on.

i hate how they lie to me.

i hate how they act like they love me.

i hate how they leave me.

i hate how it hurts when i breathe now.

i hate how i know i'll feel numb.

i hate how i promised myself that i wouldn't feel like this again.

i hate how i think i'll be alone forever.

i hate how i thought things might get better.

i hate how you make me break down.

i hate how after you hurt me so bad, you ask, "are you okay?"

i hate THIS.

i want to grow up and be someone else.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 17:48:34 GMT

Everybody else is holding bouquets,
Now I'm holding my face in the basement-
Scratching away for any trace..
Of affection you will leave.
Falling victim to the public's prey.

Well I won't hold on.
No, I can't hold on.
I won't hold on,
to this.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 15:04:58 GMT

just got done playing DDR. and from this day on, i am devoting myself to play that game for at least half an hour everyday. that way:
1. i can lose myself some weight and get into SOME TYPE OF SHAPE.
2. get better dancing skilllzzz.
3. find something to do besides stay on here.

i found this new song by le tigre that i'm pretty sure is directed to me.
it's called "get off the internet."
haha.

(:

anyway. i'm off to beg my momma to let me go shopping todayyy.
wish me luck?

upUPandAWAYYYY.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 18:17:19 GMT

so, basically, i want this week to go by faster, because next week, i get off on wednesday, thursday, and friday, which means i get a five day weekend! i am extremely excited, and i pray and hope i don't fall off the earth from now until then.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 18:24:37 GMT

it will be miiiiiiine.

>:D

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Nov 2006 20:54:28 GMT

so, i went to starbucks with my new junior friend,

hannah the sailor.

and she's pretty much amazing.

i love her.

we were meant to beeeeeee friends! lolll. i'm her freshieee.

and we met new people!

like alex & nate.

and then i met her friend, pat.

and they were very nice.

but we didn't talk much to them.

'cause we went and got 'nan'.

woo.

this night has made me happy.

and makes me want to sing and dance to

"send me on my way" by rusted root.

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 16:11:21 GMT

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else’s arms
I’ve been tryin’ my best to get along
But that’s ok
There’s nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don’t need ‘em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you’ll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
‘Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I’ll feel a whole lot better
But you’ll think of me, you’ll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I’m feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been

Someday I’m gonna run across your mind
Don’t worry, I’ll be fine
I’m gonna be alright
While you’re sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I’ll be over you
And on with my life

i've decided to give up.

why am i so stupid?

edit:

so listening to sad songs..

it's not the best way..

to cope with stuff.

but i just decided-

"swing, swing" by the all american rejects..

will probably make me cry.

don't make me put the lyrics up, k?

you all probably know it.

i want to disappearrrrr into nothing.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Tue, 31 Oct 2006 15:55:26 GMT

reo = lunch.

kayla = abby's house.

reo & emily = lunch.

bethany = last night at judgement house. :(

me = bus.

paula = physical science. shhhhh.

beth & sarah = lunch.

chris randall = green room at judgement house.

chris randall.. once again.

me = somewhere..

me & mack = gangsters. bookstore.

me = bussss.

phil & chris = judgmeent house = <3 haha.