so school has once again started up again and i must say it is as tiring as hell!!!  i got a stye from lack of the snooze hours, and im sick (!!!  ok this is going 2 b ma little rant of the week:

 I have decided that people suck! im sorry if this offends u but thinking about it uve probably done some shady things that would make someone beleive that u indeed suck, and if u havent, then u suck bc ur perfect!! People tend to take things, im not talking about stealing or nething, but people take advantage way 2 much, like someone who borrows ur book and doesnt return it on time, and even though u really need it they dont supply it, making u have 2 work even harder for that good grade, or someone who decides ur not worthy bc u wont have sex with them or go down on them, these people suck!!!  I would hate 2 think that we all just look out 4 ourselfs, but i can understand people who do, unfortuanatly i wont/cant stop giving.  so for all you people who truly take advantage of a persons kindness u suck and u need 2 stop!!!!!!! 

well now that ive released that foamy ive had building up in me i do feel much better!!!  im not quite sure how i survived 2 day, i thought i would colapse at least 3 pds in, and i couldnt leave bc yesterday me and sydalie cut class 2 go 2 the baseball game, which was fun and cold all at the same time!  im reading a romance novel, but dont worry it's not cheesy its actually realy depressing, its called The Pact by Jodi somebody, and its really addicting!!  my brother left for colorado this morning 4 my cousin bar mitzvah, and dash came home i think 2 pick up her new car, but shell be with barak the whole time so it doesnt really matter.  oh jillian wants me 2 put a pic of her on ma xanga so lemme just go and do that, hold on!

i just finished writing this whole entry of what i did 2day, but i deleted it, it was too scehduled, and unartistic, thats not me.  but i did have a nice day.  my friend winnie came over and we took pics.  Here: http://community.webshots.com/album/279707966zoGQzK.  but those are just ones w/ her camera.  i was taking pics of myself  (w/hers) and i look over and she's taking pics of her (w/ mine) and i thought this is a scene in a movie. Hidden cameras whereever u are come out, i know u r there!! it was funnny the both of us arent the type who just take pics of themselves, well me sometimes but not bc of vanity.  me and mom went shopping, it was our alone time together.  i really love my mom, even if she asks all the sales ladies if we should get something in a size up.  i wrote something today, i do most every day, but i finished this one.  i'll post it wen its revisioned.  every feel like ur missing something, that space in ur stomach, it tells u ur missing something, u just dont know wat, i have that.  i'll do some bug vacation post soon, just not today, im tired, and i have dogs to feed.  oh my brother is ma life, he bought me a journal for no reason, just bc he knew i would like it, and i love him!!  i want 2 leave you with something beautiful, so normally id search Shakespeare, but im feeling bold, and i'll post something that ive written from a couple of days ago.  it came into my head, i dont know wat its part of, or if it will even be part of something, but u never know, so here it is, 4/24/05: "Think about me when it rains.  Think about me when you hear the drops against the glass window panes.  Think about me when the flash of lightening breaks the sky, and when the roar of thunder shakes the world.  Think about me when your clothes are soaked through and through.  Think about me when you warm up with a soft blanket and a cup of tea.  Think about me when the wind chimes cry in the rattling wind.  Think about me when you discover the beauty of the rain is still imperfect.  Remember me always Copernicus.  Remember me like you remember that day.  Never let go of the rain Copernicus, for in those minuscule aqua drop, I live.  I live in the rain Copernicus, so think of me when it falls."

this is Dasha and Barak, Dasha's my sweetie girl, or my sister, Barak is Dasha's "friend", (i swear it didnt happen!!) i just got a photobucket account so im exicted!!!!  oh and Barak knows how 2 turn water into bone, hehehe, we should have won!!!