so i'm not to sure what to thing about much at the moment.
guys... well they just suck.
the one guy i thought would always support me and be happy for me no matter what... well let's just say he completely blew that theory. if i ever let you down i'm sorry. but this beats everything i've ever done... i told you i'd never be good enough... it was your choice not to believe me. you've always wanted so much more than i have to give. i could give up everything for you... but i won't be happy... would you be happy then...
well i'm done... i'm done worring about what you want... i'm done doing whatever it takes to make you happy. i'm going to do what i want. so tell me how does it feel to know that all that's left is to watch me walk away. you love me? well i'm happy with me for once in my life. shouldn't you be happy for me?
i hate to see guys just leading my friends on... i means seriously how insecure can you be that you need so many stupidly immature girls following you around like little puppies. you had such a great girl in front of you and you throw that for what? "OH MY GOSH I GOT TO RIDE IN HIS CAR!!!" ya what happened to i need someone who i can have a conversation with? good luck with that there hun. i have no idea why it makes me mad.. and i know it's not my place to step in. but you did it to me... and ya it was whatever you're weren't worth the time then anyways... but she's a great girl and i love her to death. seeing you treat her like that... boy she can do so much better than you... someday you'll realize your mistake.
i was really hoping that you had changed... grown up some... wow could i have ever been more wrong? call it what you want... smile when you see me... hug me like you missed me... i fell for that once. it's not going to happen again. sorry but i have better things to do with my life. so make up excuses and tell me what you think i want to hear... i'm not buying a line of it... my suggestion save your breath and have a nice day : ]

i'm done with guys for a while i think. the drama and lies aren't worth it.


all i want is someone who:
can be honest and truely care.
i can have an actual conversation with for more than five minutes.
is equal to me and will tell me what they think about anything and everything sincerly.
respects me and won't try to change me.
has some goals in life and enough ambition to make them happen.
is ok with just cuddling or look at the stars.
appreciates the little things in life.
will talk things out instead of avoiding them or getting mad.
can laugh at me/themselves when it's hardest.
won't take life for granted but live it to the fullest.

is know it's a lot to ask... but is it really that hard?