OH MY GOD today is September 13, 2003.  about ...7 months later.

I'm looking at that picture w the celica and god am I white!! 

I also read a few of the last logs... alot has changed since then.  Well I am now single )= for awhile now. 

Now both of my rabbits have passed I am so sad.  But I still have my dear little Hannibal.  He is very spoiled. 

What's my status?  I live at the Ala Moana hotel I work across the street and I love my family and my bird.  That is my life.  The life I'd like to tell.  HAHA.  No, actually that is my life.  I'm using this time I have to enjoy having things simple.  I have few things going on but atleast it's simple.  Somehow I am more stressed.  Maybe cause it is simple? 

I love my friends, And I hate snobs.  I recently came across someone that was a genuine snob.  Didn't seem like it at first, that's what hurts.  When I modeled, I never acted like I was too good for anyone because I modeled.  If I acted like I was too good for anyone, it was most likely a misunderstanding of me actually being something else.  But I never have and never will think I am too good, or better than someone because of something I do.  It's not the bigger you are the 'better' you are.  Some people out there are very successful and still have a good heart.  Some people aren't so big and they are already snobs.  It's just their personality, it's not what they do.  When you become successful, or admired or envied, I'm sure it's hard for some people to keep from getting bigheaded.  I'm just so glad that it never happened to me no matter how big or how small I was in the local import modeling scene.   

Hey, my background is colored.

(I can't believe I paid for a membership and only used it for like, a week!?)

woohoo!  I got to drive that thing.  It was alright.  That's the second japanese car I've driven.  first stick japanese car though, but it feels different.  all wheel drive feels nice.

Today is hmm I look kinda chubby.  Well thats good!  Anyway Today is March 12, it is approximately 7:59p.

Yay Ray came back last week.  We don't argue much, but we tend to argue at the stupidest times over the stupidest things.  Like when he first flew in.  He came in an hour early, and I didn't call to check when the flight was coming in ahead of time because his cousin was on the phone all morning.  Ahh.  I'm getting so fed up living with other people I hate it!  We can afford to live on our own, but he wants to have his cousin with us.  Well, not for long dammit!!  We have to move AGAIN.  We have only lived at our new place shy over a month and it sucks.  Long story.    I'm at The Dad's house tonight.  Sleeping over and going to work tomorrow.  Ray now has 3 jobs.  Well one is community service, which will be over soon.  It's funny how both of his jobs are night jobs.  That's good for me.  If it was in the daytime we'd probably have little time.  

Roger Padactor is now named Hannibal.  I'm tired already.  It's early too.  We have taken some pictures on our new camera but haven't hooked it up to our roommate's computer.  Whenever that happens, I'll post em up of course. 

Oh yeah!! Almost forgot.. My feature is finally put up after several months on http://www.anywearapc.com.

My opinion:  Oh my god!  What was I thinking w that lipstick color!  I honestly think I look like a shlut.  w that color.  not for me.  made me look pale.  Oh well.   There was alot more pics than that, and there were some other ones that were rather nice.  OH well, thanx To the Anywear crew for the collabo.  but it was fun, especially being on a bed in sleepytime clothes, I think I actually wanted to sleep sometimes.  Check out the rest of their site as well, especially if you are a first-timer to their site.  It's impressive.  I promise you, better things to come.. God! 

AAGGHH!  I am literally screaming!  I actually contributed to the Ferris Palooza and now I have a huge headache from watching tv all day. 

On my days off, I am SO down for just vegging on the tv all day.  That's what days off are for.  Unless you have lots of mula (sp??).  Well I do have money, but I'd rather not spend it.

I don't know how I do it, but I can go to sleep at 10pm, which is rather early, and wake up at 11am the next day.  Well, "enjoy those nice and long beauty rests Nis!!"  I can't sleep long at my place, it seems my mind is way too hectic and thinking of too many things to sleep well.  You know what I mean?  And I toss and turn half the night.  My life's been like that for a LONG time, and I hate it.  I hate the insomnia.  Not getting good rest ruins your daily life!  It can affect your moods, your looks, your health, your daily list of things to do, your performance and enthusiasm.. everything!  It also can make you lazy, because you'll be tired.. then laziness becomes a part of you!! 

I think I just need to go out like the regular minglers out there.  I haven't even SEEN my girlfriends in so long.  Don't even ask about when was the last time we hung out.. so you can imagine!  Good thing I'm already a very mellow person.  I don't require so much to be amused.  Hmm..

Gotta wake up early tomorrow for this modeling opportunity, I have a feeling I'm gonna wake up TOO damn early for some bullcrap.. I hope they surprise me.  Afterwards I have a shoot for a website.. not saying who, but it shouldn't take too many guesses, for those who know me.  And then I work for a few hours.  What is tomorrow, Saturday?  Hmm, I'll be back to my home tomorrow (it's been almost a week!), it'll be really weird, and lonely.. no internet!!  Or family.  Atleast I'll have Roger Padactor.  That nippy pain!  I like it here at my dad's house,  I like when time goes by slow.  That's something new for me. 

Yay Ray comes home Mardi Gras night.  I guess it's not exactly the party for lovers.  Hahaha.  Too bad.  I'd actually just go to see the bands and groups performing.  It's funny how many I ask, don't know when Mardi Gras is.  They find out by listening to the radios for the hottest party.  It's always the Tuesday before Ash Wednesday!  Some people think it's a Friday or Saturday, because it's a party.. but no, it will always and forever be a Tuesday.  Unless you live in New Orleans of course. 

....That must be Ray on the phone giving me my goodnight call.  Good night and uhh.. I don't know when I'll be back.. probably sooner than we both know.      

Hello!  As you can see I got the Premium finally.  I got on and tried to join early enough.  Hmm, I am borrowing this skin until I make my own.  Don't expect anything better!  But just something better for me. 

Above is Roger Padactor giving me a smooch!!  I bought him for Ray (and me) for Valentines.  He's a greencheek conure, which are birds that have cute personalities and can be very playful.  They are also great companions.  Since he's a baby he can be a very NIPPY pain.  He won't get much bigger.  He loves orange juice and taking showers.  and hates being left alone. 

Yay Ray is coming back next week!