oh_yes_there_will_be_blood's Xanga

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 04:36:23 GMT

True Facts about my personality

I'm a control freak
A strive to be a leader, but no one follows
My thoughts break me
I like revenge
I let things get to me way to easily
I don't forgive easy
I expect people to forgive me.. alyways.. even if I did something way wrong
I rely on the past alittle to much
I am way to opinionated
Things have to go my way
I've never been jealous- people think I have, but nope
My parents can still make me cry if they try really really hard
My friends mean more to me than my family
I reflect alot
I don't like to study
I'm lazy
I often feel I don't belong with these type of people
I hate my school
I can make someone whole again, I can bring a persons broken heart and mind back together
I can destroy someone, make them forget who they are, make them feel worthless and alone
I've lied
I can keep someones secret
I can tell someones secret and not feel guilty
I say love to easy.
It's very hard for me to change my ways, it's hard to be strong
I get embarrased way to easily
I am afraid of public humiliation, so much that it holds me back
I hold some of my friends back
There isn't much left of me besides wasted tears
If I could change myself, I would be a simple kind of man(yes a song lyric, but true)
A believe God has made many mistakes
I find it hard to worship a God that can let innocent children die
I try to be strong for my friends
I light a match, and look at the fire, to remind myself this is real, that I'm alive
I like it when it rains in the summer/fall time
I love wind and tornadoes
I have run from my problems.
I feel guilty when something bad happens to someone I know
I try to be me, but I can't always
I feel betrayed way to easily
I let my stress build and build
Time doesn't heal my wounds
I've had enough, I'm sick of depression

Personal bad reflection..

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 06:06:54 GMT

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

I still remember the sun...
Always warm on my back,
Somehow it seems colder now

The Field of Innocence

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 21:21:38 GMT

Beth and Jenni H. say it is: Libby

Jenni and Brandon and Carlee say it is: Molly

someone who asked to remain anonymous for now says I like: Memo

wow, just added! someone thinks i like: breana

this is fun to watch..

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Sat, 03 Dec 2005 15:09:44 GMT

Lmao I got exaclt what I expected.

I said first to guess who I like wins..

beth thinks she knows

jenni(both) thinks they know

jon took a wild guess..

michael has a guess..

lets see how this turns out lmao..

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 02:13:53 GMT

You have completed the GAY PEOPLE-STRAIGHT PEOPLE IAT.
The line immediately below summarizes the results of your task performance.

Your data suggest a strong automatic preference for Straight People compared to Gay People.

its a real test, take it

https://implicit.harvard.edu/implicit/demo/selectatest.html

click the sexuality one..

Friday, November 18, 2005

Fri, 18 Nov 2005 16:33:04 GMT

Hmm...there's somethin about people who cut that irks me...it seems so selfish an action...I get that they've been wronged in the past, but so the fuck what? So have I. I've been betrayed and backstabbed by people whom I call friends. I've lost people I love. I've been called so many things. But you don't see me risking my life. Don't tell me cutting isn't dangerous, it is, there's a serious risk of cutting too deep and dying. And then where would you be? In a hospital bed or fuckin six feet under. They're selfish bastards if you ask me...same to those who commit suicide. Everyone has pain...some greater than others...doesn't give you any special right to end it. So people persecute? Ignore them...life is full of people who are willing to give you shit...just give it right back. Now I know I'm a bit on the suicidal verge as well...and trust me, I know that makes me a coward...but the fact of the matter is I'm not trying anymore, because my friends still need me, so hey, i'll be here for the next what? 70 years? heh...Life most surely can be annoying at times, sure, but it's also beautiful. "Too beautiful to just give up". Hmm...i'm done on that. Useless to get worked up over spilt milk.

-Jon

new hero

haha

hopefully michael gave me his screen name right...

corey you better get online....

kelly and molly be at my house at like 5...

thanks

<3 life

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 04:17:03 GMT

I know I said song change.. well music galore isnt working so yeah...

friday

christina came over first- sorry i wasnt ready and left you hangin haha i felt bad but hey

then i think mac came.(like i said im extremely tired) then libby came, maybe reverse order...

anyways we talked and narrowed down movie choices..

then andrew n branden came

we talked then watched saw.

then christina had to leave.. hope you liked the movie christina, you must see part 2.. hope you had fun, and thanks for coming.

then we had an obstacle course in the dark, which no1 could do... then libby put my movies in order.. haha while me n mac watched stupid videos on ebuams world and andrew n brandon played x box...

then libby had to leave- i hope you had fun, sorry if you felt out of place not knowing anyone..

then us 4 guys went waking around the neighborhood

then we came back watched some movies, then we played charades.

then andrew n branden were being pissy and wanted to play xbox, i said no because halo 2 is gay.. so them 2 played games on addictinggames.com while me n mac watched the grudge...

me n mac fell asleep, then andrew n brandon played xbox... somehow i woke up at like 7 andi yelled at thewm b/c they were still playing.. then they turned it off. then we all fell asleep

brandons dad came at 10, he left

then me mac n andrew ate breakfast.. and watched hangmans curse.. then we jumped on my trampoline wen macs dad came i love that dude haha, hes like my hero..

then me n andrew played tetherball forawhile.. not to brag... but i won 5-2 haha... andrew.

then andrews bro came. and i was alone for awhile..

then i went to the X vs. colerain game... X won.. but barely, we won in overtime.. colerain is a great team... but you have to admit those refs. were calling BS stuff on us..

but i was alone for the first quarter cuz sum1... i wont say names.. couldnt come b/c they lost their ride.. so i sat by myself on a bench by concessions, then brendan(muchillo not miracle, look at spelling, branden/brandon miracle and brendan they r different) came up and i hung w/ him..

but yeah x won, 12-9. next week we play at UC nipper stadium vs hubert heights wayne... gonna sell out quick, tell me if you want to go...

next fri. i have to see a very strong play, but i want to see it w/ friends... it costs $7 so tell me if you want to go by tuesday...

i promised jenni would be in my xanga...

StXsteven09: im typing my xanga
TheSkunkyLizard: so
TheSkunkyLizard: i better be in there
TheSkunkyLizard: all the hell your putting me through
TheSkunkyLizard: GEEZ stevie

TheSkunkyLizard: ew
TheSkunkyLizard: martin
TheSkunkyLizard: ew
StXsteven09: *pukes*

TheSkunkyLizard: see... if youve ever heard coolers
TheSkunkyLizard: i totally made that up

TheSkunkyLizard: and ive been saying fruit too
TheSkunkyLizard: like omg whatda fruit
TheSkunkyLizard: lol
TheSkunkyLizard: so just note if that word gets really popualr
TheSkunkyLizard: i started it
TheSkunkyLizard: 8-)

TheSkunkyLizard: im the coolest
StXsteven09: yep
TheSkunkyLizard: and my cat
TheSkunkyLizard: shes cool
TheSkunkyLizard: she said meow... which is 'hi stevie' in cat
StXsteven09: well tell ur cat
StXsteven09: "meeeoww" which in cat means wazzupp?
TheSkunkyLizard: she says meow which means shes offended by your lack of cat-tongue and says you just called her a horny cunt

TheSkunkyLizard: did u see patrick at the game
StXsteven09: i dunno wat he looks like
TheSkunkyLizard: hes shorter than me and has dirty blond hair and blue eyes
StXsteven09: narrows down 10,000 people

comparison of me n patty, and jenni n patty

StXsteven09:
me: hey patrick!
pat: who r u?
me: *spit*
me: *walks away*
TheSkunkyLizard: lol
TheSkunkyLizard: hi patty! i heard your a homo?
TheSkunkyLizard: yea i know homos... theyre all cool
TheSkunkyLizard: ... well except for you
TheSkunkyLizard: ... your just a fag

a happy message to you from jenni

TheSkunkyLizard: ur all duckyaidiful

TheSkunkyLizard: read my xanga bitch

I <3 you Jenni haha

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Sun, 06 Nov 2005 17:21:53 GMT

Fairfield lost by 45 points....

We play colerain on saturday. At paul brown stadium... haha bitches!! paul brown stadium= bengals field... so we feel important haha..

if you want to go, tell me, and i'll buy your ticket(obviousdly you'll pay me back) but its the easiest way for you to get a ticket at normal price.

I think itll be 10 bucks, but itll be worth it.

game of the year. it'll be a close one.

macs going, my families going, so want to go? tell me...

i want to go w/ like 50 people...

beth better go.. its her school vs mine.. haha...

anyways everyone is invited to my house on friday, jus to hang out, im gettin bored here... tell me if you can go.

im going to go do hw and rake the yard... like 10 million leafs. me and mac were going to jump on the tampoline, he was like wow... haha we had 2 foot of leafs inside the trampoline, it took forever to clear it out.

well im gonna go...

kelly if you want the air soft gun, come over friday, ill prolly have that kid over.. hes kinda weird tho, so i dunno..

Monday, October 31, 2005

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 11:06:33 GMT

Happy Halloween!!!

My moms picking me up from school, and we are seeing saw 2!!! Then I'm going to Breana's to see obviously her, but my old friends Sami and Megan.

Sorry everyone else who wanted to do something.

I'll still call you, memo.

I still can't believe Talia moved... no 1 ever told me....

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 18:31:23 GMT

Oh yeah and by the way, molly saved my life.

My stupid seat restrainer was stuck, and I was pushin down n couldnt get it, then molly jus barely taps it and it pops up... jerk.. haha jk.

Molly is the magic touch

always remember that

oh and i added pics to my myspace

http://www.myspace.com/stxsteven

and I talked to shawna and her mom today.

I miss them so much, they were family to me...

Well I'm out

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read my post before this one, they follow each other..