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| I'm having a big problem with faith in people lately. It seems like everyone is just out there to let me down, make me wait, make me LOSE MY MIND. (Yes theres specific people that this applies to, but 99% of you all do not know this person/other people in general i'm referring to) And I feel like I'm having to work twice as hard to concentrate on important stuff because all this other little stuff that i shouldn't have to worry about is getting in the way...I'm losing faith in the human race in general. Anyone watch the news lately?? Don't do it. Just take my word for it, its depressing. Also if everyone out there could witness what i witness here every day, you guys would question this race too...WHY CAN'T PEOPLE JUST BE NORMAL!?!? I just want to be able to get a full night sleep again without waking up and thinking about weird stuff. I think this all stems from the lack of my ability to be able to trust in God which is REALLY weird...i think a lot of times we say, "Oh, of course I trust God" and "I'm going to let go and let God, and not worry about it"...but thats a lot easier to say than to actually do. please pray that i can trust God....and i'm coming home in 16 days and i love you all very much, because you are normal, and just simply wonderful. | | |
| Distance is a really strange concept, especially in today's technologically advanced culture. You can talk to someone on the phone and it sounds EXACTLY the same whether they're in the next town or in in the next state. Distance also creates uncrossable boundaries in some extenuating circumstances. People are meant to be close to one another, since we're very social beings, when this pattern is disrupted, it causes pain and heartache...distance is also weird when you want to be in several places at once...sometimes I'm really upset with Thomas Jefferson...why on earth did he have to go and make the Louisiana Purchase so BIG?!? I HATE our incredibly large country....why can't we live in somewhere like, oh I don't know, portugal or something? If they have friends halfway across THEIR country, they could easily make the drive in like a day...but noooooo.....we have to have millions of miles between us....i hate mile markers, and i'm especially upset with I-35 and Louisiana right now because they're keeping me from where i want to be....i think i'll go buy an airplane on e-bay.... | | |
| Hi Everyone!!!! Soooo...i drove back to Austin yesterday....ohhhh....first of all, when i came home for christmas, I actually made 2 trips, because I had to come back for a test....so i had MORE STUFF THAN YOU HAD EVER SEEN....Ever. I took my little brother to school on the way out of town, and he had to ride with stuff in his LAP. There almost wasn't room for him in the car with me and all of my stuff.
So then, after I got to Austin, I had to move all of my stuff from floor 9 of the parking garage to floor 18 where my room is...and, this is complicated, but that involves taking 2 separate elevators...it took me SIX trips, and my arms are STILL sore. Then once i got it all IN the room, I had to unpack it all, which took like four hours...phew. but then the rest of yesterday was really fun...it was really good to see the few people that are here. i didn't realize how strange it would be to NOT be living with all of them...and for all of you who don't go to UT, i swear, this first week of school is just going to be one big party. We are all SOO excited, NOTHING is going to get done. HOOK 'EM....
I think I'm going to go to the UT/Villanova game tonight @ the Frank Erwin Center, so that'll be fun too. And then tomorrow is the HUGE party at the stadium. FUN WEEKEND!!
ANYONE CAN COME VISIT ME AT ANYTIME! you know where to find me....oh, and SEND ME MAIL!!!! i love my mailbox!
Hugs!!
Cassie | | |
| Hi Guys!!! okay so first of all, someone that actually knows how to work xanga needs to get me some SERIOUS help b/c i'm having problems with cool backgrounds and stuff... HELP! lol second of all, THIS HAS BEEN ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING WEEKS OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!! It falls like, right after choir trips, and disney world, and camp, and just a few others....We went to see Narnia on Tuesday, and it was WONDERFUL....and like, i know this sounds stupid, but i KNEW the whole thing was based on christianity, but i was really scared i wouldn't "get" it...like, that I wouldn't understand the meaning, and i would just be like, "ooh that was a cool movie".....like, i said CRAZY, i know...but it WASN'T like that at all! I totally understood the message, and, lol, i think david collins was getting annoyed with me because every time i "understood" another part, I would be like, "ohmigosh i GET it! WOW!" and he would be like, "cassie, have you seriously not read or seen this yet?!' "NO david shut up I have to understand more!" lol hahahaha....and then Wednesday, TEXAS WON! yes, let me repeat that...TEXAS, MY SCHOOL won the National Championship. I really really thought they would lose to those stuck-up, self-centered, rich, unworthy USC kids, BUT THEY WON...and i didn't think I would be as happy as I am....but boy, am I happy! oooh....and matt leinart and reggie bush made me SOOOO mad....(they are star players for USC for those of you who don't know) matt said, "USC is still the better team" and "of course texas can win when they have one freakish player whos really good...." referring to vince young.... GRRRRRR...and reggie was just stuck up the whole time...im SOOO glad they LOST...okay this week has been amazing for other reasons too, but they're more complicated and I want to go on to the next part of this entry, so you'll have to ask if you wanna know....and BOY its gooooood..... 
ANYWAYS....ok, i've been JUST DYING to do this "weird stuff about me" thing but no one asked me....I decided it's a free country and if I want to do it, I don't need permission, so I'm doing it on my own...lol
ok here we go.....
The top ten weirdest things about me:
1. I absolutely DESPISE sleeping with socks on....my feet have to practically become solid blocks of ice before i will even consider putting on a pair of socks while in bed...i HATE how they come off half way while your sleeping, or even ALL the way, and I move around a lot in my sleep and so they end up by my face or hands, and that is SOOOO disgusting, even if they're clean, so i will NOT go to bed in a pair of socks....
2. I DON'T LIKE RAMEN NOODELS!!! I KNOW i am in college. I KNOW they are really cheap and half way healthy....but I DO NOT CARE...they absolutely REEK when you make them, and they're SICK NASTY.... (thank you alexis)...this goes the same for like, that chef boyardee crap, and spaghetti o's...I will MURDER chef boyardee in his SLEEP if my suitemates spill ravioli and meatballs all over the microwave umpteen times again this semester, and i'm NOT kidding...
3. I won't wear gold jewelry...i know...weird...its not that I don't think it looks good, at least on other people, but i just feel WEIRD with it on for some reason....i think i've worn silver so much, that it's just awkward....like, trying to switch deodorants or something...i won't even buy gold tinted stuff at sam moon, it has to be like, that coppery color....
4. Ok this is really strange...when i'm at college, i have to have my side of the room PERFECTLY neat...it drives me insane when the room is messy...yet, right now at home, my room looks like hurricane katrina went through, and then rita followed it shortly after...its a DISASTER...but honestly, i don't care that much...when someone figures this one out let me know...
5. I really really like tomatoes....i don't know why, i just do...cherry ones especially...i'll put like 12 on almost anything, and then eat like 3 more on the side....i'll eat them almost any way, except in the form of juice, and when people eat them whole like apples, it REALLY REALLY freaks me out...thats gross.
6. Just to clear this up, it's not the MEANING of Christmas I don't like, its the SEASON as a whole. After awhile, i'm just SICK of all that it becomes instead of being what it should be...and i really don't like it when people who aren't christain celebrate christmas wholeheartedly, for the wrong reasons...and this year, I did EVERYTHING for christmas at my house because we had to ship the presents early enough so they would get there in time since we didn't go to Nebraska....so my parents were still at work while i did ALL of the christmas deciding, shopping, wrapping and shipping. Plus I wrapped all of sheryl's presents for HER family. and, this might be bad, but whenever i see any sort of a poinsettia, i still want to kill myself.... So, I said i don't like Christmas. and if that makes me weird, than so be it.
7. This might de-Texanize me, but I DO NOT LIKE OKRA...and if one more person tries to shove a fried slimy, seedy piece down my throat i might have to throw up. Yes, for all of you curious souls out there, i FINALLY tried a piece of okra the other day....it was fried, my dad ordered them from Dickey's. I DID NOT LIKE IT...just like i've been trying to tell everyone, including my parents for like, the past NINE YEARS that i don't like the stuff but i keep getting..."oh cassie, fried okra is so good, you should try it" and "cassie, have some of this okra, its great"....I. Do. Not. Like. Okra. I guess this goes along with how i don't say ya'll even half as much as everyone else. and when i do say it, i literally have to THINK about saying it and MAKE myself say it so people won't think I'm weird for saying "you guys" instead...no one probably knew that, but its true.
8. I HATE it when my fingernails don't look pretty. No elaboration.
9. Quite honestly, i really don't like the beach. I know i know, I'M THE WEIRDEST PERSON YOU'VE EVER MET....but that doesn't make me like the beach. This probably all stems back to when my aunt and uncle used to live in california the first time, when i was like five. (They've moved thousands of times)...so my family went to see them and we went to the beach. I had never been to the beach, so i was really excited, and i ran up to the water with my dad walking behind me videotaping...i think God was trying to TELL me I was not a beach person, even at age five, because a tidal sized wave (at least to my five year old sized body) came up right as i hit the water and i fell FLAT ON MY FACE in the sand.... (no sorry guys, my dad saw me falling and turned off the camera....its still funny to watch however because you see little cassie....running running running.....crazy camera wiggling and "OH NO" and then blackness....and then 2 seconds later me crying, running the other direction, and rubbing my eyes. thats why i hated the beach then...in more current times....a.) sand gets in your swimsuit. b.) the bottom is pure sludge that your feet sink into and god only knows what is down there that you can't see c.)i will NOT surf or anything because i'm deathly afraid of sharks d.) salt water is completely gross feeling on your body, and then you have to use one of those public showers for 25 cents e.) its really windy and your hair gets messed up even if you DON'T go in the sandy, sludgy, shark-infested salt water. So no. I do not like the beach....***the only disclamer on this one is that i have never been to a pretty beach like cancun or anything, so id bet i would like that better.
10. Most of you probably know this, but i would MUCH rather have a desert with friut in it, than something chocolate. I like cobbler, and apple crisp, and pie much more than chocolate fudge or brownies. I don't know why, i just do...
Am I strange enough for ya?! Now THAT is a weird list....mark...ahem...lol anyways, its why you love me!!! talk to you soon! Cassie
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| Hey hey everyone!!!! As usual, its been about 1000 days since I last wrote on this...just FYI, if you REALLY want to know about what I'm doing, just check my facebook. Half the planet has my username and password, so it should be pretty easy for you to get the hook up...lol...ookay OH and also, if you want to be my friend on facebook....i ah, go to lakeview according to high school facebook...Lacey and I made a high school name so that we could be friends with more people. Pathetic, I KNOW, but look for me!!! ooh and have you guys experimented with these little smiley things????? the names are so funny like...i think this is my favorite...it's shocked...  lol, they're GREAT!!!!!!
umm lets see what else....I registered for my next semester's classes here...I'm taking The History of Radio and Television, Communication and Culture Studies, Chemistry In Context II (yes, the second part of my Chem now...i'm ROCKING it, so I signed up for the second one) and American History from 1492-1865. Oh and Choir, of course....Okay so who wants to come and help me? lol, it's going to be hard, but I CAN DO IT!!!
Next topic: GOD! YEA!!! okay, so sometimes its really really hard to find God in this city....and this is sometimes a really hard thing. It's really hard because I HATE feeling like I live in this "hole in the bible belt" by choice.....it's scary and lonely. Even though I have my church group here, it's really not the same...it's hard to explain...however, I know God is here with me no matter what, and he is working in amazing ways through the church I do have. Last night, we did this study of communion and what it really means when you take the bread and juice as a representation of Christ's body and blood. It purges you though God, but it should also free you of your sins against other people...therefore, you have to ask those other people for forgiveness too...and last night, I did that...i asked for forgiveness from someone who I feel I have sinned against. It felt so good to just know in my heart that the person forgives me as well as God. Thanks be to God for his ever continuing lessons...even in this bible belt hole of a town....
Finally, I wanted to say that I know lots of you are going through some really REALLY hard times right now...and as I write this, i almost want to cry, becuase it just tears me into little pieces to think that I can't be there with everyone right now...the only thing i can think to say is that God is always with you, and i know you guys know that!!!!!! And ANYONE can call me at ANY TIME (no joke, we're up till all hours of the night) if you need to talk...I'm always here!!! 
I miss everyone and I can't wait to come home!!!
Love and prayers,
Cassie | | |
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