fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

!!!!!

I can't say that I didn't necessarily want this to happen, but you have the shittiest timing in the world. It's not fair. YOU broke MY heart. So why is it okay for you to kiss me like nothing happened? I feel like my consent just isn't needed.. and they're my fucking feelings at stake here!

:( i need a fucking xanex or something.

I love meeting new and interesting people.

Let's just hope I don't ruin this one, too.

maybe you were right last night. but maybe you werent.

maybe because i cant understand why people just cant let go and move on, maybe i havent ever been "in love".

but who are you to judge what i have felt? who are you to say that im "cold hearted" and "naive" simply because i understand that when people say they DO NOT want anything to do with you anymore, that it means to get the fuck away and move on. people grow up. people change. the girl you fell in love with a year ago is simply not the same girl anymore. maybe the girl on that boat that night was being HONEST. maybe she was in love with you. maybe she just knew to stay away. maybe she knew to walk away because it would be the easiest thing to do for both parties.

hah. maybe you just know eeeeverything about me. maybe im nothing but an 18 year old with naive thoughts and cold hearted intentions. maybe i really am out to hurt every person i care about.

but maybe. just maybe... you're really fucking wrong.