| Yet Another Mirror I've Busted, I Can't Stand To Look At Myself ; Won't You Open Me Up, Try To See Inside, There Are So Many Things That I've Been Trying To Hide...
hmm, yes, yet another new layout. wow, i've been updating pretty frequently on here, heh yay.
i've been doing a lot of thinking lately, as everyone else has been seeming to do as well... i've just had a lot of things that have been going on through my mind... ive felt a bit depressed these past few days and i'm not exactly 100% sure why... i mean... i dont know...i guess between the...
-doctor situation
-weight problem
-choices i've had to make
-miscommunications
-no sleep
and other things, i find it all quite hard to juggle... and i've been crying quite a bit because of my friends, and their home situations...i cant stand it, it makes me so sad. when i get older, i'm definitely hoping to open up an orphanage or some type of children's place where teens can get away...cause now that i know people who are getting abused, kicked out, cussed at, and all those other things by their parents, it makes me wanna help, and open up to them...
i have the doctor this friday, and i'm not looking forward to it... nope, not at all...i've gained like 5 pounds when i was supposed to be losing... crap. this sucks... i guess its cause im one of those people who either doesnt eat at all or eats everything when under stress... i mean, i gain twice as quickly as the average person and lose twice as slowly...sucks eh?
my mommy and i have been kinna arguing a bit lately. ick, i dont feel like getting into details. my father, he's just not the kindest flake of fish food in the bowl. nope, not at all. he yells about well, heck, everything... oh, ohhhhh and he trashed my room because he was trying to find a phone that was off the hook...so i came home today, went into my "freshly cleaned room" (or so i thought i left it) to find a ton of crap in the middle of the floor. thanks dad, thanks. oh yeah, and he was lookin in the wrong spot... he should know where its at! HE PUT IT IN!
i've been thinking about my buddy casey a lot lately... i miss him so much. he's so easy to talk to... but i never ever get to see him. :(. ick, i miss you, casey.
hmm i havent slept barely at all. my county is the only county in Georgia who went to school today. wow, gee, thanks stupid Wilbanks...you're a complete, total, freaking, rediculous, IDIOT! i mean seriously, we (the students) should have a say on it, or atleast the teachers. who ever put this man in charge? lame. and plus, while everyone else doesnt haveta make up the 2 days that the Governor gave us off, we do, of course we do! i mean, heck, it could be -54054021 degrees outside...and iced over, snowing like crazy and all that jazz, with no power or anything..and unless Wilbanks gets hit himself, we're going to school. hmm, anyone up for a strike? haha. just kidding, gah, but yeah, call me pissed, cause i am.
hmm, yeah, i'm tired ^^ (as you can tell) so i'm going to go to bed. goodnight!
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