MY POEM!I take this last hit off of my very last joint!
I've been clean for a few months now.
I dont wanna get back into smoking pot again.
Could it be becuz it leaves a bad image on me?
Could it be becuz i could loose the one's important to me?
Its just a drug that is soo addicting.
Yet its dumb to do becuz im not proving anything with it!
other than that its what was in my past and its what i grew up around!
my mom and dad smoking, my brother smoking it!
I guess i was just so use to seeing them smoke marijuana that i wanted to do it to and be liek them!
Thats not me and it never will be!
I abused this substance.
I smoked becuz i was either sad, depressed, or really stressed out!
It was like my nerve calmer and the one thing i could only resort to!
Then comes another thing.. smoking cigs for the past like 3 years!
That was somethign that was just a phase.
I got caught to much by my family and i was leaving a bad image on the one's that looked up to me!
Especially the girl i love the most.. Christina!
I made her smoke a cig with me once and when i thnk back to that day and when we got caught i realize i made a bad mistake not only for me but for her!
Realizing i've fucked up by smoking its made me think hard and twice on everything!
Im not a bad person im just a confuzed girl who just needs to figure out the right paths in life!
right now im starting by getting clean and avoiding drugs becuz its not the way out of my problems but only a way to give myself a bad look on thing and a horrible image!
I dont want my friends and family to see me as a druggie!
im a better person than that!
(ciarra)
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