Journal bit.

I don't care about your problems.
I don't care that the exact same thing is happening to you that as happened to you a miiiillion times before and that you've told me about a miiiillion times before.
I don't care how much it hurts, by now you're old enough to have learnt your fucking lesson.
I don't care that you're all of a sudden surprised by this as if it's new knowledge.
I don't care about your pathetic love life, you're just as much to blame as he is, stop acting so innocent.

Oh & thanks for asking how my day was.

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i'm holly & i made ALL of these icons, so please leave a comment if you're using them.

heaven forbid you end up alone and don't know why.
hold on tight. wait for tomorrow. you'll be alright.

listen, kid, love is the only chance for happiness you'll
ever get in this life and if you're going to let a little thing
like rejection stand in your way, baby, you might as well
stay right there on the ground, because people are going
to be walking over you for the rest of your life.

hello, i'm neurotic. creating problems that don't exist.
don't believe me when i say everything's alright. let's
go to my apartment, we'll put the sheets up over our
heads, forget all reasons to go outside. beats pulse,
they're automatic. locked inside of my apartment, with
the television on, i'm fine.

the last time we were all together was different than the
first. the last time, we sat there talking about nothing at all.
we had so much to say but we couldn't let it out. we were
family and we knew it then. we knew all there possibly was
to know about each other, but most importantly, we knew it
was the end. that was the last time i saw m best friends
for who they really were and the last time i ever would.

if i found satan anywhere it would be by the tracks,
trading souls of kids like me for cheap bags of smack.
when i find satan there, you know i won't be thinking
twice, because at least in hell there's rock and roll
and there ain't no Jesus Christ. i swear i left my
sanity some place in this mess.

-x-

Sexy sexy.

Your Boy Side
[x] You love hoodies
[x] You love jeans.
[] Dogs are better than cats.
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt
[] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[] Shopping is torture.
[x] Sad movies suck.
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[] Played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid.
[] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega.
[] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[] Gory movies are cool.
[x ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[ ] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.

Total = 5

Your Girl Side
[x] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[x] You wear the color pink.
[ ] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[] You smile a lot more than you should.
[] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[x] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[x] You wear girl underwear.
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

Total: 18

002

 i'm holly & i've got a motherbitch of a cold.

so i was putting on more makeup than usual,
because i wanted to be the prettiest damn wreck
your stupid apathetic eyes have ever seen.

in this moment, who we are is all we have.
but maybe that's all we need.

i swear that you don't have to go
i thought we could wait for the fireworks
and i thought we could wait for the snow,
to wash over georgia and kill the hurt.
i thought i could live in your arms
and spend every moment i have with you
stay up all night with the stars
confess all the faith i had in you
too late, i'm sure and lonely

be with who makes you smile
laugh as much as you breathe.
and love as long as you live.

please don't tell me that i'm dreaming,
when all i ever wanted was to
dream another sunset with you

i had a dream last night we,
drove out to see las vegas
we lost ourselves in the bright lights
i wish you could have seen us.

-x-

001.

i'm holly & i spend ages drying my hands.

Just remember I love you, and it'll be alright.
Just remember I love you more than I can say.

Just forget, all I ever wanted was to forget.
Bloodshot eyes and a starless sky.
Who the hell are we kidding?

tell me that it doesn't mean anything, and i'll drive away
right now, and when we pass each other in the halls,
we can pretend we don't even know each other.

i've kissed your lips and held your hand.
i've shared your dreams and shared your bed.
i know you well, i know your smell.
yeah, i've been addicted to you.

rainbow nights, stunning whites
stars that shine but don't belong to you.
the passive fools by the swimming pools,
you'll fit right in with their pathetic grin.
stunning tricks, bottemless pits,
you remind me where i don't want to be.

We tell each other that everything's fine,
never saying what on our mind.
Sometimes I hate that I'm losing you,
but I think you kinda miss me too.

-x-