i'm really satisfied with what i've done for this xanga...so you know what that means...new xanga!!!! it's probably not as pretty as this one...but oh well...----->[[!click!]]<-----or go to www.xanga.com/soADDICTEDx3
happy bdae, valerie!!!! sorry for the gross weather! hope it was good...even though it was like in academic...haha...
it's snowing...snow makes me sleepy...so i slept...and slept...for 3 hours straight...and woke up...and realized i had no homework...and now i'm lost...
school was fine today i guess...truthfully i'm glad it wasn't eventful...i think i can get used to this if it were like this everyday...then maybe i wouldn't be so anxious...
a day home alone...is just perfect. i really need time alone. i've just had stuff on my mind that can't really be stashed away.
why can't people just tell the ones they care about the way they really feel? instead of being a bitch to someone or taking their anger out on innocent bystanders, why not just try to address your problem? a lot of people get hurt just because of someone's untamed temper. people are left to wonder with miscommunication and confusion...i hate to see my friends hurt over people that can't just express their feelings...it's stupidity to waste your time on somebody that is so unpredictable like that...
recap of this week:
[[summary--]] well, this week was pretty much good...but it was a downer for some people. it happens to everyone. the things that i looked forward to were pretty much choir and his volleyball games because during those times i wouldn't have to worry about anything. realized that some people aren't so great and that keeping to yourself at times is best.
[[something to think about--]] quote from imelda marcos:"It is terribly important to do certain things, such as wear over embroidered dresses. After all, the mass follows class. Class never follows mass."
nothing is as bad as it seems...there are always two sides to a situation...
yeah. i think i'm liking the weblogs without the scrolling table things. got extremely bored last night. can you tell? haha...i hope you like the new layout. i'm not really out of the black and gray mood yet. i'm starting to grow in it, but this time it's not meant to be shady...something more reminiscent.
recap of this week:
[[thursday]]--seemingly nothing happened. start of lessons in rotc of how to command a squad with drills. pretty much sucked, so i had to practice calling rear marches with my "command voice". after school, went to my brother's volleyball game with sandy and jen. i was pretty much bummed out during that time--pms time. they were funny though. gotta love them; they're always there.
[[friday]]--supposed to be a good day. didn't work out. did group presentation for vocal...hopefully got a good grade. more preparation for ap exam with royster-which equalled more stress and pressure to pass for me. the best part of that day, though, was my little date with jen. we just went around the mall..ate..joked around. we were both in a pretty much shady mood...but it was good to know that we both had company.
i got the evanescence and linkin park cds and the two bill and ted adventure dvds...guess that's what i'm gonna be listening to and watching today. not really in the mood to communicate with others today. i'll leave that for later. i think i just need some time alone to think about how i need to slow down and just let things fall into place. now just isn't the time to race through things.
errr i hate xanga...i was in deep thought...then it erased my weblog for today!!! LOSERS! ahhh...
sigh. well it's been a week. how do i feel? liberated now that i can talk more freely. i got the guts to tell my mom about him, and it feels so much better to know that i'm being honest.
mom: is he a nice guy?
me: yeah.
mom: is he a good looking guy?
me: errr...he's okay. [[well he's cute. haha...]]
this past week has seemed to have been one of reconstruction. people that weren't on such great terms with each other are finally starting to work things out. i know i'm sure as hell glad that none of my friends are mad at me, or i'm mad at them anymore. sad part about that, though, is that it showed who was for real, but it took so much. people that i used to trust a whole lot are now people that i can not say of word of secrecy to. people like that are just too unreliable and not a frequent enough friend because, if they're gonna be like that, i'm not gonna put myself through shit for you if you can't even do the same or even half of what i'll do for you. i'm still cool with them, but now i know they don't deserve to be a friend of mine. if you know people like that..well, screw them. later on, they will realize what valuable commidity they have lost.
well, i've done basically all of my homework except for the type type type-print part. i think i'm gonna plan the new layout...
edit-3.29.03-11:18pm. i don't know if i'm really liking this whole thing without the scrolling border around the weblog...oh well...giving it a try...
