HAHAHA. I wanna blog baby. Yeh. I cannot keep to my words. I am NOT A MAN OF MY WORDS. Literally. Deal with it. Lalala.
I feel like I can't recognise the person I was 3 yrs ago. Read the older blogposts in a blog tht is under lock and key, well no, under a password. Yeh. I was hyper random blah, too active. But I was terribly immature. Ha. I've come a long way I guess. 

But I'm STILL living in denial and I've got no balls. I cannot fight for justice. Just run away from the past and hope it never crosses my path again. And yeh, I am picking myself up. I can't believe how.. hopeless I was 3 yrs back. Urgh. The ways I used to find a cure for the emotional distress. Bleahhs. This is getting emo and weird. Too weird for me.

Everything time I think abt it. I get goosebumps. And.. Now when I see it from a 3rd person's point of view I realised how much of shit I cld have gotten myself into. Srsly. Thankfckingosh nothing ever did happen though. Urgh. Ohwell. Forget forget.

Tht's the problem with me. I don't like.. facing the music. I hate it. I hate confrontations and I hate finding a solution to problems. I just forget it and act like it never happened. Not just for this, for prolly all the things tht have happend in my life. I don't like talking things out. Like something happens, there's a fight. I won't go try to find out what really happend or blah. I'll just let it rot arnd for a few days/mths/weeks then go tell the person can we start anew? or "EH CAN YOU BE MY FRIEND :D" 
yeh. I suck. I noe(:

Trip is only on the 21st. But I don't think I'm gonna blog anymore after this. I feel like switching over to blogger. Idk. We'll see how this goes. Yeh. Idk. India is quite scary. All the whacking and everything that happens in tamileh movies is actually true ok. Srsly. AIYA. Mixed feelings.

& YOU, I like seeing you(: Talking to you. Rahh. You are the nicest person in my life la. Really. An yesss darling, you are supposed to feel comfortable with the one you loveeey. You got me smth. I dunno, I think it's a nice feeling when people get you stuff. Honeydews and brownies made me happy. But then once I eat it the feeling lingers for a while then it's lost. Now. It's shadess. I lIKEY MUCHOS. Lol.

I noe this boy(another one) I think he's quite sweet also, in one of his blogposts he mentioned smth abt how he feels tht every girl shld get a rose in her life. So he gave one of his friend who has never gotten a rose before one. Sweet much.

So yes. Salam Namaste India. HAHA. Omg. Maybe I can find myself a nice indian boy, who prolly takes computer engineering. I kid.

I feel like visiting the dentist. And I think I've finally managed to work things out with the parents on the whole promotion thing. If I fail the supp paper then too bad no choice. If I pass., if I scraped through, I'm gonna retain. If I did fairly well then I shall go on to J2. Yeh.

PL's prom is today. ha. Mine feels like eons ago. Though it was only a yr ago. OHWELL. & yes, Sharzy is very in touch with her indian side these days(: LOL. Idk.

I'm gonna miss the world. Yeh. My sunny island. But thankfckingosh it's somewhat like.. a leisure trip. So we will be sleeping in HOTEL rooms(: OBS was nice as well, but the accomodation cld have been better; most of the time it was self pitched tents. Lol. Not nice to sleep with rocks poking you in odd places. I like school trips. Friends somehow make the whole thing bearable. And my room mateys are Durga and Preetha. Yaye. I like. We sortof bonded during obs. And now again(: I still find the picture of Jeevo I have in my head funny. I cannot imagine him in India(: Lol.

Ohwell. ta!

I miss JIN RONG. Ah Rong. Uncle Rong. Sonny. SonSHINE. I was looking through my box of letters and I came across his. It almost made me cry. Bahh. I dont like crying. I wish i cld have held on to tht r/s. He really is the sweetest boy ever. Gosh. And he sent me the cutest and nicest emails ever. I still have it in my inbox pls. Email inbox. Yeh. GAH. Is it too late to make things better?