enjoy the view

每馮與上令人懊惱既事情，都好想搵個海灘坐下，反思下

有時都幾享受呢種感覺，可以將所以壓力暫時放低

好耐都未試過失約既感覺，真係令人討厭

錯了就是錯了，無得返轉頭

或許我係一個小氣鬼

我係賤人

係o 我無女朋友之前，我經常都係度諗，如果我有一個女朋友我一定會對佢好好，盡量遷就佢。終於在今年2月14日終於遇一個非常好既女仔，條件仲非常好，拍拖到今時今日已經半年多了！但係我之前所諗既野係完全做唔到，倒轉越來越唔理彩人地，逃避人地，冷漠人地。唔知係唔係由我決心開始讀返書那一年開始，我既性格慢慢開始變得自我。在呢一兩個月裡面，我有咩唔鐘意，佢都不斷係度遷就我，容忍我，我話唔想傾電話就唔傾。我知我自己真係好過份，好憎我自己做得衰。好似無左個男朋友既責任，我知我咁樣做佢會忍得好辛苦。但佢亦做好多野來保留我地既感情，我也好感激，但係佢咁做反而令我有d耐久，越來越憎自己!! 有時我自己都唔知點面對你。 我真係好對唔住我女朋友!

對唔住呀!!!!!!

我都唔明點解眼前有咁好既女仔自己總係唔識去珍惜，我都想我對佢既感覺有加無減!

hkcee re-taker

most f.5 students in hong kong were very nervious of the result, which was released on monday, and so was I, as i was also the one who took the exam but only one subject was taken. three years ago, I took Eng once again. however, the result was far from satisfactory. I wasn't willing to tell everyone that I failed the subject. after that, during the last two years, i spent a good chunk of time on this subject. so, last year, i decided to participate in the hkcee one more time wthout bewaring of its syllabus. while i was taking the exam, i found that the syllabus of Eng had been changed. i didn't adapt to it which was completely divorced. after the exam, i was quite anxious about the result. so, last sunday, i was just too nervous to sleep, just like other f.5 students were.  till monday's morning 8, i opened the result page to check my result with my trembling hand. OH! pass, great! but i think there is still room for improvement.

that's a real catch- 22

今晚本來只係想比女朋友試下佢要的感覺，可惜換來既係佢比我既機會。我只係想講十萬個“對不起”，不過似乎對不起已經起唔到了什麼作用，我知道你的認耐力是十分之高，我每做得唔岩，你都會對三認讓；每次我做錯，你都會換換轉來哄我。而你想要的感覺我完全比唔到你，我真係覺得咁樣落去你會好辛苦，我咁講唔係代表我想對你放棄，而係覺對你實在唔太公平。如果要我比一個分數我女朋友，100滿分我會比120分，你的確係一個十分全十分的女朋友，只怪我呢個傻人不懂珍惜，一次又一次拎你唔開心，每次答應你我會改，我都做唔到。我有時我會同女朋友講，如果真係 有一個更好的人對你，愛你，珍惜你，令你有開心的感覺，有時我寧願自己心痛D講我唔介紹你捨我而去。有時我會諗你遇到比你幸福既人係唔係總比個唔拖唔水既人會好呢? 睇來呢兩個星期就必會決定我們的感情了!  究竟我繼續下去還是認心分開?

一方面我真的愛你，但我又改不了我的漏習，如何是好?

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