| | People suck. I am in such a bad mood. I'm taking every single thing that people say as offensive. I'm really tired. I feel like the juniors in amandala don't really want to be there (one of them in particular), and that upsets me, because i work so hard to organize things for rehearsals. Maybe we should take a break and just have a party sometime soon, for i fear I am losing their interest. I'm really afraid that they don't care anymore. I heard some girls talking about how they don't want to go to rehearsal tonight. it was said with an "oh god, i have to do this again" expression. I want the girls to love Amandala as much as I do. To feel a connection with what they're singing......to feel the music flow through them. That's why I love the ethnic music we do. It has so much emotion. Also, I'm not standoffish. Why do people never come around me? With the exception of a few of my close friends, it feels like people are intimidated by me.....but I don't understand why. People flock, and I'm left alone in a rocking chair. I don't understand it....and I probably never will. I just wish that things were going better right now, that I wouldn't be getting upset over the stupidest remarks that meant nothing probably. It's not like I'm isolated or anything....I just always feel that people don't really care about me....like there's someone else they'd rather be talking to, and that hurts. On another note, I hate fake people, and I HATE people who are all over my guy friends when they have no feelings for them. I'm so mad at so many things......maybe I'm just PMSing... |
| | Posted 2/1/2005 5:50 PM - 34 views - 4 comments
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. anyway, hang in there! youll be okay
