This is Amber. :] Sorry i've stopped with the site. Enjoy<3
No one knows the heartache that hides behind my smile, No one knows how many times I've broken down and cried, I want to tell you something so there won't be any doubt,your so wonderful to think of, but so hard to live without This is where you & me mean nothing more than a crossed out heart carved in my backyard It's weird... yeah, I miss you, but its so much more than that. I miss the way my heart stopped at just the sight of you & that smile. The sad part is your smile isn't the only one that I'm missing. I miss my own, too. The one that's only there when yours is. Sometimes bad things happen for no reason. They just occur & we're left picking up the pieces the best we can. Everyday I want to pick up the phone & tell you that you're my only & more. For that certain person, the one where I dont know where we'll end up... but i hope it ends up in us being best friends again ill be just fine pretending im not; im far from lonely and its all that ive got_x3 i wanted you for nothing more; than hating you for what you were; if thats what you wanted you hear <\3 so cut my wrists and black my eyes; so i can fall asleep tonight, ___ or d i e ___ ill give you everything you want and wish the worst of what i was i dont think you know what youve been missing; just for- get me... it's that simple </3 the minute i heard my first love story, i started looking for you not knowing how bling that was. lovers dont finally meet some- where. theyre in love with each other all along. <3 I knew the things you said were lies but i didnt know you could say them and look me straight in the eye when i tell you i love you i dont say it as a habit i say it to remind you that youre the best thing thats ever happend to me you wanna know why i love you? because i love everything you do... the way you can put a smile on my face and make everything ok... the way you make me laugh when i dont even wanna... i just love you my <3 has so many secrets to tell... And what i finally decided is maybe.. maybe i don't want to get over you. Maybe i don't want anyone but you. Maybe that's why i still think about you everyday even though i know we will never have what we used to. the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past .. you cant go foward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches .. it's only a [chapter] in a guys life; but in a girls its the w h o l e book you ask my how im doing... i say fine; but the truth is i havent been fine since the day you left </3 i guess that i'm falling deeper into something i've never known; but the way that i'm feeling makes me realzie that it can't be wrong. im just so tired of pretendinq everythings ok .. my tears are starting to show . and my smile is fading a w a y <3 someone mentioned your name and asked if i knew u .. well i cracked a smile thinking of our good times and said 'no... not anymore' People tell me to get over you but the thing they don't understand is i already tried x|3 if youre lookin for perfection dont look at me... because ill only let you down
even after you break my heart into a million pieces; ill still cherish everything we had with every little broken part all i ever hear 'be a good girl; just behave; sit up straight; stand up tall; never falter; never fall; stay in school; make the grade; never fail; never fade; be a hero; be a star; be e v e r y t h i n g but what you are' every night i lie awake thinking of you, wondering if youre thinking of me too so take my hand & hold me tight... kiss me hard all through the night <3 walking away isn`t the hard part its knowing that you wont come running after me that hurts the most and i sit here... and wonder do you think of me the way i think of you? for once, instead of telling me the reasons why i shouldnt cry... pay attention to the reason why i actually am sometimes the person you want more than anything is the person youre better off without </3 and if i let you go, i will lie here bleeding from my heart till youre gone from my memory losing track of all those days that meant so much to me <\3 dont hold this against me ive already said im sorry all the mistakes in the world could not measure up to the day i thought i could trust you <\3
im just waiting for him to realize that im not perfect, but perfect for him
unless you can see inside my heart, theres no way you could possibly understand how he makes me feel love is [ r a r e ] life is s t r a n g e nothing l.a.s.t.s people c_h_a_n_g_e
s o m e d a y s it just hurts more than o t h e r s
if i hurt you then im sorry please dont think that this was easy
when i push you away thats when i need you [ the most ]
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