hay.. why are you depressed?

well,,, now i gotsta take meds for it.. blah.

I LOVE YOU TWOO!

OMG Lauren! You finally commented me. I have been wandering about you for so long and I figured you'd never wanna talk to me again. Cause like after my little family ordeal I don't hardly talk to anyone anymore. Why is there a for sale sign in your front yard? Are you leaving me??? Am I allowed to call you, or come and see you or you come see me. Well I part-time live here (across the street) but I mostly live with my grandparents in Catoosa. I come and stay with my mom on the weekends. I'm always looking across the street wandering what's new in your life. I would absolutely love to talk to you and catch up. I miss you so much girl you don't even know. Please hurry and comment me so I can find out wuts up!? I love you gurl, just know that I haven't forgotten about you. All My Love Forever, Cheyenne 

Well I haven't really wanted anyone to know everything that happened because I'm so ashamed. But I'm sure living across the street you guys must've seen some pretty scary things, huh? Well don't feel bad I've been totally clueless too. I've wanted to call you (and so many others) for some time but I figured because of what you and your family might've seen, they wouldn't let me have anything to do with you anymore. Moving where exactly? Cuz my ma cept saying back to Missouri for some reason; guess cuz they figure you wouldn't go anywhere else, I dunno. Yeah I understand the feeling, but also ya know a bunch of my friends moved off outa state or choose to not accociate with me. My case has been different, I've wanted to keep in touch but I literally wasn't able to ( I'll eventually explain everything). I'm so sorry gurl, I wish things would've turned out differently; maybe if I would've done something about it; instead of ruin everything and lose everyone. I'd love more than anything to try and restore what we ALL once had and maybe we can somehow. I know we've all changed but if my stupid stuff wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't have ever realised how completely wrong I was about so many things, and be able to become a better person. Tomorrow I have to go up to Eufaula and visit my baby boy Clifford (My boyfriend) before he leaves for Thunderbird. So hopefully Monday night after I get back to my grandparents I'll call you if that's ok? I don't dare use the phone here at my mom's, even if it is someone they've always approve of! lol Oh and my new number at my grandparents is 266-2769. You don't know how glad I am to finally hear from you.

All my Love Forever, Cheyenne