oilyver's Xanga

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 13:33:13 GMT

i wonder how many people every year at this period of time think they are capable of getting 3As and eventually end up pk-ed
those tests just give people false hopes, a little bit of oxygen when you are nearly out of your breath so to keep you moving on but you will still die at the end of the day
i am so tired that after a 15-hour sleep i still feel it wasnt enough

and there is unlimited negative energy pouring out from me
ai..ai..AI!

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 12:20:03 GMT

so easy to get lost before these long weekends
finding there will be no school in the coming few days
want to hea a while
at the end of the day
usually will find myself have wasted the holidays
but i still want to hea for a while at the moment

run for my life
though i am slow
i cannot be analysed by the utility approach
because i dont make consistent choices
but who is the judge?
it's funny that i see nobody is

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Tue, 04 Nov 2008 11:11:49 GMT

people are catalyst
i thought there was the spark again
my heart is fine
my lung is fine
just some problem around the cartilage
i will run for you
and remember how stupid I am in this moment

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Sun, 02 Nov 2008 11:09:23 GMT

學校的stage是一個很厲害的地方, 是權力的象徵. 在stage上不管你是校花或是黑鴨, 說話動聽有如奧巴馬還是口齒不清如馮永祺.stage下的人都要看都要聽

站在stage上其實是一種權力的掌控.看看那位每天assembly學生進場時站在stage正中之人.兩手交疊放背.雙目傲視橫掃禮堂.學生都要仰頭望之如教徒在聖堂中仰望聖母象或十架上的耶穌.此虛榮心在他處實在難求.一方說希望學生自律安靜.另一方每天在台上霸show. 此偽善, 偽君子, 留戀權力之行為讓人倍覺厭惡

可能是受這位霸show大師所薰陶, 另一位傳說中的偽善大師竟爬出來有樣學樣. stage上的主角明明是一眾中七表演者.這人卻在表演完畢大家的拍掌聲中和學生長讀通告的時間空隙中如一隻滿身屎尿臭氣的過街老鼠鬼鬼祟崇的攝了出來. 一手攬過大權繼而不絕地望住台下主人大發偉論.主人也狀甚喜悅如在狗頭上輕拍讚嘆,於是搖搖尾巴越發興奮亂叫亂吠.

這種借中七級表演為"警戒"中五之下三濫手段讓人失望.使用政治手段本無不妥.但如此低級.竟能讓學生如此一目了然的手法.實在讓人為領導層的智慧擔心

自後鎮波年代,不少的新政策最終都被結論為failure.或許使用一點腦筋,不要只是一情願的提升學生和學校質素, 鼓勵他們speak in engkish and Putonghua. 倒是考慮先為自己和老師們搞個lauguage enrichment programme就不會出現tax driver和mac donnell-do road等笑話;又或是先讓自己多學習何為文化,懂得何謂表演,何謂藝術,何謂創意而不是演說一些10 rules for creativity之類的弱智文章

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 12:05:30 GMT

it doesnt matter if i m fast or slow
i just enjoy the moment running at my full speed
pushing myself forward so hardly
the wind, the muscle and the sound of my breath
the lactic acid formed the day after isnt pleasing though

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 09:26:50 GMT

把如此重任押注在一隻
愛瘋狂亂叫亂撞缺乏邏輯思考的瘋狗上
實為不智

紙包不住火
禁飛名單曝光
部份人甚為不滿
我的information cost雖較為低
那一刻也有一絲怨意
但不削留戀

漫漫長路
不用為自己巧立名目去制造一些特別意義
一兩個知己便足夠有餘
其他嘻嘻哈哈的都是仆街

要玩政治嗎
在亂衝亂撞亂吠前
請先學懂觀察聆聽和思考

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 10:21:41 GMT

never have imagined death is so near

take care
may peace be with you

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 11:48:22 GMT

從10號巴士下車
猶疑一會.還是走進三聯去了
拿起我追了幾個月還未看完的天航小說
我很少買這類消閒書籍
因為每次買回家不到幾天便看完
又甚少重閱.很是浪費
所以每次都是去打書釘
一看三四小時.看不完.待下次經過繼續
是以一書隨時需數月完成

匆匆一小時.速讀七十多頁
跳過了大部分的形容描寫字句
有感對作者心血不敬
也借此給了自己一個籍口
最後買了天航的另一本新作
跳上六時五十分渡輪回家
慢慢看

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 13:22:32 GMT

由於細妹在異地升學
吾最近佔用其房作書房
製做一個新環境.似是不錯

AL的生活甚為枯燥
不離溫書和test
真希望快快脆脆過去
但以現在Bio和Chem的進度
應逃不過將來殘酷的補課
學校生活也無甚驚喜
最近殺手熱再成七甲潮流
但如此低質的材料不笑也罷
吾卻是半身進了地獄
在實驗室與音樂室
命令你高抬肥手
你不犯我我不賤你

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Tue, 09 Sep 2008 12:39:34 GMT

the last problem is solved
the path is cleared
it didnt end with the most ideal way
but it is the best possible solution
i cant do both together
let me finish one first
then i will give all my mine
if yuan is still there

u aint selfish.not at all