| Sigh today. Spent all my time at home drunk, depressed or a combination
of the two. I just finally heard what i wanted to hear so maybe now i
can have some closure and let this whole think blow over, Its only been
one day but it feels like forever and knowing its never ever going to
be back to how it was borhers me. more than i thought anything would. I
feel like crying like soo badly. I know shit hasn't happened to me but
it feels like i am going to die. I just feel bad right now. O well i'm
having a party 2morrow hopefully that will cheer me up (yeah right)
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| God damn. Whatever I feel really bad and i don't care if people know. I
really really liked gabbi. I didn't even do anything wrong. She just
dumped me for no reason i guess. I don't know what it is about her but
i feel really bad everytime we brake up. I would do anything to go out
with her again. I would do anything just to find out why she dumped me.
There must be something wrong with me if she is dumping me for no
reason like this. I like..... i don't know I miss her more than
anything..
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| on second thought its Not really a problem. Whatever
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| If you people are still reading my Xanga than stop now or get ready to here me bitch about my problems.
Well Today i got dumped. Again. I think this is just my thing, getting
dumped i mean i'm soo good at it. Its like a gurantee with every
relationship, i am gunna fuck up and make them feel bad. O well ya'know
its alot worse than i thought it would be. I mean we already broke up
once and i felt really bad and i thought that was over with. I guess
its not. I just feel like It is impossible for me to make anything
happy cuz i always fuck everything up. You know, the only reason i get
hurt is because i trust these people not to hurt me. Then i tell them
it doesn't. I just felt really good about this last person. Just like
whatever. Its over and i'm gunna try to be friends with her but yeah
like thats gunna work out.
lph,
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