| Another marymounting and the city that i'm giving you the pleasure of reading. hahah. new york has been my favorite bitch i hang out with and she has taught me so much about relationships. here's to another year of fun time. new york you are the only whore that i will continue to love.
marymounting and the city .7
Why do we jump into things so quickly? I always remembered, as a kid, that when mom would take us to the pool, I would be the first one that would jump in. It would be so cold and I would lose my breath for a split second, but i was fat and so i had my shirt and blubber to keep me warm. To this day i don't know why i was so adventerous as a kid and yet so scared to get into things at my current age. I once jumped into a house foundation that was full of water just so i could see if my raft would float. I was stuck there for an hour until my friend finally got my mom and the neighbor to bring a ladder over. Right now, i need someone to bring me that ladder to pull myself out of this foundation i'm stuck in.
Tonight I finally got my ticket to hit show "Barefoot in the Park," where I really took to heart many of Mr. Simon's life tools. Cory and Paul were just two happy go lucky newly weds who didn't really know each other and weren't the perfect match for each other. Cory being spunky and dangerously adventerous and Paul the uptight preppy chic lawyer. At first they didn't realize that what they had was perfect and it took a role reversal just to realize they were that "perfect match." They couldn't just walk barefoot in the park together because that's who they were at the time but once they finally got to that place they knew how far they had come. Sure they were only married for a week and started to get a divorce, they realized they had to risk so much to get even more. I feel like i can't do that but have to really get to know someone because i've been hurt to many times in my life.
When you leave everything that is normal and socially acceptable to get into a situation that is risky and unknown, this will hurt those around you but eventually it will allow everyone to grow from the mistakes and the incrediable outcome. I know someone who just jumps into relationships and, even though i hate it, i respect him in the end. I want to be able to risk everything, to jump out in front of traffic, to walk in the rain without an umbrella, to travel to distant lands, to sing in the crowed streets....to walk barefoot in the park. At my given place I realize that when you have absolutly nothing, you have absolutly nothing to lose. So i'm saying, take a risk, jump into the pool first even though you might be so cold and pissed you jumped in before everyone, it will warm up eventually and every wave will settle. Good luck in everything, it is you whom i respect because you have helped me grow so much. You taught me to put myself out there for the world and to never be afaird, because you really never are.
When i cry, from now on, it will be because i'm so happy that i'm starting to fell comfortable in my own skin. When i laugh, i will laugh because i'm finally having the best time of my life. When i frown, i will frown because i lost you but yet gained so much from you. and when i walk...i will forever be barefoot, because without risk and chance, who are we really? |
