Hello, I feel like writing cause Mae woke me up and I have nothing better to do. So I'm sitting here listening to sarah mclaughlan. My dogs on my bed and hes so cute. I love him. I dont mean to complain, but you know that feeling when you feel so unloved? Like not one person actually deeply cares about you? And everyone knows that you'll always be there, so they can take you for granted and not be as nice to you as they would anyone else? Yeah i really hate that and thats the way i feel. I know feelings arent facts but what can you do? Im also soooo stressed out about going to school becuase I feel like I had the most stressful vacation, so in turn I feel like I didnt get a vacation and now I have to go back to school which is also stressful. You know? Also I dont have looking forward to seeing my friends at my school cause they are such fuckers. But you know I still got my dog and my really awesome brother. : ) Im also feeling soo bad about the hurricaine katrina. its so sad. I think ill donate a dollar ( i know its cheap but its all I can do at the moment). And you know when people just lay all their problems on you and make you responsible and guilty about them? When you already have your own problems, and its not like I dont want to help people, because I do. But I just learned yesterday you have to take care of yourself first, so then if your well you can take care of other epopel. So i have to start doing that. So I can help my family better and a few friends. Okay I just wrote this for myself so I could sort a few thoughts.I will leave myself and any reader which so happenes to read it, some sarah mclaughlan lyrics.( well its a cover from xtc but still)

Love love love, Diviya

Dear God
Hope you got the letter and...
I pray you can make it better down here
I don't mean a big reduction in the price of beer
But all the people that you made in your image
See them starving on their feet
Cause they don't get enough to eat
From God
I can't believe in you
Dear God
Sorry to disturb you but...
I feel that I should be hear loud and clear
We all need a big reduction
In the amount of tears
And all the people that you made in your image
See them fighting in the street
Cause they can't make opinions meet about God
I can't believe in you
Did you make disease
and the diamond blue?
Did you make mankind
after we made you?
And the devil too?
Dear God,
Don't know if you noticed but...
Your name is on a lot of quotes in this book
And as crazy humans wrote it
you should take a look
And all the people that you made in your image
Still believeing that junk is true
Well I know it ain't and so do you, dear God
I can't believe in
I don't believe in
I won't believe in heaven and hell
no saints no sinners no devil as well
no pearly gate no thorny crown
you're always letting us humans down
the wars you bring
the babes you drown
those lost at sea and never found
and it's all the same the whole world round
the hurt I see helps to compound
That Father, Son, and Holy Ghost
is just somebody's unholy hoax
And if you're up there you'd perceive
That my heart's here upon my sleeve
If there's one thing I don't believe in...
It's you, dear God.