| Well today was a bad day. I didn't feel good at all. i had a really bad headache that i still have. needless to say i missed spending time with jerome again cause i felt sick. i hope that things will get better. i really miss spending time with him. it hardens my heart that we have to be apart so much. jerome just came home and he is tired i am tired and i don't feel well still. he looks so cute. his eyes are just georgous. they still light up after 9 months of being together. when him and i talked lastnight he kind of upset me and has me worried that he still isn't over amanda comletely. he said that he would have sex with her before we got married. well maybe i should tell the whole story. we where talking about his bachlor party and i asked him if there was anyone that he would ever want to sleep with before we got married who would it be he said her. that bothers me. maybe it's just me still being insucure or what but i pretended like it didn't bother me but it does and it did but we just want about our business with doing you know what but i thought about it the whole time we did. that's wrong isn't it. but i couldn't help it. i have this fear that it is going to happen whether i want it to happen or not. well i don't know i am worried that all of this being engaged is way to soon and stuff and baby talk but i want it so bad i just know if he ready to be held down yet by just one person. maybe he just does need to go just one time to see if we are made for each other and he really is ready o here i go again being a damn worry wurt just shot me in the head and just forget about it all PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST GIVE ME AN ANSWER????!!!!???!!! |
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| Well the last few days have been hectic. I have been working and sleeping that's it i havent been doing anything else. There hasn't been much time to spend with Jerome. I miss him alot cause when i come home from work i go to bed and when he gets up i am still sleeping. It will be hard for a while but it is something that we are going to have to get use to. He started his new job today. He works 4 to 12pm we are never going to see each other now except for when i have off. We are going to try to go to hershey park but can we ever get the same day off together. i don't know. But it is worth everything to me that we make it through this. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me and i wouldn't change it for the world. he respects the fact that when i come home from work and want to sleep he just lets me sleep i guess he really loves me. I love him too and i wouldn't have it any other way. is it 2007 yet i wish that it was and shawn isn't helping at all yet not that i have the divorce money yet but the faster the better
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| This is my first entry. My boyfriend introduced my to this site. Well actually he isn't my boyfriend anymore he is my fiancee!!!!!! Yippy. I am so happy, I just need to get my divorce finalized then it's all up hill from there. I have waited all of my life for someone like him now it has finally happened. |
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