wow, havent been on here in ages. no one does this anymore, but im bored, so i figured i might as well.

so for those of you who don't know, Andrew has moved in with me. i think it's been three weeks. im used to it now, and its fun. i love seeing him everyday.

and my parents are getting a divorce. i'm sad, but only for my dad. im worried that he wont have enough money to pay off the house and find a new place to live.  but i know this is for the better.

too much stuff has happened in the past two months.  i mean, couldnt it have all been spread out a bit more?
my emotions are out of control. im sick.

so, yeah.

xanga sucks.

bleh.

shitty.

im a bad friend.  terrible even.
ugh. guilt. its so bad i cant even talk to you guys about it.
and thats making it worse, i just know it.

not only am i a bad friend, but a hipocrite. i keep griping about how my best friend hasnt called me, or texted me back, or blah blah blah.

to the people i feel ive let down, im really sorry.
the past few weeks have been absolutely awful. with everything that's going on for Andrew, not to mention finding out i failed 3 of my classes.
lame as it is, that's my excuse.
if you know who you are, i am really, really sorry. and i want to make it up to yous.

k. so.

friday night Andrew and i went to Nick's house.

saturday night Andrew, Nick and i went to the Esoteric show. they were good but i didnt have much fun. after that we went to Nick's house.

sunday me and Andrew went to cici's, then to the movies to see Hostel. it really blew. then we went to Dave's for the ppv. then to the house. that was lots of fun, i really missed everyone.

monday, um. the day was awful. then Andrew, Simon, and i went to cici's, then to Dave's house. then to ihop. Matt and Jenifer were there.

uhhh tuesday..i cant remember what i did tuesday night. i dont think i did anything.

wednesday. i cant remember wednesday either. i dont think i did anything that day.

thursday was the funeral. it was completely sad. i dont really know what to say about it. we hung out at Scotty's for a little bit after. and then went to Andrew's brother's father-in-law's house for dinner. then to his grandpa's hotel to chat. then Andrew's house.

last night me and Andrew and Nick went to dinner at olive garden. was fantastic. after that we went to Nick's house and played video games. then Blaire came home and we went to walmart/taco bell. hung out there till 2:30ish, then Andrew and i went to walmart.

did absolutely nothing today. Nick and Blaire are on their way; then soon after they leave im off to Emily's house for the night.

ohhh lord. this has been the most stressful week ever. and, i have a feeling that the stress isnt about to end soon.
but i can deal with it. i know i need to be strong and work harder.

love you guys.
<3

Currently Listening Never Take Friendship Personal By Anberlin see related

this is fucked up.

this is so ridiculously fucked.

honestly. is it completely necessary to have everything happen at the same time? always.

this is the worst week of my life.

finals and funeral in one day. how am i going to do this. my mind is going a thousand different ways.

but i know that like everything else, this will all blow over.
despite grief; everything will soon be okay.