justify

holidays... nothing fancy to do.... damn bored..... damn bored.... wanna go out... donno where to go... staying home... nothing real to do... been sleeping a lot... havent been smoking for a while... just dont want to... been skating a lot... keeps me out from other shits... ok laaaar.... euro is boro... she is gogo... i wish to be happy... i am somehow do... 3 months holiday made me sick.... look at the bright side foo... ur getting a new skate... ur back rolling... ur not wasted like u used to... u been ok... thanks for being there for me... i just wanna live... get blade

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patterns of certain nostalgia

morning comes around the other day… and i woke up in the strangest dream… felt like real though… we were back together… how funny is that… ok enough… crapsorama… wrestling with reality… twisted my ankle that night... but i think i won the first round… results came out… nice one… thanks God…. mum and dad... and everyone for the support... and to myself… cause i’ve been a good boy last semester… and to the next one… bring it on… and to the last night… was a nice time… haven’t been out for a while… need that happy booster once in a while… meet with some lads... nice nice...  and i’ve been rolling back… been studying lots of new skate videos... damn the scene have very much evolve... gonna get a new pair of skate soon… been wearing the once i got in 2001... haha... damn old skool... hope i could learn some new tricks… with new features on the new ones... a new kind of obsession for me.. a new way of life… a new hope… i miss doing fakie parallel 360… ok go... away... eat.. sleep.. draw.. jump.. roll.. foo

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no cenversation

sudah...
kudaki gunung tertinggi..
hanya untuk mencari dimana dirimu.
sudah
kujelajahi isi bumi..
hanya untuk dapat hidup bersama mu.
sudah
kuharungi laut samudera.
hanya untuk mencari tempat berlabuhmu.
tapi
semakin jauh ku mencari.
cinta.
semakin aku tak mengerti

akulah arjuna.
yg mencari cinta.
oh wahai wanita.
cintailah aku.

mungkin
ku temui cinta sejati.
saat
aku hembuskan nafas terakhir ku.
mungkin cinta sejati memang tak ada.
dalam cerita kehidupan ini.

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missing

twenty six is big number for me.. in my vision when it was twenty two.. was different.. now... curiousity is something familiar... and my senses came in a way i know what to feel how or about... yesterday.. it rains.. and it was cold... both... on my skin and in my body... and its a phenomena that i still can hang on to... yes i do feel that back then was a goood time.... everything to worry about was far from my reach.... in a distance that i could not really see.... now... a day or more... i might feel that i want to go back then.... those smiles... thoose words that came out from my mouth... the eyes that look on to everywhere... and the body that experience whats there... was much better.... and as i believe on bliss.... everything will eventually work out in the end... just that where is that end.. might be anywhere or never gonna be any... everyone talks about their ups... on how it is when its down... nothing different to me... i have those too... and i wonder.... if ur up... or down... is there a left or right.. or maybe front and back.... or whatever... i let out what i could... so it wont be permanent.. i dont believe in forever... i believe in for one more time... i have been trying.. almost for all my lfe... and im sick of doing that sometimes.... you know that whats best for you and then make you come to decide.... and it may go i a flow... a sweet escape will brighten end enlighten that darkness that haunts you... it always did for some reason... let me go now.. i want to fly... free

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empiricism

i just want to write something... try not to be... try not to run... try not to not... things just not i would hope it was... bugger

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