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Monday, July 21, 2008

  • Hi There!

    Remember in my last post...oh, one day shy of a month ago...I said I would "check back in when something develops or a "sorry it's been so long" post was necessary"?

    2 dead birds + 1 stone = This post.

    Over the last few months, I have been in full downsizing mode. At first I thought I was just finally becoming a grown up and recognized that living outside my means wasn't getting me anywhere I wanted to be. I got rid of the big fancy townhome that I was going to need a second job to pay for, I passed on buying the cute little red sports car I'd had my eye on for months, and I paid off all my credit cards and cut up all but one. I also started making plans for my jewelry biz...researching shops that might be a good fit...craft shows and fairs in the tri-state area...stocking up on supplies...etc.

    Even as I was doing all this, I knew there was a bigger reason other than my new-found responsible side and love of Sawrovski crystals. Couldn't put my finger on it...but decided not to fight it, since no matter what, it was all for the best anyway.

    Then the rumors started. Profits were down...WAY down. Upper management was not happy with the performance..especially in the sector where I work. The stock took a nosedive...

    It amazes me how, when all this is going on around you, no one else seems to notice. Maybe it's because I've been through it so many times, I'm more attune with the signs. But I swear, it was as if no one else I worked with was even aware of where things were going.

    Then...it happened. First, only a handful of upper management types were let go. The middle management took a noticable, but not all-too significant hit. According to the media, only a "handful of employees would be effected by a "realignment of responsibilites".

    Um...someone correct me if I'm wrong but I think 4000+  people being handed pink slips is a bit more than a "handful".

    Okay...so NOW people in my department are paying attention. Some are quaking in their boots...others are convinced that THEY won't be the ones to go...they're too valuable to the company.

    Uh huh....

    Y'all've heard me describe my job...the mind-numbing, life-stealing, "great money...but so not worth the 75-hour work-weeks that not only no one appreciates but also have the gall to expect" job that held me hostage I had for three years. I had been trying everything to get out of there...but wasn't finding anything that would pay me as much as I was making...and due to my damned work ethic, I couldn't just quit or do anything that would make them fire me...so I was trapped. I'd been praying for a LONG time that something would happen and I would be able to get out of there...

    Until a week ago last Thursday.

    Yep...you guessed it. God remembered my address...and he delivered unto me a pink slip.

    But wait...there's more!

    Not only did I get my freedom back...I also got a severance package, my remaining vacation time will be cashed out, and iffen I want to, I can cash in my 401k.

    Oh...did I mention I got my freedom back? I don't think they expected to see a woman dance her way out of an office as grim-faced management types are hauling her stuff out to her car. Hey...I offered to pull the car around...but they declined.

    Yes...really...I DANCED all the way out of the office...and I could NOT stop smiling. Even thinking back, I still smile about it. It was as if a 10-ton weight was lifted off my chest.

    So, now I'm going to take my little nestegg, be VERY careful with it...and delve back into freelancing full-time. I haven't been this excited to do something...well in a LONG time. I'm going to be doing both writing and jewelry..that way all sections of my brain are utilized...which means less chance of getting bored with work. And since I did all that downsizing...the nestegg will stretch even further.

    And that is my big news. Other than that (HA!), the rest of my life is same 'ol...same 'ol.

    But I am a woman of my word...so a post I had to write.

    I'll check back in with my progress.

    Later Peeps!







Sunday, June 22, 2008

  • *Sigh*

    My life (like everyone's) just ebbs and flows. The tide goes out...the tide comes back in. Sometimes when the tide comes back, it brings strange things with it. In my case, it's usually people...the type I wouldn't have met otherwise.

    I have some tide people in my life right now. Some I'm glad wandered onto my little personal shore. Others, I'd gladly throw back. But either way they've made the beach that is my life interesting.

    But not really interesting enough to blog about. Yes, I know that technically it's not up to me to decide what's interesting to you and what's not, and that I should just throw it all out there are let you tell me...

    But that's akin to sticking my hand in a beehive and being astonished when I get stung. (I was going to add another beach reference here...but a. couldn't readily think of one b. I'm writing in stream of consciousness mode and don't wanna stop to struggle over allegory and c. if I would have used a beach reference you wouldn't have had a,b, or c. to read, and really-- isn't it my meandering trains of thought that keep you reading anyway?)

    Where was I going with this? Oh yeah...people tide...throw 'em back.

    There 's one person who keeps coming back no matter how many times I throw him back. I finally realize that we are NOT going to work. We want entirely different things out of life and out of a mate. He doesn't want to make any sort of committment, but expects me to put my life on hold for him.

    Uh yeah...see the bee reference that would have been a beach reference if I could have thought of one above.

    Anyway...all that to say, nothing going on...it's the same ol, some old other than the ex wandering in and out. So, I'm not ignoring you, I just don't feek like I have anything witty and/of insightful to say.

    So, I'll check back in when something developes...or when a "sorry it's been so long" post is necessary.

    Either way...take care Xanga Peers...and know I'm thinking about ya!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Saturday, May 10, 2008

  • Hiya...again...

    Wow...been awhile. Lot's going on...dust is finally settling and I figured I had to at least post about this...

    Sixteen years and 2 days ago...I did the coolest thing I have ever done...and probably will ever do...

    She wandered into my life...



    and things haven't been the same since! LOL




    She loved her swing...it was really the only time she ever sat still...




    and she was always a good little helper...





    and really lit up when a camera came out. Come to think of it...some things never change...




    Even now, at 16...I still see her as the cute smiling baby she's always been. I guess I'll always see her that way.

    Of course it helps that she still calls me "mommy", kisses me in public, and tells everyone she's got the best mom in the world....

    Happy Birthday Diva...Mommy loves you.

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  • Welcome to my Xanga Blog. This blog is about me, my Diva and the life I am trying to make for the both of us. I've got big dreams and one way or another I'm going to see them come true. This blog's focus has changed over the years...I've gone from an unhappily married woman to a mostly happy single parent. Follow along as I see what each day'll bring.

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  • Marching forward hypocritic & hypnotic computers U depend on our protection, yet you feed us lies from the tablecloth! - SOAD "BYOB"
  • I'm frazzled. All this new demand is going to keep me stupidly busy for the next couple of weeks. And this was my VACATION! LOL