here is for long overdue...
(i can tell long cause i dont recognize this thing above me as im typing....)

soooo school is OVER...thank God...seriously...im thanking him as i write....five classes SUCKED soooooooooooooooo much...i dont know how i did it again...and while at the moment im promising myself that ill never put myself through it again...come spring sem...im sure ill have a full course load again............life sucks.)

CHRISTMAS...im SOOoooooooooooo excited....first one here in four years.....its gonna be some fun times...got lots planned....are you guys ready?

soo much has happened that its not worth mentioning it all.
lets just do two and call it even:

- pity christmas dinners = love, why yes i am loved thankyou.
- nothing beats SNOW and goode family times (unless youre in edmonton under abnormal freezing weather where youre forced to stay indoors and play Wii nonstop...the whole snow thing becomes a lot less fun...)

this is not the end....
xoxooxoxoxox hel

school is no fun
Chaucer is no fun
reading when i have to is no fun
two essays due in one week is no fun
REM* is not only no fun but also a waste of my time
this past little while has pretty much amounted to no fun

where did all my fun go?
(oh right, it was pretty much dwindling away by august)

you know how sometimes you think you know where you are but then the truth is youre not where you think you are but youre really somewhere else? or how you think that youd be at some place but it turns out that youre not at all?

well thats like how it is now. my conclusion: i need another summer.

xoxoxoxoox hel

*resource and environmental management

and sooo its been a while...

during these months ive learned:

     i will never grow out of sushi
     sunshine makes my day
     deer lake can fix most things
     children are simple, simple is goode
     laughing is therapy but so is crying
     a down mood, couple chords and words can change everything
     true forever in the making friends are hard to find
     there is no 'right time' just the right guy
     (and more importantly the right priorities make everything else right)
     silence is a must to be able to hear whats being said
     ask and itll be given, seek and itll be found

      its goode to know that i can give everything to Him
     and that He always takes care of that 'everything' whatever is it


and theres still more stuff to come....cant wait to see what gets thrown at me next
til then...

xoxoxoxoox hel

and so begins my four month summer...

i wish
life
would just
slow
down

even if its just for a day. itd still be nice.

(what am i looking for, where am i going?)

xoxoxo hel