Hey.

It is technically Saturday and it is 5:45 in the am. I would like to go back to bed, but thats not going to happen. I keep having these dreams and once I wake up, there is no going back to bed. My dreams are all baby related in some way whether it is me giving birth in the dream or me hurting the baby in some way, you name it I have dreamed it. Today I dreamed that I had my baby shower and at was at Wal*mart, and one of my family memebers that attended died there. I dont know why I would dream something so stupid, but I did.

I am sitting up by myself and I hear funny noises out side, so if I get killed by a psyco neighbor or something, it was nice knowing all of you.

I fell down the stairs today. It was raining outside and I was wearing flip-flop shoes (becasue that is all that fits my feet right now!) and I fell down the stairs on the porch. I suppose you could say thankfully I landed on my back, but I would have to say my back disagrees, and I bruised my arm. I was hoping it would cause me to go into labor, but it appears as if there is no hope for it. *tear* I tried to stop eating for a day becasue I have gained "too much" weight, I ended up crying because I was so hungry and I gave in and ate. My brother yelled at me and told me that pregnant people do get fat and gain weight, but it still didnt help. So I have decided I must eat, because I cant afford to sit around and cry. It takes too much energy.

Well Im going to go do dishes, laundry, and take out the trash. Our house is a pig sty! I hate living with six people and two nasty fucking dogs. If its not one dog causing trouble its the other!!!

~Stephanie~