I love Emma so much. It was hard at first, but now it is not so bad being a mother. I am a single mother and that does suck, but I will get over it. I am working on it. Emma is such a sweet heart. She is starting to smile and giggle. And she really likes her bottles, if you dont make them fast enough she will tell you about it.

If you are a single mother you get lots of discounts too, you get cheaper insurance, you get to go to school for free and you get discounts at other places. Its exciting. But its no picnic either, getting woke up at 6:30 every morning for a bottle, and not be able to go back to sleep until 10:00 really stinks, but now I am starting to feel like it is worth it. Everytime you tickle her feet and she smiles and giggles it makes it worth it.

 Her dad might be a complete peice of shit but she is a little angel. I dont see how something so sweet could have came from such a bastard. But it did and at least right now she looks like me and is nice. Hopefully it stays that way. I know right now she recognizes me and she has no idea who her daddy is when she sees him, which is sad, but its his choice he's the one who doesnt want to see her. One day he will realize how much he has missed.

I can say that I hated be a mother at first, but now that I have adapted I truely love her and I would kill for her. If fact I would like to kill her father because I know someday when she realizes what is going on it is going to hurt her, and it is sad becasue I know no matter what I say she is going to blame her self, but it really stinks. But oh well what can you do. I am going to protect her in every way I can. Anyways well Im off!