yes.. another entry.. summer is here, one of my classes is done, so i'm bored.. so in jan-u-wary (for all those non-fobs.. january) i posted up some pixs when i got gizmo.. so here are now pixs of him bored @ my apt w/ me.. enjoy!

i'm lazy.. leave me alone.. 

a second later he falls asleep 

wakes up and plays w/ spongebob
look at his puppy dog face!

so looking back at my Dec 10th entry.. i did get one but in flint.. even better..

and for ur reading pleasure, an entry never posted up:

wow.. i got some internet connection at my aunt's house.. koo..

where to begin... this year has been truely the toughest in my whole life so far.. and for those people who really seem to hate me or THINK i'm "shady" and blah blah blah.. who really look at the negative and not the postives.. you don't have a FCUKING right to judge me.. you don't know what my family and i have been going through since last spring.. like a never ending roller coaster of normal levels to downhill, back and forth.. and truely i don't think whoever could "understand what we're going thru".. for those people who are UPSET because they MISS talking to me and whatnot.. i'm REALLY SORRY that i'm not able to spend time with you.. because i REALLY DO MISS YOU TOO.. but the fact is.. everything i do right now is for MY IMMEDIATE FAMILY.. everyday, every breathe, everytime i take an exam its for my family... when i return home i want to spend time w/ my family because i don't spend enough time w/ them when i'm in college studying.. all of my time away from my family and friends were truely for STUDYING.. not just to fool around.. and you know what.. it paid off.. 4.0 gpa.. so don't think oh i'm spending all my time having fun w/ my friends @ rutgers.. cuz then once again.. you don't understand the stress, anxiety, and breakdowns i've had this year..  this has been such a bittersweet holiday...

and if you can't take that.. then seriously, leave me alone.. come talk to me when you're mature and realize the world doesn't revolve around you.. because i'll still be there if you need me.. just a phone call away.. ppl can't feel the same dread that i feel when i look at the phone id and see "home" calling me.. 

and now i'm here in cali.. left on my beb's and my anniversary and coming home on my bday.. the past two days have been utterly unrealistic to me.. two days ago you where walking, talking and looking at photos with me, the next day it was the same deal... but then i woke up and realized they were all dreams.. but i still can't face reality... 

everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS and happy holidays.. GOD BLESS.. spend this time with your family...

hey.. i do miss you boobies.. u complete my butt.. haha don't worrie i'll always remember positions..*

one thing i learned recently..
there is not enough times to say I love you to some one significant in life.. TELL THAT PERSON "I LOVE YOU" OVER AND OVER AGAIN.. and make sure you hear them say i love you back.. because you ARE going to miss it when they can't say i love you back to you..  so tell them that you miss them.. tell them that you love them..

I love you grandma.. you're so beautiful and soo unbelievably strong... i know how much you want to say i love you too.. but no need i understand.. I LOVE YOU..

and i'm spent.................