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i’m gonna stay 18 forever

so we can stay like this forever…

i put that heading up the day before my last day of high school. and now… my first semester of college is over! just like that! it feels like it didn’t even happen really because it went by soo fast… wow. anyways, back to my point:  that heading is from a brandnew song and it definitely mirrors the way i was feeling as i was graduating high school, and actually, i can still kind of relate to it. high school was safe.. and graduating was kind of a pivotal moment in the history of my life. in high school, i was completely content with my ridiculous naivety, never questioning the morals i was raised on or doubting the religious or political views i had been taught and certainly never contemplating the problems of our world. i wanted to stay forever exactly how i was, with my lovely friends, in our little uhs bubble. i had absolutely no idea that in the seven months to follow, i would learn more about myself and about the world than i had throughout the course of my entire life before the whole college thing. i didn’t ask for this insight, and the tell you the truth, i’m not so sure if i like it. to elaborate on every aspect of this idea would be tedious… if you know what i mean, you know what i mean.

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i'm sitting here trying to think of what to say... tomorrow is my last day of high school. i have a few regrets... nothing major, i just wish i had been more involved instead of only coming to school for one hour a day, wishing and claiming that i was, in fact, already a "college girl," instead of savoring every minute of my senior year. i regret not standing up for myself in the lunch room sophomore year and damn it, i really regret trying to look cute in a skirt when i was on crutches freshman year. wtf?! i regret that one night last april and i regret wrecking my camaro. i regret sacraficing most of my self-esteem and few of my morals in an attempt to make a certain person realize that i'm worth their love and most of all i regret that it took me so long to realize that i shouldn't have to do that. needless to say, there are a few things i'd definitely go back and edit if i had the chance.

despite my regrets, however, i venture to say that my high school career was better than average. it consisted mainly of great times with my awesome friends: a lot of laughter, a lot of fun, a lot of secrets, a lot of partyin, way too much alcohol, never enough hott boys, and a few irresponsible decisions... punctuated, of course, by a few moments of studying and going to dance class.

as much as i hate the "high school drama" and how immature some people are, i'm really going to miss knowing that i could simply walk down a different hallway and see my best friend from seventh grade or the kid i sat across from on my first day of kindergarten. i can no longer write, "i'll see ya around next year!" in yearbooks and it's a weird feeling knowing that i'm going to have to make a conscious effort to keep in touch with old friends. i guess i'm ready though; i guess i have to accept that graduation is coming whether i'm truly ready or not...

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just so everyone knows, i'm updating just for jhonny because he's my bffl. yep, it's the truth! well right now i just got done taking my history final and i'm pretty sure i did good enough to keep my solid B. in the spirit of slacking off, i've decided i don't feel like taking any summer classes. whoa, whoa, wait a minute... what am i saying?! oh my god. i just said NOT doing extra stuff is SLACKiNG OFF. man, after i kick my AP english test's ass, i'll totally have 12 hours of college credit... and i was seriously considering summer classes?! WTF?! i'm stopping this way of life RiGHT now... until next fall, that is. it's SUMMER in 10 days, babayyy!! yeeah... so a lot crazy things have been happening to me/i've been thinking a lot of crazy things this past week and i just don't really feel like sharing, but i will say... no actually i won't say. i'm about to go meet my mom for lunch and i don't want to get into anything too deep and like have to finish this later. nope, i'm not really down with that. who knows, maybe i'll update more later... because i know you're all dying to know about my interesting life.

edit:   hmm, i guess that album cover is too vulgar for xanga.... too bad!

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wow… this is the first time i’ve been sincerely bored in SO long! its totally weird and i don’t really like it! i kinda feel like i’m wasting my life or something because i’m not doing anything productive. i guess i’ll use this time to make a post because i should have a lot to write about. i’ll start with last weekend: on friday night i went to an interpretive dance party. it was… interesting to say the least! i wasn’t with the group of people i usually hang out with so i was completely out of my comfort zone or whatever but i still managed to have a really awesome night! i could elaborate on the night’s events but i don’t think that would be a very good idea... on saturday morning i had to get up and go to orientation at mac g, my new place of employment. i’ve been going through some very intensive training since then which explains my lack of boredom. (plus i had two whole papers due last week! wtf?!) anyways after i complete a few more menu quizzes and do an amazing job waiting on my managers on wednesday afternoon i will officially be certified as a REAL LIVE waiter! wooohoooo!! i’m gonna be making some serious dinero. let’s see what else is there… oh yes, prom. it was good. could have been better, could have been worse. i just don’t really feel like typing any more! this is probably the worst xanga entry of my life… and i DONT care