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Thursday, December 15, 2005

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 01:11:42 GMT

i’m gonna stay 18 forever

so we can stay like this forever…

i put that heading up the day before my last day of high school. and now… my first semester of college is over! just like that! it feels like it didn’t even happen really because it went by soo fast… wow. anyways, back to my point: that heading is from a brandnew song and it definitely mirrors the way i was feeling as i was graduating high school, and actually, i can still kind of relate to it. high school was safe.. and graduating was kind of a pivotal moment in the history of my life. in high school, i was completely content with my ridiculous naivety, never questioning the morals i was raised on or doubting the religious or political views i had been taught and certainly never contemplating the problems of our world. i wanted to stay forever exactly how i was, with my lovely friends, in our little uhs bubble. i had absolutely no idea that in the seven months to follow, i would learn more about myself and about the world than i had throughout the course of my entire life before the whole college thing. i didn’t ask for this insight, and the tell you the truth, i’m not so sure if i like it. to elaborate on every aspect of this idea would be tedious… if you know what i mean, you know what i mean.

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 00:39:09 GMT

well, well, well... it sure has been a while! i don't even know what motivated me to start this update... i'm so over the xanga scene right now. everyone that knows me knows what i'm up to so i think i'm gonna give this bad boy a rest. i just wanted to tell about my new song. it's called "i feel home" and its by oar.. it's our class song and its so bad ass, you should listen to it. everyday.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Wed, 11 May 2005 19:50:15 GMT

i'm sitting here trying to think of what to say... tomorrow is my last day of high school. i have a few regrets... nothing major, i just wish i had been more involved instead of only coming to school for one hour a day, wishing and claiming that i was, in fact, already a "college girl," instead of savoring every minute of my senior year. i regret not standing up for myself in the lunch room sophomore year and damn it, i really regret trying to look cute in a skirt when i was on crutches freshman year. wtf?! i regret that one night last april and i regret wrecking my camaro. i regret sacraficing most of my self-esteem and few of my morals in an attempt to make a certain person realize that i'm worth their love and most of all i regret that it took me so long to realize that i shouldn't have to do that. needless to say, there are a few things i'd definitely go back and edit if i had the chance.

despite my regrets, however, i venture to say that my high school career was better than average. it consisted mainly of great times with my awesome friends: a lot of laughter, a lot of fun, a lot of secrets, a lot of partyin, way too much alcohol, never enough hott boys, and a few irresponsible decisions... punctuated, of course, by a few moments of studying and going to dance class.

as much as i hate the "high school drama" and how immature some people are, i'm really going to miss knowing that i could simply walk down a different hallway and see my best friend from seventh grade or the kid i sat across from on my first day of kindergarten. i can no longer write, "i'll see ya around next year!" in yearbooks and it's a weird feeling knowing that i'm going to have to make a conscious effort to keep in touch with old friends. i guess i'm ready though; i guess i have to accept that graduation is coming whether i'm truly ready or not...

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tue, 03 May 2005 15:40:23 GMT

just so everyone knows, i'm updating just for jhonny because he's my bffl. yep, it's the truth! well right now i just got done taking my history final and i'm pretty sure i did good enough to keep my solid B. in the spirit of slacking off, i've decided i don't feel like taking any summer classes. whoa, whoa, wait a minute... what am i saying?! oh my god. i just said NOT doing extra stuff is SLACKiNG OFF. man, after i kick my AP english test's ass, i'll totally have 12 hours of college credit... and i was seriously considering summer classes?! WTF?! i'm stopping this way of life RiGHT now... until next fall, that is. it's SUMMER in 10 days, babayyy!! yeeah... so a lot crazy things have been happening to me/i've been thinking a lot of crazy things this past week and i just don't really feel like sharing, but i will say... no actually i won't say. i'm about to go meet my mom for lunch and i don't want to get into anything too deep and like have to finish this later. nope, i'm not really down with that. who knows, maybe i'll update more later... because i know you're all dying to know about my interesting life.

edit: hmm, i guess that album cover is too vulgar for xanga.... too bad!

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 01:07:15 GMT

wow… this is the first time i’ve been sincerely bored in SO long! its totally weird and i don’t really like it! i kinda feel like i’m wasting my life or something because i’m not doing anything productive. i guess i’ll use this time to make a post because i should have a lot to write about. i’ll start with last weekend: on friday night i went to an interpretive dance party. it was… interesting to say the least! i wasn’t with the group of people i usually hang out with so i was completely out of my comfort zone or whatever but i still managed to have a really awesome night! i could elaborate on the night’s events but i don’t think that would be a very good idea... on saturday morning i had to get up and go to orientation at mac g, my new place of employment. i’ve been going through some very intensive training since then which explains my lack of boredom. (plus i had two whole papers due last week! wtf?!) anyways after i complete a few more menu quizzes and do an amazing job waiting on my managers on wednesday afternoon i will officially be certified as a REAL LIVE waiter! wooohoooo!! i’m gonna be making some serious dinero. let’s see what else is there… oh yes, prom. it was good. could have been better, could have been worse. i just don’t really feel like typing any more! this is probably the worst xanga entry of my life… and i DONT care

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 00:05:20 GMT

oh man.. with the announcement of the officer line for the 2005-2006 highsteppers i find that not only is my year over, but the new year has already started. i seems like just yesterday i went for my very first fitting for highsteppers... i'm having a really hard time with this! i can't believe its really over. the last two years of my life pretty much revolved around highsteppers and now its just over! haha it's like breaking up with a boy or something... i feel like an idiot but THIS IS REALLY HARD! i keep trying to find ways to stay involved with it but i just cant... gotta move on! i think i'm doin alright and then something happens like for example PAIGE LAWLER left me a comment saying "sara i miss you already! highsteppers isn't the same without all of you guys." and i just want to cry.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 05:46:29 GMT

okay so i tried to write up a really good post but i just CANT do it right now... everything is cool, i'm just emotionally drained what with finding a prom dress, deciding who i want to go with, graduation, missing highsteppers a LOT, searching for a job, not having any money because i dont work, fighting with my mom, my friends thinking i'm ditching them, worrying about college (which is FOUR MONTHS away), and AHH! but its cool... EVERYTHiNG iS COOL. got a dress, got a date, got a job, my mom loves me, my friends are great... and now it's just up to me to try to have a GOOD ATTiTUDE about everything! no big deal, i got this...

Monday, April 04, 2005

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 23:04:35 GMT

i hate my life today

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 16:12:43 GMT

to elaborate on my spring break:

padre this year was quite an adventure… actually it was more like an adventure/mystery and i keep finding new clues! i know i was down there for 3 nights and 4 days… and that i had a lot of fun and i did a lot of illegal things, but it all pretty much runs together… everyone should know what i mean. today in history class, for example, i was having a conversation with this boy that i called yesterday to find out when our next test is. i just told him i had been out of town and that i needed to get the notes from him, nothing too detailed. so today i get to class and he’s like “sooo how was your trip… did you have fun in padre?! …what all did you guys do?!” and i was just like… “umm… yeah… it was fun… have you ever been there?” i was trying not to reveal tooo much because i’m trying to keep up my innocent-high-school-girl-that-is-concurrently-enrolled-at-tcc image, right? and i totally hadn’t said anything about going to padre to him on the phone. well, surprise! it turns out i definitely hung out with him the first night i was down in padre and i just have absolutely no memory of it! no big fucking deal, just ANOTHER clue… this is getting out of control!

weatherford/fort worth was cool… got a new TATTOO which is apparently totally hott. YES! i love love love it... not everyone gets to see it, but maybe if you’re cool i’ll show you part of it. and then… perhaps the highlight of my trip: i definitely got 5 new “going out” shirts for $80 at forever 21, my new favorite store! while in weatherford we celebrated the spring BLAZE a little more with some of natalia’s cool friends and i met a new friend named zac who is also totally cool!

then, because of my love for spontaneity, i let nat convince me to cancel my flight home on wednesday evening as well as the party of the year that was scheduled to go down that night at my house and i went with her and jess on a surprise stillwater visit instead. i was really excited and really nervous for various reasons. that trip ended up lasting three nights, which was cool. it was awesome for the first two nights! but the last night pretty much sucked as a result of various people and/or chemicals. and because sometimes people just like to call me out for being a teenager which is no big deal because i totally am a teenager. however, i would just like to point out that BESiDES the fact that i AM 18 and a “legal adult” and can do whatever the fuck i want, i have a crazy Cajun friend who can kill you. and i do mean kill. so in closing, i would just like to advise everyone to watch themselves. and i totally mean that in the sweetest way possible!

peace out

Friday, March 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 21:48:50 GMT

SPRiNG BREAK iS THE GREATEST THiNG EVER CREATED!

that's all i can really say i think...