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| Cool summer rains and moon lit daysi think i might name a song that. so i just go the 4th season of scrubs on dvd hell yea. im about to go eat with Kriste and than go bowling at like ten something. anyways im sure no one reads this i could say anything i want to. i just dont have much to say you know. although it is a good thing i can go back and read what i typed cause i forget sometimes and get lost. yea i get lost in my own brain ill be walking and be like dude where am i lol. and yea cant wait for school but im out so ill see you later | | |
| It would have been so very easy...to live up to that promise about kicking his ass but you begged me not to. now since for some reason (must be a curse) i couldnt do something you didnt want me to cause well i still care. dont know why i do dont think i should. but i have that curse where i care about everyone and you just happen to be one of the people i care for alot. o and yea i did like you "so much" too and we all see how that one worked. so should i worn him? you know what just tell him if he ever hurts you and any way (physical, mental, emotional, like doing what you did to me) i will find him and lets just say he wont be the same. i am always here for you even though you a far to far to see that... | | |
| The last i love youso tonight was hella stressful for me! i went and saw the guy that Andrea cheated on me with. o by the way new rule if your going to cheat on someone atleast find someone hotter than the person your going out with. come on thats just stupid i think that hurts me the worse, you cheated on me with a lower class of person. i mean damn what the fuck are you stupid? now i see why it was so hard for you to graduate i mean damn. idk what your problem is and you keep saying that you cared about me. but come on if that were true at one point in time you would have atleast had the respect to just say no. shit i had Kasey sleeping in my bed the love of my life (o yea when we were going out i did tell Kasey i loved her and she did say it to me) and i still didnt do anything. not because i would have been lowering myself cause trust me i wouldnt have, but because even though i did not love you at that point in time i had enough respect not to do anything. so at the end of the day your not a lose to me your just a pawn. yes the lose of deserves morning and it hurts me, its not the worse lose i could have had. so in the darkest parts of my soul where there is no light emarged a beam long enough to be the last thing i ever give to you. he is lucky that i am the way i am any earlier and i would have killed him. if you were really worried about someone getting hurt why did you do that. no the worse part is that you dont care that i still stay awake crying over you. i love you the mostest we both know the facts now. | | |
| Nights like last nightMy night was simple amazing, i went over to one of my good friends house and we just chilled in her room. well we put on forest gump and watched most of it (we both feel asleep). she makes the perfect teddy bear, and i stayed there till about 4 just sleeping and cuddling next to her. than when i finaly snuck out of the house in the wee hours of the morn. i was met by the most perfect of nights, it was the summer night that you wish to see in kansas. was warm and cool at the sametime, it was one of those nights where everything was quite, and it seemed like you were the only one in the world, there where no cares, it was that true meaning of blissful, beautiful, and magical. it was easily one of the best nights in my life, and i dont have to worry about the pain and heart break that people love to put me though. so tonight is still up in the air i know what i wanna do but ill keep that on the dl. im going to eat with afshan here in a few and than im going to hang with my love kasey. so all and all i think today will be a great day, it sure started that way atleast! | | |
| I forgot...just how good i was at this whole little game of being single. lol so i work about 48 hrs a week and sutherlands as of tomorrow pretty much fired me. im just chillin other than that i have more time now so i can think of a couple of things that need to be done... lol | | |
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