Definitely, Maybe

          I just went out with my girlfriends and watched a chick flick. It was a great movie --- the type that you’ll watch again when you feel depressed and hopeless WITH love. We had lunch and started the usual girl talk. Over ice cream, they started to talk about their “story”. How she met him and how he met her, how it just happened and how they fell in love and all that… Then it was my turn to tell the story. I’m not the typical person who opens up my story. If you know me at all, you’d know that I’d rather not talk about my last relationship. So there we were, them waiting for a story and me trying to find a way to dodge off telling it…

          In all these, I know that I’ll have my story one day. A perfect story like no other. How we met, how we were just friends and how it just led to a love that’s so unexplainable… The type where we just have to live with each other and wake up next to each other every morning for the rest of our lives. But right now, it’s a story that’s waiting to happen. I know I’ll have that chance. But not just yet…

AN EMAIL TO A FRIEND

Hi ____!

Thanks for sharing that… I’m praying for you. Be assured that you are not alone and that relationships like these have to occur for us to choose to lean on God more.. Sigh.

I just wanna share what the YA pastor shared last night sa service. The topic is about Sex and the Scriptures. Medjo timely sya sakin in away kasi I've been longing for a "husband" to be to come along and medjo I'm sick of waiting and sick of being the odd man out with out someone (gets?) Anyway he shared that we should stick to the "PLAN"

PLAN - If you stay pure and you stay patient, you will be blessed.

That's a good plan! but what the enemy wants us to do is

- to lower our standards and soften our convictions.

We all have convictions as who and what should we qualify for a husband to-be. and sometimes when we are caught off guard we lower or bend our standards and convictions. But that's exactly what the enemy wants... because we end up settling for what is right in front of us. and who is here right now...

I'm not sure why I'm sharing this pero I'm believing na nagungusap sya sayo in anyway.. so ayun..

I guess that preaching helped me be "born-again" in the area of waiting.. kasi I realized that the enemy is trying to rob our hope... By robbing our hope we slowly give in to the right-here, right-now kinda thing and also bend our standards... so medjo I am in my walk with God na its ok for me to wait :) kasi even though before I know na its good to wait, I haven’t really grasped how it works...

Now that's out..Ako, I’ve been great for the past couple of weeks. I am fasting right now for 21 days for God’s fresh vision and mission for me this 2008. Medjo late nga dahil usually I do it before the year ends.

Alam mo yung feeling na I don’t belong here yet when I look back and ‘see’ myself in the Philippine setting parang I’m not part of it anymore? That’s what I feel right now. Althou I’m not from here, I feel that if I think of myself na nanjan, na I don’t have a place there anymore.. so ayun.. I wanna, ika nga, play it by ear. I want to know what God wants me to do before I do it.

Keep me in your prayers. Include my dad as well.

please update me how things are with you..

miss na kita _____!

love u

erene

VA Chapter Continued…

I’m back in Virginia Beach.

The reason why I haven’t blogged since I got back is…  because I haven’t really organized my thoughts yet.

But I feel the need to post something just because it’s New Year’s Eve

Top things that happened to me this year

·          “The words that were spoken will come to pass this 2007"

·          Fulfillment of ‘upgrade and promotion’

·          God making the impossible, possible

·          Family through sickness and in health, through richness and in poorer…

·          Making the rough places smooth, Highway in the wilderness

·          ‘Leave your country and your people and your father’s house…’

·          Salvation!

This year was all about opening doors and setting the stage.

2008 brings fullness and bountifulness. The fulfillment of what God promised and the continuation of what He did this year. As He said, it is a critical season. It is. It will be more so. But guess what?

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever…

Hot off… Visa Processing on going

 
I’m gonna have an L1/L2 visa . At first I didn't know if I should be happy or not.
But it seems like everything is falling into place. I am an OFW anyway.
Outstanding Filipino Witness :) 

Letter

Edited version of my email to a friend:

I haven’t heard from you in awhile.

I've been busy myself lately. To start off, my dad got hospitalized and as I am writing this, I am currently here looking after him. Its Saturday night here and he'll be discharged on Monday. We've been here for almost 3 weeks now.

It started off as what we thought as Tuberculosis. He got hospitalized bec of that plus he lost his appetite and he had flu almost every other day. So we ended up bringing him in...

He has this wound in his big toe for almost 5 years now. Time and time again, we have asked him to let a doctor see it but he was hard headed. when he was confined my sister whispered to the doctor about his big toe wound... which ended up in a biopsy test. We later found out that he has nodes on his leg as well.

The result of the test was melanoma. A very aggressive cancer. It caught us by surprise. I wasn’t that worried knowing that God can heal him and if He's not gonna heal him, I still believe He is able. Its stage 3 Skin Cancer.

The hard part was the responsibility that comes with having a dad in the hospital with no mom around. My aunt and cousins helped us on that part. I was the eldest and my sister and brother is in the same position as I am -- working. Another problem that arose was when my aunts and uncle would rather not let my dad know about his situation. Of course, being the eldest, I have to be firm and chose to talk to my dad about it. I believe that God used this disease as a wake up call to him. Dad doesn’t practice any religion since I was little and doesn’t have any faith "practice"... This sickness allowed me to get closer to my dad like never before and also have him see and know who God really is in his life. I get to pray with him almost everyday. and now, now, he have Christ in his heart. He accepted Christ!

Time and time again, I see how God moves in situation and things that looks like impossible to man, but is for the glory of God.

I believe that dad's condition is nothing compared to what happened to him because of it.

As I write you this letter, it started as just an update stuff but I'll be posting this on my blog because I believe that everyone should know what God has done and is doing not just to me but also to my family.

I miss you and I can’t wait to see you! (Sooner than you expect!)

oh yeah, how are you? hehe

Love.

Erene

In all of these, God is in control.