| i finally realized today that i am afraid of change...i dont want things to changed from the way it is...but i know things are going to change nomatter what.. |
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| OVER THE PAST WEEK I BEEN KEEPING MY DISTANCE FROM EVERYONE I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE TILL THE BF BROUGHT IT TO MY ATTENTION. I WAS KINDA STRESSED OFF OF SKEWL & EVERYTHING I DONT KNOW WHAT IM GONNA DO NEXT YEAR.. ITS SO HARD TO DECIDED I DONT WANT ANYTHING TO CHANGE ..I LIKE THINGS THE WAY THEY ARE NOW ...EVERYTHING IS REALLY GOOD FOR ME. THIS YEAR I BEEN BLESSED WITH MANY THINGS..IM CLOSER TO MY FAMILY , GOT OVER A STUPID REALTIONSHIP/ MISTAKE AND MOST OF ALL GOT TO KNOW MY BESTFRIEND A LIL BIT MORE ..IN CASE YOU DONT KNOW ITS MY BF.. WE BEEN TOGETHER FOR ALMOST 7 MONTHS NOW AND I HAVE TO ADMIT I AM REALLY HAPPY. HE MAY NOT BE THE BEST PERSON IN THE WORLD BUT HE GOT A GOOD HEAD ON HIS SHOLDER AND HE KNOWS WHERE HE WANTS TO GET IN LIFE AND UNLIKE MOST PEOPLE HES GOING FOR IT. I NEVER REALIZED IT TILL NOW BUT ALL THOSE RELATIONSHIPS I HAD IN THE PAST WAS GOOD BUT I KNEW SOMEHOW IT WASSNT WHAT I WANT. IT WAS WHAT I WANT AT THE MOMENT BUT THINGS CHANGE.NOW I WANT SOMEONE WHO I CAN SPEND MY LIFE WITH SOMEONE WHO CAN MAKE SOMETHING OF THEMSELVES AND CAN TAKE CARE OF ME.I LOVE THE WAY MY LIFE IS GOING NOW IM CURRENTLY LOOKING FOR A NEW JOB AND JUST WAITING FOR THE BIG MOVE AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHATS HAPPENING NEXT.OVER ALL I THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING THAT HES DONE FOR ME THIS YEAR AND IM SO GREATFUL FOR EVERYTHING. I HOPE THINGS WILL GET SO MUCH BETTER.
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| I Don't wanna see your face
I Don't wanna hear your name
I don't want a thing just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what your doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say
You'll just stay in touch maybe
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin'
Good bye , Good bye
[Chorus:]
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be as it was before
Don't think that i care
I'm not over you yet
and i don't wanna be your friend
I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget i ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby..
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
Coz' all i wanna do is be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care
About me..just go now , go now
[Chorus:]
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be as it was before
Don't think that i care
I'm not over you yet
and i don't wanna be your friend
[Bridge:]
You take it too casually..
But baby it's killing me...yeah...
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be as it was before
No Baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I'm not over you yet..
And i don't wanna be your friend
Don't call me ..Don't come around
I don't wanna be your friend
..was just bored...
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| and I'm not jealous, no I'm not
Ooh, ooh, I just want everything she's got
Ooh, ooh, you look at her so amazed
I remember way back when you used to look at me that way
What makes her so much better than me (so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me
That made you smile (me)
That made you laugh (me)
Me that made you happier than you have ever been, oh me
That was your world (me)
Your perfect girl
Nothing about me has changed
That's why I'm here wondering
What makes her so much better than me (what makes her so much better than me)
What makes her just everything that I can never be
What makes her your every dream and fantasy
Because I can remember when it was me
stuck on that song right now....
sometimes i wish i could go back and find out the real reason why it had to end but its too late now i guess..all dats left to do is move on and forget.
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| well...as it goes...i guess im going to san jo.skewls gonna good i hope it is lol...i havent been online for a while been busy with getting skewl ready for next fall and work and shit...needa find an apartment and everything parents say they gonna pay for rent and shit so yea...things with the bf is still great..everything is really good..been hella busy and stuff been spending hella money and stuff....dam i cant believe high skewl is about to be over..everythings changing so fast i feel like im going crazy trying to keep up with it but its ok i guess everything is set up already..oh well loving life and getting it right this time.
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