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Monday, July 14, 2008

거짓말로 진실을 감추기

거울을 바라보는것보다 창문을 바라보기
상처 주는 사람보다 상처 받은 사람이 되기
버림받은 영웅보다 사랑받는 악당되기
내 자신을 이해못하는 것보단 세상이 나를 이해못한다고 우기기
내 단점을 고치기보단 잘난척하기
남들 욕하는 것보다 사람들을 다 안다고 주장하기
내 잘못 인정하기보다 인연을 끊기
조용하기보단 큰소리 뻥치기
마음 아플정도로 솔직하기보단 거짓말로 진실을 감추기



Tuesday, June 17, 2008

마이 패이스로 갈랜다


Wednesday, May 07, 2008

What am I going to do?! What is GOD up to?!!

I catch myself often asking that question. It's not much of a question but more of a cry of frustration. I lay out a plan and things go haywire. In the midst of all the chaos I lay out another plan and BOOM! I watch it explode and crumple up into a nice pile of useless crap. I make a commitment and I see myself looking the other way when I say "just this one time". Failed plans, broken commitments and promises, shattered hopes, all piling up. Emo? Maybe. True? Very much so. I may not be the most optimistic person but you won't see me listening to My Chemical Romance and hating everything about the world. (Totally cracked myself up because I thought about flashback Harold in Harold and Kumar 2 lol).

Just what do you do when everything is not set out ahead for you? When every time you plan ahead you just realize it won't work? When it feels like you really just have to live your life day by day hoping that you are going the right direction?

God does not give you a challenge that you cannot handle. I know that, I believe that. I'm just saying COME ON! It won't hurt to fill me in a little bit. It just seems that I'm literally trying to walk by faith and not by sight because there is nothing to see!!!!

I mean in the end I'll look back and say it was all worth it, but until I get there I'm just continuously going to be scared and whether I like to admit it or not I will worry, maybe an insignificant amount, but it will always be there.





but knowing that I will have a time to look back, I also know the hardest test is yet to come and then I don't think this situation is that bad


Tuesday, November 06, 2007

To the guy who I met today...

"Nothing in all the world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." - Martin Luther King Jr.

So today I was helping out with the AIDS Experience Tent that was going on campus. Basically it's a tent that lets you go through a walkthrough exhibit through a life of a child in Africa who is effected by AIDS in some way. So there I was standing in the middle of ring road handing out flyers and telling people to check the tent out. Then I passed by one guy. So I put a smile on and asked him if he wants to check out the AIDS tent. And this is where it all began:

Guy: "Why should I? I already know AIDS exsist."

Me: "Well you can learn more about it and how it affects the world"

Guy: "I know AIDS exsist and it's horrible what else do I need to know?"

Me: "You can get to see what's going on and maybe find out a way to help out"

Guy: "Well why should I help out?"

Me: ",,,you know because you're not the only one living in the world and if there's something you can do about it to help someone who needs it why wouldn't you?"

Guy: "Yea well why should I help?"

Me: "Well I don't see why I, a complete stranger to you, have to give YOU a reason to help out it should be coming from your own heart. That's why I'm offering a chance to check it out and find out more."

Guy: "You know I gonna go but I'm gonna leave you with the fact that you still haven't given me a reason to help out."

AHHHH!!!! I seriously thought of going up to the guy and punching him in the face and kick him in the balls. If only I could get away with it. I don't know maybe I didn't give him a good reason but I gave him a reason why I'm not going to give him a reason. It's not like I'm forcing the guy to go through the tent I'm OFFERING, which he can kindly decline if he doesn't want to go. Honestly he can't expect to lazily sit on his ass and expect people to rile him up to go help out the world. People should help out because they can and God intended us to help each other through the world but if he wants a personal reason I can't give him that! and I shouldn't either. I mean if he was trying to prove that he was smarter than me, 1) LIKE I CARE! if a random guy is smarter than me! I'm thinking more than half the school is smarter than me and I'm living my life fine 2)what's the point? does he get money? recognition? praise? I don't know what that guy was trying to prove but he sure showed some sincere ignorance.


Friday, October 26, 2007

Stupid is as Stupid does

So recently I noticed a lot of people are starting this whole who's the superior gender or who is the more stupid gender argument. I blame this on people's personal struggles with the opposite gender whether it involves romance (which often does) or not. While I usually stand up immediately to claim that girls are far more superior and that guys are just stupid and set themselves up, I have to admit girls have defintiely some not-so-smart moments and I'm not afraid that I have definitely set myself up to stupid situations. I would admit that out of bitterness I would occasionaly turn to blaming half the world for my problems...it just seems to help ease the humiliation and pain.

Maybe it's because I'm too stressed out with school and other stuff that I can't get myself to exactly care about whether or not girls are stupid or guys are stupid. Also a really small article in Glamour (yes Glamour the magazine...guys you can stop rolling your eyes) talked about how bashing the opposite sex just feeds an us-versus-them mentality and do we really need that kind of mentality? I mean fortunately or not God has given this world to share among men and women...so.... I don't think it's right to go starting some kind of battle with the people you have to share the world with. It could be just a joke when you argue but you know sooner or later you're going to start agreeing or believing what you keep saying...or at least I do. So I am determined to stop this ridiculous argument...actually not really. Just going to write down my own thoughts on this thing. Girls are not stupid and guys are not stupid either. Stupid people are stupid.

So right after I say that some dude or chick is gonna say yea and "girls/guys are the stupid people". NO. lol. Stupid people are the people who blame half the world because they aren't smart enough to figure out their own little girl/guy problem. I truly believe that no one is the same and no people experience the exact same thing, there are commonalities but definitely not identical. So because you're frustrated that you can't figure out your feelings or thoughts doesn't mean that half the world is against you.

Guys seem to find ways to keep things less complicated, you know, easy for the mind and girls find ways to pay attention to the details that put and keep things together. In my opinion that's a pretty good combo. So let's hope that stupid people won't stay stupid but learn and grow from their experiences.



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