If I could..

i'd say these things to the people i need to say them to..

(found on saissei's blog.. which she stole from alex.. xPP)

1. List twelve things you wish you could say to people but can't.

2. Don't say who they are.

3. Never discuss it again.

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1. you said you'd be there but when the smallest of all problems came, you acted like i wasn't there.. so how could you say i'm your friend.. when you can just go like that.. and come back to me, but only when you need something..

2. i should've taken the shot when i had the ball, guess i'm too late cause someone stole it already..

3. i try my best to avoid you but like a boomarang you just keep coming back.. what's up with that?

4. i'm sorry

5. you don't know how to pick your fruit.. seriously you always get the ones that are past ripe and you can't tell.. then one day they end up rotting and then there you are.. fruitless

6. thanks..

7. i wonder how that would've went... you probably wouldn't be so hurt..

8. you don't know do you..

9. i'd like to know what you think of me...

10. it hurts to see you go around all day acting happy when you're really not.. i'm sorry i can't help..

11. we should chill more often.. that'd be nice

12. i love you

well things haven't been the best.. i've missed out on alot.. and i wish i could just turn back the hands of time and re-do some stuff.. but you know.. we all know how that goes.. there's more things that i'd like to say to people but i don't wanna pour my feelings out.. cause then i'd be thinking of stuff and we all know what that leads to..

hope ya'll had a wonderful thanksgiving..

`Gin

O_O

well school is turning out for the better.. maybe just a few more weeks and i'll finally be okay with my schedule and the way things go.. they said they're starting to level my english and biology classes so that might work out pretty good for me.. i like have this plan..

so here's my current schedule right now:

00  US Govt H   O'Keefe
01  Inter. Guitar  Bryan
02  Physics         Bean
03  Mod. Lit.      Armellino
04  Jap II           Mata
05  Bio II AP     Ward
06  Precalc         Quigley
07  Precalc         Quigley
08  Robotics       Sanders

okay.. so they're leveling the classes underlined.. that's what i heard. haha. so like my plan is to like switch stuff around to where i like them because it could be in favor of the people they level.. so like.. i heard that they were opening up a Bio II AP 3rd per. so if that happens i could do some thing like...

00  US Govt H   O'Keefe
01  Jap II           Mata
02  Physics         Bean
03  Bio II AP     Ward
04  ????????????????????
05  Mod. Lit.     Armellino
06  Precalc         Quigley
07  Precalc         Quigley
08  Robotics       Sanders

yea.. i was planning to drop guitar because i don't like the teacher.. for the most part she really really sucks.. the only reason why i really got into it was because i thought aultz was teaching.. anyways.. then i could have jap II with all the people i used to have it with.. instead of being in a class where i know absolutely no one..
as for Bio II.. i wanted to switch it w/english because i dono anyone in that english class.. they're all super dumb and retarded.. with a few exceptions.. but still not enough..

the only thing missing is a 4th per elective to replace where jap once was.. i could take student aide for some class but then they might give me a class i don't want or a teacher i don't wanna aide for.. and i don't have any in mind so that won't work out.. haha..

if you guys have any ideas let me know because if i find one i might go with my plan.. buwahahahah.. and if not i'll just change the classes i can change.. cause i really do not want to have guitar anymore... even if it is my fave hobby.. the teacher just isn't worth it.. and we can't rock out the whole period like we used to.. =\.. so whatever

lemme know what you think...

^_^

i'm glad to know that i still have people to turn to when things start to get too rough for me.. i may not seem like the type to need help but there's things that i just can't handle inside and i'm glad to know that when those times come around there's always someone there to walk me through...

i'm also happy that key club is there when i just need people to hang out with an be around.. and just have a good time.. since people haven't thought about inviting me to things.. it's good to know that there's always a place that i know for sure my friends will be... and key club is that place..

it still sucks that i don't have classes with the people who made my life better.. all my closest friends.. i wish they were there.. in the desk right across from me or in front of me.. or behind me.. i wish they were there for me to bug or to bug me.. i just wish they were there.. but it's okay.. because i know when i need them the most they'll show up.. cause that's what they always do.. and they rock for that.. even so..

i miss my best friends

senior year?

somehow i just don't think this year is gonna work out.. i always do my best to think positive and be like "oh i'll get used to it".. but everytime i think about it i just realize how much i'm missing out on.. the people i worked so hard to keep in my life just disappear because of some stupid schedule mistakes.. i wonder what's going on in their lives and if any of them miss having me as a part of it..

.. it's like i'm moving in the direction i always helped other people steer clear of.. and now that no one is there for me.. i can't even help myself turn the wheel.. wdhell is up with this year..

until i can drive.. i don't think i'll be spending time with the people i want to spend time with the most.. i just know somehow things will work out but until then.. i just need something/someone to keep reminding me of that..

i miss my best friends..

i'm sick

i haven't been feeling well the past few days cause i've been sick, maybe it's that time of year.. i mean i haven't gotten sick all year, so yea..

feels like the days are going by slower, my classes are the definition of boring and since i'm trying to get good grades it sees like the homework is just piling up, since i'm actually doing them all..

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can't wait til key club..