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Name: Cherry
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 6/9/1980
Gender: Female
Occupation: Student
Industry: Banking/Finance
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Member Since:
11/29/2003
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| this is my beautiful letdown ..
I’m free!!! I never knew how invigorating it is to feel free! Free from a lot of different things… especially things like boys!!! Well see there is this one boy in mind who had been lingering in my head for over a year now, and for some reason, I couldn’t get him out of my head! He was driving me crazy. Then I heard all of these rumors about him like he was getting married and all of this, and I totally broke down. But now that I think about it, for why? Because he was getting married or because he was over me? Whatever it was it makes me feel dumb!!! I know that he is over me and I am glad that he is because if he wasn’t he would be having a miserable time wherever he is. I do have to admit that he was over me before I was over him. I guess that is hardest thing to admit but there I said it! Well anyway, now I think it’s great! I think that life is so much better this way. Well anyway the reason why I am writing this is because yesterday I saw a picture of the girl who is supposedly his friend but seems like something more. And you know what I felt? NOTHING!! I felt no sadness, no hurt, no pain, no regret, no what ifs, no buts, I didn’t even flinch! I just smiled and said to myself “thank you Lord for knowing what was to come before I made a terrible mistake.” What a beautiful letdown. God knew that there was something better for me so he let me get hurt for a while, and now that I can seriously see clearly what would have become of this boy, and me, all I can do is thank God.
Imagine if we were married? I would be so miserable. I would be regretting my life and my decisions and I would be living a life of unhappiness and regret! Man!!! Thank you Lord!!!
As soon as I found out how I felt I massaged feena and it went something like this...
guess what? i just saw the pics of the girl that dino is like i guess "friends" with in italy. well she is on there you can't really see her face but she has really nice corn rows! it looks really nice!! anyway her name is martina and he even left her a testimonial! check it out! she is on friendster! man you know what i thank God so much for that picture and for her! i really never knew how over him i am until i saw that pics. i thought for a while that i was falling into that pit again, but when i saw it, it didn't do anything to me! i was really glad! and now more than ever i know and i know and i know (LOL) that God has someone out there so much better, nicer, better looking, kinder, more loving, and completely and totally inlove and devoted to God and me (one day)! praise God that through this i can grasp his complete promise!!!
love you cousin.
take care and write back if you can! =)
then feena responded with something like this…
oh wow! her hair iS cool! well i guess thats nice that he found a frend there, CUZ HE`LL NEED THEM WEN EVERY1 HERE DESPiSES HiM WEN HE COMES BAK!!! lol jk!!!! but yea, im glad that ur really hearin God talk 2 u bout how proud He is of u for gettin over dino. honestly i think that he probly woulda never helped u much with the ministry ur lookin into. u`d probly be just like one of those typical navy wives that mope & sit around the house waiting 4 their navy husband 2 be home w. them agen. HA! SKREW DAT KRAP! hahahahha! God most definitely has some1 else out there 4 ya that is not only CUTER [[ haha, sorry! =P > but that will support or even join u in the field of ministry u wanna be part of. remember what u texted me wen i told u how super sad i was was about how ___________ were gettin serious?
u sed `dnt wry! trust dat God has sum1 being prepard 4 u rite now! N dat he wil surpass all da kwalities dat __ [[ or in ur case- DiNO > has n dat u cn evr hope 4. God s not da God of second bests. N f u jst remain faithful 2 Him, he will fulfil al of ur <3's desires!`
so now i throw that encouragement bak atcha, cuz i kno that that helped me in gettin over him! hehe. =D nehow, keep ya head up [[ 2 Him >.. im proud of ur progress! x) be safe & i`ll see ya on friday! God bless!
-feena =)
isn’t she great??? well gotta end it here until the next time…
with a heart that beats for Christ,
cherry kristie | | |
| Oh my goodness it’s been the longest since I have written in here! Well anyways here I go. I will just start with last weekend. It was great!!! I really had a good time at Sonlife training. I felt like I really got a clear perspective on what a healthy youth should be and looks like. I really enjoyed my time there with other youth leaders who were just volunteers. It really just made me realize that the youth ministry is filled with people with passion even though they aren’t being paid for it. And I think that is what I praise God about the most, I praise God because even though I am not getting paid for this position he still provides for me so that I can serve him through the youth. I really do love my kids! They are good people. And I really thank God for letting me love him through loving the youth. it’s an easy job loving them and also I get to love God too! it’s like killing 2 birds with one stone. I was also really blessed to take part in the registrations this weekend. Even though it was tough, it was still a great experience for me to be part of it. I know Jay had a lot more to do than I did! And thank God I didn’t have to do what he did because I would have messed things up greatly! Anyway, thanks Jay!!! For not letting me skrew up! The training was great! it was lead by Kent Julian who is our national youth guy! He is a really nice, down to earth, kind, funny and very real person. He was so transparent and so animated that it made the training not so much like a training but more like a LIFE session. It was great. I was really excited to take home everything I learned and implement them in our youth. I was so excited to tell them all the cool things that I learned, and to tell them how cool Kent was and all of that. But I didn’t get a chance to.
Anyway on Sunday was something totally different. We had interchurch. Usually it’s on Saturdays. But our speaker was none other than Kent again. No I didn’t get tired of him. he was really great! and what he spoke about really gave me a whole new perspective, and view about the challenges and trial I go through in my life! wow Lord, you make everything beautiful! Even ugly ol’ me! Well the talk that Kent had prepared was so appropriate for that day because for some reason, my youth decided to do something really hurtful . Not the whole youth but most of them. well I really felt God speaking to me that night and telling me “don’t worry Cherry I will make something beautiful out of this situation, you just have to be patient and see.” So I am trusting the Lord that he is going to make something great out of all of this.
On Monday I had the day off! Thank God because I really needed it! I was soo ooooo oooo pooped from the weekend and from the trial that I faced the night before that I just knocked out! But I woke up around 11 am. So I got ready and I headed out to spend some quiet time with God.
After that at about 5pm the core team which is Jay, Orvic, Bing, and myself took Kent out to dinner. Lori (ohana) came with us too!! awww I missed her! We ate Filipino food at Goldie Locks. It was good. We got him try dinugoan! It was great! then after that we headed over to masters and we had a meeting, well more like a questions and answers with Kent. That in itself was fun too! I really got some good advise from him and it gave us a chance to see what his youth ministries were like. I saw that he has a lot of integrity and he is a good leader! God you made a good choice in him.
Well that is all for now I guess until the next entry. But I am not sure when that is going to be but until then, late.
In Christ,
Cherry | | |
| my tribute to jericho .. hope this works
My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true
Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define
A crush combined with longing?
Longing to possess you oh so dearly
I'm obsessed by you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
Let me say the things and say the words
To let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
Than lose you
Or for love to fade
Before it can come true | | |
| hello everyone, i am updating!!! yippeee...
well several things have happened since i last updated... my lola passed away on 03/28/2004 and we had a funeral service for her on 04/01/2004 and we burried her the next day. it was really sad, and my lolo was even crying, but what could he do but just accept what happened. that's what he tells himself all the time to try to cope with everything. the sad part is that he isn't so healthy himself either. i don't know what else to say except that we will miss you greatly, see you in heaven! 
as far as everything else, lets see... um oh yeah, i am definitely over my broken heartedness. i am over and done with it. i'm tired of crying for something that i can't do anything about and that i have to get away and move on from. thank God! because i thought i was in the pits for a while! but getting back with this person is the farthest thing from my mind right now! actually it's not even on my mind right now! he doesn't have anything that i could really want in a person anyway, except maybe his navy discounts, but would i really marry someone for their Navy discount? hmmmm nah! it's tempting but... no!!!  maybe if he had discounts in flying and traveling, maybe.. but no! LOL. the first cut is the deepest but when you realize what it was for, and see how dumb it was the cut heals faster! and don't forget to put on a little neosPRAYin while you are at it! (hahaha that's for you cousin).
easter is coming! yipppeee! man i still haven't seen the Passion! oh well i will see it sometime! promise! then i will write about what i thought about it!
okay gotta go! | | |
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