why did i do it?
we're both hurt, but i know he's more devistated then i am. We loved each other so much and i just hand to take us and stomp on it. I know he thinks that i don't care about him, but i always will. He's so important in my live and to me and i just said said bye to it.
he thinks it's his fault, never will it ever be his fault. It was just a relationship getting too big. and honestly i didn't believe in love or long-term relationships until i met him. I don't want to lose him, but i'm afraid i already have. HOw do you keep a guy when you don't want a reltaionship? it's not possible ut i wish it was.
I'm just breaking down right now in life and i've just messed up everything more. I'm becoming an obivious suicidle who's messing up their lifes on purpose.
He means the world to me.
no matter what happens.
He always in my heart.
and i intend to keep it that way
forever and always.
THe only thing i ask for god today, is to make him happy. Happy as ever, and for us to stay as strong as we can be. I have hope and I hope that one day i'll be with him again. just not now. now isn't the time.
I'm as sorry as ever for what i've done to him. And now i'll have to deal with the why!. rosa!. what did you do!?!. you've made him so sad. you two were perfect together. what went wrong. and no kidding people, oviously i've realized what i've done and i still care oodles about him, how couldn't i? he was mr. right and he does everything i ever ask. He did more then i could ask. He's the sweetest guy you'll ever meet.
and i let it all go ........ | 
