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Saturday, March 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 12:16:29 GMT

I'm terribly sorry for my laziness.
I've been insanely busy. School, stupid people.
I'm just trying to take some time to get everything together.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 01:44:35 GMT

i'm zanne and i have about a million nicknames.
15 years young and my cell's always dead.
roller coaster fanatic.
obsessed with music and chuck taylors.
if i'm nervous, you will not get be able to shut me up.
desperately want to be skinny.
i love photography and writing.
I've had my heart broken one too many times.
Personal? http://www.xanga.com/zanne__likewoah

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 22:35:14 GMT

CREDIT IS GIVEN AT THE BOTTOM OF THIS POST.
COMMENT AND SUBSCRIBE IF YOU LIKE WHAT YOU SEE.

she wont admit it,
but you're the one who's always on her mind

I'm annoying and hold grudges,
you're paranoid & overprotective;
Let's fall in love

she glances in the mirror and throws her hair up
ripped jeans, an old hoodie -- they're all she needs.
she runs out the door, five minutes before class starts
and arrives just as the bell rings, cheeks ~~flushed~~
she doesn't try that hard at school
and she plays sports because she likes to run.
her rooms a mess and her cell phone's always dead,
but she just smiles ; she knows the world is hers
she has her enemies, she's made mistakes
and she knows it. but she doesn't care.
she's happy with who she is and who she has--
because that's all she needs.

WHAT DOESN'T KILL ME,
WILL ONLY MAKE ME STRONGER.
THINK YOU'RE HURTING ME?
YOU'RE JUST MAKING ME LAST LONGER.

the most beautiful smile.
is the one that struggles through all the tears.

she smiles like everyone expects her to:;
she's living up to the expectation of
never letting anything get to her.
but something's wrong with that smile today.
congratulations, kid. you got to her.

you know that girl who`s always lost.
the one with the pretty smile no one can tell is fake?
that girl who seems to be so strong,
but daily continues to break?
you know..that girl who`s always there,
& seems to have no problems of her own?
the one who holds back the tears,
until you`re off the phone?
that girl that`s in love with a guy who tries to understand.
that girl who if you reach out,
always pulls back her hand?
well what a lonely life,
what a sad girl she must be.
maybe you didn`t realize it,
but that girl is me.

I'm not asking for ~~forever~~
I'm just asking for a chance.

Just a little advice,
don't play games with a girl
that can play them better

and they'll find out why we don't trust them <33

speak up dear;; because i can't hear you.

it's times like these when silence means everything. xx

have you practiced this before?
because it seems like you have.
you have such a way,
of breaking a girl's heart

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It's like no matter what you did, it wasn't enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn't seem to work. And you're suddenly left thinking that you'll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves. - Joanne Golden

dont get me wrong.. i would love
to have the comfort of having you by my
side again.. but i sure know i never wanna feel
what i did when you broke my heart.

YOU LEFT A HOLE WHERE MY ~~HEART~~ SHOULD BE.

i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions.

You're cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene
You're monochrome, delerious
You're nothing that you seem
I'm drownin in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease
You're dirty and you're sweet
You know you're everything to me

"we'll be together forever baby"
thats what you said to me
& out of curiousity---
did you say the same thing to her?

i dont care what you think of me
because it can't be half as bad
as what i think of you

those who say love conquers hate
have never had a boyfriend cheat
or a best friend lie
theyve never had reason to hate
only reason to love
[ they're so lucky ]

ive accepted that we cant be
but ive also accepted
that your going to be that one person
i carry with me for the rest of my life
the one that is always going to make my heart jump a little
and my stomach tie up in knots.

if you don't like me,
theres nothing i can do.
but here's a news flash, darling;
i dont live to please you.

MY GOD--IT'S beautiful WHEN THAT BOY smiles.

its funny how the people who
hurt you the most
are the ones who said they never would

people said i've changed so much.
well here's the honest truth - - i grew up.
i stopped letting people push me around.
i learned that you can't always be happy.
i accepted reality

the higher he holds you up,
the harder you will fall.
trust me, you will always fall.

everyone says love hurts. when actually love doesn't hurt.
love didn't leave you for some other girl. it didn't cheat on you,
nor did it break your heart. so stop blaming love for once
& start blaming the asshole that treated you like shit & gave you up.

AND I GUESS tragic endings ARE JUST YOUR KIND OF THING.

my phone lies beside me as i sleep,
just in case you change your mind,
just in case you want to talk.

i knew who i was this morning,
but i've changed a couple of times since then

i'm not the girl you want to talk about
behind her back;;

no, she's not ~~fine~~,
but she's a wonderful actress

He has broken heart syndrome.
Hes in love & its killing him.

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Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 18:51:25 GMT

103 SUBSCRIBERS!

WOW.

thanks so much guys. :]
trying to finish up my credit, i'll post in about an hour or two.

L0VE.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 17:57:41 GMT

valentine's day sucks.
when your boy cheats on you.
and breaks up with you for the one
person in the world that you hate.
the day before valentines.
and you realize that everything he
ever said to you was bs.
especially when he said I LOVE YOU.

we both said it.
"I LOVE YOU."
"I LOVE YOU TOO."
only difference is, i didn't lie.

pic update on the way.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 19:54:35 GMT

Worry about your character,
not your reputation
because your character is
who you are &
your reputation is who
people think you are

&& you put those city lights to shame with those beautiful eyes of yours

I'm good but I'm not an angel.
I do sin but I'm not a devil.
I'm just a small girl in a big world
trying to find somebody to love".
♥Marilyn Monroe

Someone asked me,
Why do you like him so much?
But before I could even reply,
My best friend put her hand
Over my mouth and said,
Don't even get her started

Until i met you,
i never knew it was possible
to smile, for absolutely no reason

YOU PUT THE ~~BROKEN~~ IN BROKEN-HEARTED.

Sometimes you meet someone,
and before you know their name,
before you know where they're from,
you know that sometime in the future,
this person is going to
mean something to you

She says she doesn’t care but
the look in her eyes and the tone
of her voice tells a different story

&& to tell you the truth
you're the last guy I ever thought I'd fall for

i think i like this kid
more than i thought i did

it's sweet talkers like you that make girls
fall in love and fall apart..

& she's the type of girl
who tries not to like you.
but ends up falling for
you even harder.

Wait for the guy who will be your best friend, the person who will drop everything to be with you at any time of the day no matter what, the guy who makes you smile like no other guy can and when he looks at you, you know he needs you, the one who will call you just to hear your voice but most of all wait for the guy who will put you at the center of his universe because obviously he'll be at the center of yours.

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to

Sometimes I swear I can see straight through you

Imperfection is beauty,
madness is genius, and
it's better to be absolutely
ridiculous than absolutely boring.
- Marilyn Monroe

brown eyed boy meets blue eyed girl
oh the sweetest thing

DARLING ;; I ~~LOVE~~ YOU.

some people live for 100 years
& never really live a minute.

Every girl wants Prince Charming and while he may be nice and all, I want a guy who will come up from behind me and put his arms around me and whisper in my ear that he loves me and he lays awake at night just thinking about me, a guy who'll call at like 3am just to tell me how much he misses me. He would come over just after we get off the phone because he wants to know how I'm really doing because I said I was fine and we both know I was lying. He'd kiss me on my forehead and tell me everything's gonna be alright. He may not be Prince Charming to anyone else but he'll fit the part for me.

she's pacing through the corridors
with tears streaming down her face like rain
& if she doesn't get through this
she'll probably go insane

you start shaking at the thought
you are everything i want
cause you are everything i'm not

i'm nowhere near perfect. i eat when i'm bored, i fall for boys easily. i'm vunerable to believing lies. i'm hoping that one day i won't need a fake smile. i live by quotes that explain exactly what i'm going through. i make up excuses for everything. i have best friends and enemies. i have drama and memories. and that's life. live it, love it, learn from it.

Youre the king of mixed signals,
Im the queen of excuses.
Together, were sort of a
Beautiful Disaster

Im so gangsta.
I carry a water gun

Trust me, you're better off anyways. Love sucks.

There are 82 letters in here, and they're all addressed to you. I wrote them all this summer. One a day, but I never sent them 'cause I was afraid.

She says she's right here,
but she seems so distant.

Whoever said "What you don't know can't hurt you" was a complete && total moron.
Cause..for most people I know, not knowing is the worst feeling in the world.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 22:47:56 GMT

NOTE:

NEXT UPDATE WILL COME WHEN I GET SEVEN COMMENTS ON THE LAST PICTURE POST.
I DON'T MEAN TO BE PICKY, BUT I WANT TO MAKE THIS WORTH MY TIME.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 20:50:40 GMT

mk. this is a pictures only post -- i feel to lazy for quotes today.
comments -- let's aim for 7?

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'CAUSE I'VE SEEN LOVE DIE WAY TOO MANY TIMES
WHEN IT DESERVED TO BE ALIVE.
[emergency - paramore]

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 20:32:17 GMT

come on people, this is pathetic.
5 comments until the next post.
i've had 609 page views today and no comments thus far.

i don't mean to seem picky but I'm not going to keep this up if no one likes it. thanks. =)

Sunday, January 21, 2007

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 17:55:28 GMT

decided to make this a quote-only post.
5 comments=picture post, maybe later today?

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i remember when i used to be the
happiest, loudest, spunkiest person alive
nothing could get me down for very long
i smiled all the time and laughed non stop
i still see glimpses of that girl sometimes, but not too much
i miss her, she was a good kid.

she acts like summer
and walks like rain
-Train

she's one of those girls that can
laugh at anything because it's easier
to fake it than actually mean it. she'll tell
you that she's perfectly fine when she's
falling apart inside and she just wants
somebody to reach out and say
"you're not okay"

you aren't born tough
you get that way
when no one is there
to wipe away your tears

i tear my heart open
i sew myself shut
and my weakness is
that i care too much

I saw the heartache coming.

At least this time I wasn't oblivious to everything.
I must be getting better at this,
which is really sad.And she didn't know how much she cared
until she realized that he didn't care at all.

Why did ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you.
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well.she's just a little upset
but she won't vent to anyone
her problems aren't important
and no one's listening anyways
she's crying inside, but hey
she's beautiful, right?

but when i look in the mirror,
i see a girl who's been through so much,
& yet, still finds a way to smile at the past.
she still loves with all her heart,
or what's left of it.
& when you see her walking in the hallway,
i can guarantee you she'll have her head up high
faking a smile just ~~one last time~~.
& for all those people who try to break her,
you never will

This is for the girls who never won.
The girls who sat late at night listening
to music that inspires them to do things
next to impossible.
The girls that laugh, smile and cry on a daily basis.
The girls who live, learn and regret.
The girls who may never have it easy.
The girls who learned the hard way,
and lived to tell about it.
The real girls.

I wanted everything to stay the same
but feelings fade & people change ..

He will do one of two things;
he will admit to everything
or he'll say he's just not the same,
and you'll begin to wonder why you came.

Here's to the kids who's idea of a good time
is sitting on the hood of their car, watching the stars.

Blame it on the weather, but I'm a mess
And this February darkness has me hating everyone
And I know I need your comfort, but this drama makes me sick
And the longer I lay here I know it's harder to get up
without you
[call it karma by silverstein]

life isn't like boy meets world.
you're probably not gonna meet
the person you're going to spend
forever with in middle school.

She`s addicted to the song lyrics
that spill her heart out for her.

And I'm the kinda girl
That will crack a joke
To brighten your day
Even when I can't
Seem to brighten ~~my own~~.

i adore the fact that someone
like you sees something in
someone like me.

December was never this dull before.
i`ll wait for your return, just tell me
you`ll return. just tell me you miss
me, too. you`ve been gone for too long

I'll be the one on the dance floor
the one with ~~tears~~ in her eyes.

you get into the biggest fights with the people you care about the most
because they are the relationships that you're willing to fight for...

You only find a few people in this world,
a few people who will tell you they love you
and actually mean it with all their heart.
Don't forget those people who stood by you
through it all, the special few that were
there for you until the ~~end.~~

For every minute you are angry you lose sixty seconds of happiness.

i'm reading your note over again
and there's not a word that i comprehend
except when you sign it i love you now and ~~forever. <3~~

I MEANT ALL THE THINGS I SAID.
IF YOU BELIEVE IT'S IN MY SOUL
I'D SAY ALL THE WORDS THAT I KNOW
JUST TO SEE IF IT WOULD SHOW
THAT I'M TRYING TO LET YOU KNOW
THAT I'M BETTER OFF ON MY OWN.

MAYBE I SHOULD HATE YOU FOR THIS.

You know what i hate?
When adults tell you
They're preparing you
For when your out in the "real world"
School isnt real?
Homework isnt real?
Drama isnt real?
I'm in a real world alright
If it wasn't i wouldn't be able to feel the pain

best friends. the ones that you can
get mad at for only an hour cause
you have important stuff to tell them

When I write a story of my life
Dont be surprised when your name
shows up a kajilion times

I'm not afraid of heights; I'm afraid of falling.
I'm not scared of the dark; I'm scared of what's in it.
I'm not afraid to love; I'm afraid of not being loved back.

two kids, with whole lot of love for eachother.
& a whole bunch of things standing in their way.

life isnt easy.
love hurts. boys lie.
friends stab. people die.
parents yell. you always try.
you`re never good enough.
& you don`t know why.

"why don't you smoke?", people ask me.
i just smile and say, "thats like asking me,
why don't you jump out of a speeding car?"

rip apart the notes, tear the lyrics & erase the beat
shread everything that reminds her of you
the tears fall and she knows
she'd have to ~~destroy~~ the world to get you out of her head

She pretends she doesn't care,
but really she cares
more than anyone else.