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Friday, February 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 11:17:24 GMT

alvin is my best guy friend... i don't want to ruin that by dating him again... dating him caused drama which caused more depression...

good news! i'm most likely going back to ojr... wait that bad news... oh well

ive watch rent a zillion times... while you guys are at school

i still cry myself to sleep

i hung out with joeyyyyyyyyy the coolest guy cousin ever and his twenty year old friend justin who somehow i am supposed to remember... they made fun of me cuz i forgot my birthday is coming up... MARCH 5TH dont forget sexii people

i got back from florida and damn i wish i was back there

oh yeah i have a sexii ass new boyfriend... DAVID... hes a sweetheart...

steph my sexii lover got a boyfriend on valentines day...

i love my sexii friends who are there for me when i need them

>beckaboohoo >doraaa >myka >swiper >kayla >joeyyyyy >kaitlin >well elvis used to be one >carlie >kelly >erin >erin >michelle >danielle >alllllvin! >david >kathryn >shelllley >amanda >chris (my brotherioooo) >kerriann >i guess nate cuz hes just nate and weird >BRANT!!! >nick >jesssss who i have to hang out with again soon >and other peeeeeeeople that im too lazy to mention

they are my true friends

not f'rs who tell me to go kill myself

i hope mere learns her god damn lesson

SMILEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE cuz yall are stuck with me

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 11:53:19 GMT

yes, i havent been at school

no i'm not moving to florida

no i did not get suspended cuz of being the stupid bum up on the bus

no all the rumors are false

its true i may not be going back to ojr tho

alex, if you got a "beef" with me stop being a pussy and just f'n talk to me

Friday, January 27, 2006

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 21:32:45 GMT

wow people are such pussys

if ya got something to say to me... just say it

if you wanna deal with the side effects then its your fate not mine

but dont go talkin shit about me behind my back

say it to my face

i broke up with the love of my life

i cant stand hurting him with my depression anymore

if god damn rumors dont stop ill serious beat anyone who starts them

have a nice day... if you are wondering where i am ask me not others cuz most likely...

THEY'RE WRONG

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 22:00:49 GMT

its been a long time since ive had as much fun as ive had tonight

tonight hannah bryannas friend told me to stop talking shit on her... psh i just told one friend that she had been over reacting and my friend told me she was following us

he wont stop touching me

his touch gives me shivers

i saw him tonight... there was nothing i could do

who knows what may happen next

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 11:22:46 GMT

its sunday

i have no life

now that im not at stupid school im better

my one bruise is starting to fade stupid ass

well life sucks

i <3 my friends

and woohoo

i have no clue what else to write?

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 19:38:58 GMT

i hate depression

skdfnasdjfhsajk

i hate the guy in my first period class

i hate that a few guys want me

i hate life

i wish to die

i'm not after attention cuz no1 reads this anyhow

will i wake tomorrow from this nightmare?

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 21:50:10 GMT

fuck the world

why should i even live?

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 19:18:09 GMT

no school for me all this week

my doctor doesnt even want me going tomorrow *sigh*

boredom

Sunday, January 01, 2006

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 18:52:46 GMT

i have blue permanent marker on me... yes, hannah found one... i got 0 seconds of sleep... wooooooooooooooooooooooooo

duuuuuuude i was the only freshman... there were 2 or 3 sophemores but they didnt stay the night

haha mexicans

pics from last night/this morning:

gabby this morning...omg she was soooo out of it

james, nick, steph, dan, and tim underneath

artie and michelle

nick

dan, steph, nick, ally (the lump), and tim

kerriann dancing (the guard girls were doing something from indoor)

i have others but it wont let me show all of them so o well

Friday, December 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Dec 2005 21:46:37 GMT

Have you…
1. Fallen for your neighbor? once a kid that lives near me
2. Made out with just a friend? Yes.
3. Been rejected? Yes.
4. Been in love? I am... Alvin
5. Used someone? No.
6. Been used? yes.
7. Been Kissed? Yes.
8. Done something you regret? Yes.

Who was the last person?
10. You talked to? alvin
11. You hugged? that is a good question
12. You instant messaged? Kelly
13. You kissed? :X
15. You yelled at? who knows
16. You laughed with? Kelly
17. Who broke your heart? Nate
18. Who told you they loved you? Alvin
19. You told you loved? Alvin

Do you …
20. Have a Birthmark? yes
21. Have any piercing? yes
22. Have a 6 pack? psh.
23. Own your own house? im only f'n 14.
24. Own a nice car? psh.
25. Speak any languages? english, morningish, food-in-the-mouthish, and some french.
26. Cook your own Dinner? oreos and milk
27. Color your hair? highlights.
28. Have green eyes? sometimes.

Have you / Do you / Are you...
29. Stolen anything? me? never
30. Smoked? no.
31. Taken illegal drugs? no.
32. Obsessive? Yep.
35. Panic? Yeah.
36. Anxiety? Yes, i am on a med for it.
37. Depressed? i think that could be why i am on anti-depressants... hmmmmm.
38. Control Freak? idk?.
39. Obsessed with hate? lol who knows.
41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? with alvin .
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body? leg holds, splits.. haha that seems so sexual.
43. What feature do you find most attractive on girls/guys? everything alvin has.
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president? Yes, Myka Elizabeth.
45. Would you marry for money? um no?
46. Have you had braces? yes.
47. Do you wear lip gloss? Sometimes.
48. Do you sing in the shower? yes'm.
50. Could you live without a computer? NO.
51. Do you use AOL, MSN, Yahoo for instant messanger? AIM.
52. If so, how many people are on your list? im too lazy too look.
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be? when i was lil and things were simple
54. Do you wear white socks?sometimes.
55. Do you wear shoes? um slippers preferred
56. What is your favorite fruit? haha fruit? me eat them? psh
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white? idc.
58. What is your favorite place to visit? anywhere there are twirling competitions.
59. Fave DVD? phantom of the opera or diary of a mad black woman... i cant wait until rent comes out
60. Do you kiss on the first date? matters who
61. Are you photogenic? i'm too ugly for photos
62. Do you dream in color or black and white? both
63. What are you wearing right now? sweats, ojrhs band jacket, etnies shoes, cami.
64. Do you eat a lot of fruit? no
65. Do you have any dimples? *sigh* yes.
66. Do you remember being born? um no?
67. Why do you take surveys? cuz i'm a loser
68. Do you drink alcohol? no
69. Do you like high school? No.
70. What is the best accent? Irish
71. Who do you want to kiss? Alvin and only Alvin so kiss my ass
72. Do you like sunsets? yes
73. Do you want to live to be 100? right now i dont want to live to be 15
74. If not, why? because i feel like it?
75. Do you or have you played with a ouija board? Yes.
76. Are you loyal? idk... i know i am to alvin
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs? yes.

[where are these questions?]

80. Do you think you can draw well? haha no
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Clause wasn't real? idk?
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? I don't fucking count.
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday? Pretty much.
84. Do you write poetry? Yes.
85. Snore? no
86. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides? all
87. Do you like Cats/Dogs? yes..
88. Do you lick stamps? if i need to?
89. Do you use an electric can opener? yes..
90. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon? Nope.
91. Like your name? no
92. Were you named after anyone? *sigh* a baby who was on a soapopera then apparently disappeared from the show.
93. Do you wish on stars? yes
94. Which finger is your favorite? idk?
95. When did you last cry? today wooooooo.
96. Who do you admire? too many
97. What is the number 1 priority in your life? tie between alvin and twirling
98. Any bad habits? me? never