a balding man in a suit
with an ipod and an empty
muffin-plate and crumbs on the table is freaking sitting on my red couch. i'm about four feet away from him
and intermittently i glance over like
some vulture in gaucho pants
and i ask with my eyes, "are you .done. yet?" yes, just like that. i am thankful that it is friday
because i am a child dropped into
a full-time job running on six hours of
nightly sleep. i am not complaining -- that must be clear.
but this also must be clear: i am a child. in gaucho pants. blink. my heart hurts. because my heart is what it Is
and because it is better to be
thankful than anxious: i love that the balding man left and i am Situated.
i like caffeine in appropriate doses. i love that i
have peripheral vision. i love shadows and reflections.
love. i like the colors red and black, especially
together. i love exploring. i love kissing my four
loves after they have fallen asleep -- whispering
i love you four times and goodnight, my angels. i miss them in the chaos. but i like albuquerque before the sun heats up.
i love dr. pepper. i like public transportation [not
so much using it as the concept itself -- smile].
i love reading for pleasure. i like that the manager
here calls customers by name. i love new retail
areas. i am amazed both by how disoriented i am
and the extent to which it doesn't matter at all. ... but we have this treasure in jars of clay
to show that this all-surpassing power is
from God and not from us. we are hard pressed on every side,
but not crushed;
perplexed, but not in despair... we always carry around in our body
the death of Jesus,
so that the life of Jesus may also be
revealed in our body.
for we who are alive are already being
given over to death for Jesus' sake,
so that His life may be revealed in
our mortal body.... we know that the one who raised
the Lord Jesus from the dead
will also raise us with Jesus and
present us with you in His presence.... therefore we do not lose heart. though
outwardly we are wasting away, yet
inwardly we are being renewed day by day.
for our light and momentary troubles
are achieving for us an eternal glory that
far outweighs them all.
so we fix our eyes not on what is seen,
but on what is unseen.
for what is seen is temporary, but what is
unseen is eternal.... we .implore. you on Christ's behalf:
be reconciled to God.
God made Him who had no sin to be
sin for us, so that in Him we might
become the righteousness of God.
as God's fellow workers we .urge. you
not to receive God's grace in vain.
for He says, "in the time of My favor I heart you,
and in the day of salvation I helped you." i tell you, .now. is the time of God's favor,
.now. is the day of salvation. [2 corinthians 4, 5, 6 -- emphasis added] | 
